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steve, 14 may 2012
"Hardest Thing"
How do I say goodbye...
after all the years with you....
I never thought the day would come,
when you would say were through,
The last six months have been so hard,
it should come as no surprise...
But the last thing that I ever wanted,
was to hear you say goodbye,
I thought we'd be together,
until we reached the end,
Holding to each other...
being my best friend,
When you think that what you have,
is built on solid ground,
It disappears beneath your feet,
with everything you found,
Everything you thought you knew,
turns out to be a lie,
And the only thing your certain off,
you wish that you could die,
When I cried.. no one cared..
there was no one there for me...
And the one I chose to love the most
didn't want to be,
Its the hardest thing I've ever done
to walk away from you...
But its not a choice I got to make,
its what I had to do,
sg
steve, 8 june 2012
"Deep Blue"
I fell into the ocean..
where the waters deep and blue...
And the current took me out to sea...
before I ever knew,
Since the day that I first met you..
though it's hard to even try...
I'd never want to stare too long...
into your deep blue eye's,
Like the pulling of the currents...
that takes you out to sea...
I lose the sense of where I am...
or where I want to be,
As the water swirel's around me...
I try to lift my head...
To keep myself from drowning...
from anything that's said,
But the currents just too strong...
as I go down again...
Pulled into your deep blue eyes...
that seem to have no end,
Lost in my emotions..
and surrounded in deep blue...
Desire swimming in my head..
each time I think of you,
I knew.. when I fell in...
that this was way too deep...
And my chances for survival...
were even less than bleak,
I fell into deep water...
the day I fell for you...
And I don't know if swimming out...
is something I can do,
The current is too strong to fight..
and the water feels so good...
I'm not sure I'd save myself...
even if I could,
I fell into the ocean..
where the waters deepest blue...
And there's nothing that can save me now...
from the love I feel for you.
sg
steve, 14 may 2012
"Everything I Can"
I sit alone.. in the night...
and look up at the stars...
Remembering love I used to have...
that now.. just seems so far,
I watch the tule fog...
as it rolls in over me...
And the stars all disappear...
like the love that used to be,
The mist rains down upon me...
just like a million tears...
Like all the Angels crying...
as they watch me sitting here,
They know this heart is broken...
and lost its will to live...
For I've given everything I have...
with nothing left to give,
I've done everything I can...
to save a love gone bad...
I guess there's just no saving...
what you never really had,
But I'll always be in love with you...
and though you'll never know...
I'll keep you deep inside my heart...
where ever I may go.
steve, 2 august 2012
"Help Me Find My Way"
Changes in my life.. are comming hard and fast...
I've lost almost everything.. of things I thought would last,
I lost my job.. then my home.. and the bad luck didn't end...
For yesterday I lost my heart... when I lost my one best friend,
I've heard "God" won't put on you.. more than you can take...
Well if your listening.. Lord.. I've nothing left to break,
My life is in such shambles.. I'm walking on the edge...
What used to be a wide path.. is now a narrow ledge,
I teator on the brink.. not sure which way to go...
It seems my head is spinning.. but my world is moving slow,
Are you calling to me "Father"... is there something I must do?
Well I'm putting my life in your hands.. to leave it up to you,
Theres nothing left to offer.. I've got nothing left to give...
Except this broken heart... and what life is left to live,
I've nowhere else to turn.. so today I turn to you...
For the burdens I once carried.. I'm no longer able too,
I hope that you can hear me.. for I've been so far away...
But I'm ready to come home now.. if you'll help me find my way.
sg
steve, 8 june 2012
"Reflection In The Mirror"
The only way to let you go, is to look you in the eyes...
And face the pain you put me through, and times you made me cry,
I know that you don't give a dam, you've made that crystal clear...
The only thing you care about is the "reflection in the mirror",
I used to think I knew you, I believed the words you said...
No matter how hard the road became, I followed where you led,
I didn't question motives, I only wanted love...
I should have read between the lines, to see what you're made of,
A mistake that cost me dearly, but they say that "love is blind"...
And all the wasted years I've lost, on love, I'd never find,
I don't believe you've ever loved, anyone but you...
You lie so much, that you believe, the things you say are true,
I guess I should feel sorry, for the person that you are...
