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steve, 15 december 2013

"Dream"

"Dream"
Do you know how hard.. it is to say...
that I'm in love with you...
When I know you'll never feel the same...
no matter what I do,
To know that you will never care...
to never feel your touch...
Is almost more than I can bear...
when truth becomes too much,
It's not as if I didn't know...
what I'd stepped into...
It was more about just knowing...
what's inside of you,
For that, I don't regret...
this pain that wounds my heart...
If we didn't love each other...
this world would come apart,
I know the dreams within my heart...
I'll never realize...
But it takes me to a distant place...
when I look into your eyes,
And though my heart is broken...
it's not always as it seems...
We will always be together...
when I close my eyes and dream.

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steve, 18 december 2018

"One Last Chance"

It's my last chance to convince you.. that "rainbows aren't just rain"..
And sometimes when we sacrifice.. there's so much more to gain,
Knock down all the walls you built.. and let my heart come in..
Feed to me my hearts desire.. for what its always been,
You still take my breath away.. as you did the day we met..
And the fire still burns beneath my skin.. as does my hearts regret,
I've waited for so long for you.. with hopes you'd someday see..
A friend who's always cared for you.. and what you mean to me,
I just want to look at you.. and tell you what I feel..
Before so much time has passed away.. that I never will,
One last chance to touch you.. before my heart lets go..
One less dream to fly away.. with love I'll never show,
To have you feel what I can't say.. to lay my hands on you..
To show my heart without one word.. is what I need to do,
To look into those deep blue eyes.. that take me far away..
Or dream of what could never be.. as you ask me to stay,
One last chance to cool the flames.. that have raged inside for years..
One last chance to turn the page.. and put an end to tears.
sg

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steve, 19 june 2015

"Just Pretend"

Its safe to say.. you'll never know, just what I feel inside...
You'll never know the lonely nights.. or see the tears I've cried,
And you'll never have to wonder.. why you feel this way...
Or hide the shame of who you are.. for fear they'll know your gay,
You'll never have to live a lie.. or pretend your what, your not...
But you'll always hear the reasons why.. they deserved just what they got,
You'll never have to just pretend.. how happy that you are...
While the only place you feel at ease... is some seedy down town bar,
You'll never have hear the words.. " a choice, that you have made"...
While making death a cheaper price.. than what we have to pay,
Things you take for granted.. are things I'll never know...
With so much hate for those like me.... were not allowed to go,
I'll never have "that special day" .. to proclaim my love out loud...
And no one will ever call me "Dad".. or want to make me proud,
I'm not afforded all the rights... that you enjoy each day...
And there are places.. you don't dare.. to let them know your gay,
If hate and fear are nurtured... just how can we progress?
As children take there lives each day.. for what they can't confess,
And how many lives must be lost.. before the world will see...
Your born with the heart you carry.. its not what you chose to be,
Open your eyes, I'm your brother.. your sister.. a friend that you knew...
Let go of the hate and the anger.. and what you'll see looking back is you.
sg

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steve, 19 april 2017

"Pretend The Pain Away"

The sun won't shine without you... the nights are twice as long...
And I'm just lying in the dark... wondering what went wrong,
The sky's no longer blue... the way it used to be...
And even when the stars come out... it's just too dark to see,
The truth is.. life without you... hasn't been the same...
I still break down every time... someone says your name,
I can't pretend the pain away... it's just too hard to do...
And I can't forget the way it was... I've never wanted to,
Our friends won't come here anymore.. they don't know what to say...
As I keep the curtains drawn uptight.. and stay in bed all day,
I pick up all the pieces.. and say that.. "it's all good"...
But it's just a lie to cover up.. how I've never understood,
The sun may rise tomorrow.. but it's just another day...
For nothing in this world makes sense.. since you went away.

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steve, 26 march 2020

"Wasn't Enough"

What can I say.. that hasn't been said...
Of dreams I had.. that now, are all dead,
Love wasn't enough to help you to see...
All that you had.. when you still had me,
And it wasn't enough.. that I've always been here...
As you make up excuses.. to just disappear,
And love wasn't enough.. as you still raised your hand...
While love trickled away... like hourglass sand,
Bruises and blood... heartache and pain...
What you called love... I call insane,
I know that it hurts... I've been hurting for years...
As I try to explain away all the tears,
Now it's too late... there's nothing to save...
There's only goodbye... as I walk away.