Though someday you'll go down in flames, just like a falling star,
You make the bed you lie in, and you'll reap what you have sewn...
And just like me someday you'll see, you'll wake up all alone,
But I'll pick up all the pieces, of my heart and carry on...
Scattered lonely remnants, by a heart already gone.
sg
steve, 9 june 2012
"We Laugh, We Cry, We Live & Die"
My heart is all but shattered.... and the pieces fall like rain....
Scattered by the wind... it seems to numb the pain,
I have lost myself... and it seems I've lost my way....
My direction is uncertain... and nothing feels OK,
I don't know where I'm going... or just what lies ahead...
But I can hear the whispers... though I don't know what was said,
I feel as though a part of me... has died and blown away...
And I am just an empty shell... `with nothing left to say,
The echo's in the distance... are ringing in my ears...
And as the sun begins to rise.... I wipe away the tears,
Its strange it seems... how life goes on... while yours is crashing down...
And though one "love"is at its end... another one is found,
And so it goes.. the circle... as it was meant to be...
"We laugh.. we cry.. we live.. and die"... and then our soul is free,
So I will gather the pieces... of my scattered wind blown heart...
And never look over my shoulder... at the world you tore apart.
sg
steve, 23 may 2012
"Watch Me Fly Away"
If I die tomorrow... what I had with you today...
Means more to me than anything... I could ever write or say,
I can't imagine anything... more beautiful than you...
If only I could steal your heart... and make you love me too,
There's nothing in this world... that could make me look away...
If you said those words I long to hear... and promised me you'd stay,
There's nothing that I'd ever want... and nothing that I'd need....
For when your laying in my arms... I feel so complete,
I used to think I knew love... as I hide behind regret...
But what I used to think was love... I wish I could forget,
I look at you...and what I feel.. makes me realize...
All the years.. I threw away.. and the wasted tears I've cried,
Your every dream I've ever had... every wish I ever made...
Your the cool breeze across my skin.... caressing as it fades,
This life I'd give tomorrow... to have you one more day...
Then cast my ashes to the wind... and watch me fly away.
sg
steve, 18 may 2012
"Love I Never Had"
Yesterday's just a memory..
that seems so far away...
And love is just a word..
that people like to say,
I could say that I don't know ..
I could say that it was you...
But it wouldn't change whats in my heart
or what is or isn't true,
I could dwell on words.. or dwell on pain,
I could sit alone and cry...
But those are places that I've been..
as I fell for every lie,
So please don't say how much you care
when I know how much you don't,
Or tell me that your going to change..
when we both know you won't
I'm letting go.. because you can't hold on
when theres nothing to hold on to,
I guess you never saw the dreams..
I saw for me and you,
I can't make you love..
for love comes from the heart...
And the only love you've ever shown..
has torn my world apart,
So let this be the ending..
of a fairytale gone bad...
And the wind blown scattered pieces..
of love I never had.
sg
steve, 15 december 2013
"Say The Words"
It's way past time to say goodbye...
for decisions you have made...
You treat love... like its a game...
and think people should be played,
So let me tell you how I feel...
and say goodbye to you...
I never thought I'd say the words...
much less believe its true,
You don't love me anymore...
the way a lover should...
And I can't stand... three rows back...
and play like its all good,
This heart will always love you...
and I wish you the best...
And pray that "God" watch over you...
and hope your life is blessed,
I hope you find.. what I call truth...
before the truth finds you ...
The things I've learned about you lately...
I wish I never knew,
You've changed so fast.. and so much...
I don't know who you are...
And the distance now between us...
has never been so far,
If this is who you really are...
you hid it well from me...
But now the truth has come to light...
and the truth has set me free.
steve, 15 december 2013
"Moments"
There's not much you can say..
when your heart is on the line...
Everything you say or do..
can hurt you everytime,
Knowone really seems to know..
just what you feel inside...
And knowone really cares about..
just how much you've cried,
So I try to grab a moment..
when a moment comes along...
Because I believe whats from the heart..
could never be that wrong,
A moment passes quickly..
but the memory's there to stay...
Its all I have to hold onto..
that gets me through the day,
So please don't think.. I'd ever want..
something you can't give...
I'm just grabing at a "moment" ..
from this lonely life I live,
sg
steve, 15 december 2013
"Dream"
"Dream"
Do you know how hard.. it is to say...
that I'm in love with you...
When I know you'll never feel the same...
no matter what I do,
To know that you will never care...
to never feel your touch...
Is almost more than I can bear...
when truth becomes too much,
It's not as if I didn't know...
what I'd stepped into...
It was more about just knowing...
what's inside of you,
For that, I don't regret...
this pain that wounds my heart...
If we didn't love each other...
this world would come apart,
I know the dreams within my heart...
I'll never realize...
But it takes me to a distant place...
when I look into your eyes,
And though my heart is broken...
it's not always as it seems...
We will always be together...
when I close my eyes and dream.
steve, 18 december 2018
"One Last Chance"
It's my last chance to convince you.. that "rainbows aren't just rain"..
And sometimes when we sacrifice.. there's so much more to gain,
Knock down all the walls you built.. and let my heart come in..
Feed to me my hearts desire.. for what its always been,
You still take my breath away.. as you did the day we met..
And the fire still burns beneath my skin.. as does my hearts regret,
I've waited for so long for you.. with hopes you'd someday see..
A friend who's always cared for you.. and what you mean to me,
I just want to look at you.. and tell you what I feel..
Before so much time has passed away.. that I never will,
One last chance to touch you.. before my heart lets go..
One less dream to fly away.. with love I'll never show,
To have you feel what I can't say.. to lay my hands on you..
To show my heart without one word.. is what I need to do,
To look into those deep blue eyes.. that take me far away..
Or dream of what could never be.. as you ask me to stay,
One last chance to cool the flames.. that have raged inside for years..
One last chance to turn the page.. and put an end to tears.
sg
steve, 19 june 2015
"Just Pretend"
Its safe to say.. you'll never know, just what I feel inside...
You'll never know the lonely nights.. or see the tears I've cried,
And you'll never have to wonder.. why you feel this way...
Or hide the shame of who you are.. for fear they'll know your gay,
You'll never have to live a lie.. or pretend your what, your not...
But you'll always hear the reasons why.. they deserved just what they got,
You'll never have to just pretend.. how happy that you are...
While the only place you feel at ease... is some seedy down town bar,
You'll never have hear the words.. " a choice, that you have made"...
While making death a cheaper price.. than what we have to pay,
Things you take for granted.. are things I'll never know...
With so much hate for those like me.... were not allowed to go,
I'll never have "that special day" .. to proclaim my love out loud...
And no one will ever call me "Dad".. or want to make me proud,
I'm not afforded all the rights... that you enjoy each day...
And there are places.. you don't dare.. to let them know your gay,
If hate and fear are nurtured... just how can we progress?
As children take there lives each day.. for what they can't confess,
And how many lives must be lost.. before the world will see...
Your born with the heart you carry.. its not what you chose to be,
Open your eyes, I'm your brother.. your sister.. a friend that you knew...
Let go of the hate and the anger.. and what you'll see looking back is you.
sg
steve, 19 april 2017
"Pretend The Pain Away"
The sun won't shine without you... the nights are twice as long...
And I'm just lying in the dark... wondering what went wrong,
The sky's no longer blue... the way it used to be...
And even when the stars come out... it's just too dark to see,
The truth is.. life without you... hasn't been the same...
I still break down every time... someone says your name,
I can't pretend the pain away... it's just too hard to do...
And I can't forget the way it was... I've never wanted to,
Our friends won't come here anymore.. they don't know what to say...
As I keep the curtains drawn uptight.. and stay in bed all day,
I pick up all the pieces.. and say that.. "it's all good"...
But it's just a lie to cover up.. how I've never understood,
The sun may rise tomorrow.. but it's just another day...
For nothing in this world makes sense.. since you went away.
steve, 26 march 2020
"Wasn't Enough"
What can I say.. that hasn't been said...
Of dreams I had.. that now, are all dead,
Love wasn't enough to help you to see...
All that you had.. when you still had me,
And it wasn't enough.. that I've always been here...
As you make up excuses.. to just disappear,
And love wasn't enough.. as you still raised your hand...