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steve, 15 june 2020

Blue

If you ever wonder why my heart is always blue...
It's not hard to find the answer, because I'm in love with you,
I know that your afraid, to be where I now stand...
To tear down all the walls you've built, and give to me your hand,
To lay your heart out on the line, to bare your soul to me...
To trust me in that guarded space, that only love should be,
I'd never want to hurt you or cause you any pain...
I'd keep your heart right next to mine, and shield you from the rain,
I'll show you love you've never known, and hold your heart above...
And there will be no doubt at all, to weather I do love,
For all the joys that love would bring, together we would share...
To say goodbye to lonely night, and know I'll always care,
If these words were not my own, but words you said to me...
My heart would never cry again, and blue would never be.

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steve, 1 march 2014

"Dreamer"

They say that I'm a dreamer.. and I'd have to say its true...
Its just that when I sleep.. all I dream about is you,
I've tried to back away from you.. I've tried to clear my head...
But life without you.. feels as though I'm hanging by a thread,
I don't know.. just what it is.. that I'm supposed to do...
I can't stop the sunrise.. or "what I feel for you",
I can't make you understand.. " I have no control"...
Or look beyond what you see.. into the window of my soul,
And I can't show, my love for you.. that swell's inside my heart...
Is the very love, I can't control.. thats tearing me apart,
If I had.. just one wish.. I would have you close your eyes...
So that you could see and feel .. the truth beyond the lies,
To lay my hands upon you.. as your heartbeats next to mine...
To stare into those deep blue eyes.. that always seem to shine,
To bring a dream to life.. to make a wish come true...
To hold my heart.. in your hands.. because you wanted too,
Just one chance to show you.. the dreams that haunt my sleep...
Just one chance to know you.. and love that I can't keep.
sg

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steve, 3 november 2023

Every Moment

How do I touch your heart, the way that you touched mine?
You hold the keys to Heaven, but I can't cross the line,
You're everything I've dreamed of, the answer to a prayer...
And the only thing I need, that I need more than air,
You have the power to give me, what I've never known...
And my last chance at love, before God calls me home,
If only for a day, or an hour you were mine...
Your gift would be enough, of heaven to enshrine,
I will cherish "every moment", as it's now a part of me...
Whether life or in death, in my heart you'll always be.

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steve, 23 december 2013

"The Beast of Agua Fria"

It lies in wait.. a dormant beast...
                               residing where there's none...
In the hills.. and caves of dark...
                               where rocks are weighed in tons,
Waiting for the blood-red moon...
                               when slumber is no more...
It rises from the darkest depths...
                         and steps out of ancient lore,
You strain your eyes to see it...
                              through the shadows of the trees...
But you know that something lies in wait...
                               you can smell it in the breeze,
The crackling of a breaking branch...
                               the rustling in the brush...
Your heart pounds like thunder...
                               and your blood begins to rush,
You turn to see those big red eyes...
                               as they are set on you...
And the distant echo's of your screams...
                               too late for legends true,
It roams the hills on moonless nights...
                               in search of scattered souls...
A thousand years.. it hasn't changed...
                               and no one knows the toll,
Legends warn.. of thee beware...
                               what lies beyond the road...
The Beast of Agua Fria lives...
                               where blood-red river's flow.

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steve, 27 december 2012

"Beyond The Moonlight Beams"

I gently take you by the hand..
                                   but only in my dreams,
And lay you down upon my bed..
                                   beyond the moonlight beams...
Just one look from those blue eye's..
                                   and I've lost all control...
And everything I thought I knew..
                                   I never knew at all,
I've laid by you a thousand times..
                                   but only in my dreams...
For in that world.. you are mine..
                                   beyond the moonlight beams,
I've tried to tell you how I feel..
                                   and I've tried to make you care....
But you can't make someone feel..
                                   when the feeling isn't there,
You tell me that you love me..
                                   but only in my dreams...
In that world our love is strong..
                                   beyond the moonlight beams,
I know I'll never hear the words..
                                   or ever feel your touch...
But I have but just to fall asleep..
                                   and you love me just as much,
I lay my head upon your chest..
                                   but only in my dreams...
And in the darkness.. we are one..
                                   beyond the moonlight beams,
I've cried myself to sleep..
                                   after dreams I've had of you...
And then cried harder still..
                                   when I had to face the truth,
I've held you close against my heart..
                                   but only in my dreams...
And we've made love a thousand times..
   beyond the moonlight beams,
When I look into those deep blue eye's..
   it takes my breath away...
And this whole dam world could dissapear..
                                   if only you would stay,
You gave to me your heart and soul..
                                 though only in my dreams...
But Its ..happy ever after...
                                   beyond the moonlight beams.
                                            sg