While love trickled away... like hourglass sand,
Bruises and blood... heartache and pain...
What you called love... I call insane,
I know that it hurts... I've been hurting for years...
As I try to explain away all the tears,
Now it's too late... there's nothing to save...
There's only goodbye... as I walk away.
steve, 15 june 2020
Blue
If you ever wonder why my heart is always blue...
It's not hard to find the answer, because I'm in love with you,
I know that your afraid, to be where I now stand...
To tear down all the walls you've built, and give to me your hand,
To lay your heart out on the line, to bare your soul to me...
To trust me in that guarded space, that only love should be,
I'd never want to hurt you or cause you any pain...
I'd keep your heart right next to mine, and shield you from the rain,
I'll show you love you've never known, and hold your heart above...
And there will be no doubt at all, to weather I do love,
For all the joys that love would bring, together we would share...
To say goodbye to lonely night, and know I'll always care,
If these words were not my own, but words you said to me...
My heart would never cry again, and blue would never be.
steve, 1 march 2014
"Dreamer"
They say that I'm a dreamer.. and I'd have to say its true...
Its just that when I sleep.. all I dream about is you,
I've tried to back away from you.. I've tried to clear my head...
But life without you.. feels as though I'm hanging by a thread,
I don't know.. just what it is.. that I'm supposed to do...
I can't stop the sunrise.. or "what I feel for you",
I can't make you understand.. " I have no control"...
Or look beyond what you see.. into the window of my soul,
And I can't show, my love for you.. that swell's inside my heart...
Is the very love, I can't control.. thats tearing me apart,
If I had.. just one wish.. I would have you close your eyes...
So that you could see and feel .. the truth beyond the lies,
To lay my hands upon you.. as your heartbeats next to mine...
To stare into those deep blue eyes.. that always seem to shine,
To bring a dream to life.. to make a wish come true...
To hold my heart.. in your hands.. because you wanted too,
Just one chance to show you.. the dreams that haunt my sleep...
Just one chance to know you.. and love that I can't keep.
sg
steve, 3 november 2023
Every Moment
How do I touch your heart, the way that you touched mine?
You hold the keys to Heaven, but I can't cross the line,
You're everything I've dreamed of, the answer to a prayer...
And the only thing I need, that I need more than air,
You have the power to give me, what I've never known...
And my last chance at love, before God calls me home,
If only for a day, or an hour you were mine...
Your gift would be enough, of heaven to enshrine,
I will cherish "every moment", as it's now a part of me...
Whether life or in death, in my heart you'll always be.
steve, 23 december 2013
"The Beast of Agua Fria"
It lies in wait.. a dormant beast...
residing where there's none...
In the hills.. and caves of dark...
where rocks are weighed in tons,
Waiting for the blood-red moon...
when slumber is no more...
It rises from the darkest depths...
and steps out of ancient lore,
You strain your eyes to see it...
through the shadows of the trees...
But you know that something lies in wait...
you can smell it in the breeze,
The crackling of a breaking branch...
the rustling in the brush...
Your heart pounds like thunder...
and your blood begins to rush,
You turn to see those big red eyes...
as they are set on you...
And the distant echo's of your screams...
too late for legends true,
It roams the hills on moonless nights...
in search of scattered souls...
A thousand years.. it hasn't changed...
and no one knows the toll,
Legends warn.. of thee beware...
what lies beyond the road...
The Beast of Agua Fria lives...
where blood-red river's flow.
steve, 27 december 2012
"Beyond The Moonlight Beams"
I gently take you by the hand..
but only in my dreams,
And lay you down upon my bed..
beyond the moonlight beams...
Just one look from those blue eye's..
and I've lost all control...
And everything I thought I knew..
I never knew at all,
I've laid by you a thousand times..
but only in my dreams...
For in that world.. you are mine..
beyond the moonlight beams,
I've tried to tell you how I feel..
and I've tried to make you care....
But you can't make someone feel..
when the feeling isn't there,
You tell me that you love me..
but only in my dreams...
In that world our love is strong..
beyond the moonlight beams,
I know I'll never hear the words..
or ever feel your touch...
But I have but just to fall asleep..
and you love me just as much,
I lay my head upon your chest..
but only in my dreams...
And in the darkness.. we are one..
beyond the moonlight beams,
I've cried myself to sleep..
after dreams I've had of you...
And then cried harder still..
when I had to face the truth,
I've held you close against my heart..
but only in my dreams...
And we've made love a thousand times..
beyond the moonlight beams,
When I look into those deep blue eye's..
it takes my breath away...
And this whole dam world could dissapear..
if only you would stay,
You gave to me your heart and soul..
though only in my dreams...
But Its ..happy ever after...
beyond the moonlight beams.
sg
steve, 11 november 2012
"Should I"
Should I tell you what it does to me..
to get too close to you...
And lose control of everything..
I've tried to hold onto,
Should I tell you how I really feel..
though you don't feel the same?
Or play like there's no pain at all..
and to me its just a game,
Should I turn away, when you look at me..
and say its all been lies...
Because there's nothing that I wouldn't do..
when I look into blue eyes,
Do I hide the fact that I'm in love..
and never let you see...
That everything you are..
means everything to me,
Do I talk about the sleepless nights..
or that I dream of you...
Or do keep it all inside..
the way I always do,
I can't let you see the pain..
and I won't let you know...
A heart in love.. all alone..
has no place to go,
Should I tell you what you mean to me..
as the chips fall where they may...
Or take this broken heart and run..
far .. far .. away.
sg
steve, 18 january 2023
Something That You Gave
When at last we are accustomed.. to shoulder what we load...
Life will put a curve.. on a straight and narrow road...
No matter what the obstacle.. that's placed in front of you...
You rise to the challenge.. and what you have to do,
It's a trait that I admire.. it shows how strong you are...
It makes me proud to know you.. and how you've come so far,
The strength you have within you.. that others clearly see...
Was "something that you gave".. and made a better man of me,
It's a reason I was drawn to you... like the moth is to a flame...
It wasn't just your beauty.. this heart had longed to tame,
Your spirit is so complex ... with sides that you've kept stowed...
Or a stallion that runs free.. no man has ever rode,
I look up when I see you... what you gave to me is real...
Strength, love, and hope.. are the things you make me feel.
steve, 18 january 2023
Out Of Words
I've run "out of words" to say to you... but don't want to say goodbye...
Or let go of the dreams I've held... believing we could fly,
But one believing is not enough.. for love must be two...
No matter how hard the truth is to face... I'll never wake up with you,
I've carried this torch for so long.. my world beginning to burn...
As flames blow up all around me.. my life I cannot discern,
It's as though I'm under a spell.. and can focus no farther than you...
And try as I might to break down your walls... I've yet to ever get threw,
I don't know how long I can hold on... I don't know if you'll ever see...
I think I should throw my dreams to the wind.. and hope it sets my heart free.
steve, 18 january 2023
Never There
If you can't feel my love, above anything you've known...
After everything I've done and everything I've shown,
If you can't hear the words, that I speak to only you...
And know there from my heart, and every word is true,
If you can't see a time, that has peeled away the years...
Knowing time is running out, as are all my tears,
If you can't give to me, the only chance I need...
As you cut me with your words, and I just stand and bleed,
If you'd rather have the fantasies, that live inside your head...
Instead of flesh and blood, that can take your heart to bed,
If you let me walk away because you say that you don't care...
Then you're doing me a favor, because you were "never there".
steve, 18 january 2023
"Lonely For Too Long"
I'm sorry for what I said.. that turned your heart to stone...
But the love that drew me close to you.. is what I've never known,
I never meant to push you.. or turn your heart away...
I thought the strength I felt in you.. might help me find my way,
I don't know what I've done.. but the rain keeps pouring down...
As this broken heart cries out for love.. that's nowhere to be found,
I'm sorry for the friendship.. that I never got to hold...
Or the truth that's in my heart... I should have never told,
For the shoulder, I can't cry on.. for whatever I did wrong...
Forgive a broken man.. who's been lonely for too long.
steve, 9 february 2023
Time Won't Stop
You say that I don't give, the kind of love you need...
I say to have a forest, you first must plant a seed,
It isn't that there isn't love, it's not like I don't care...
It's just the things that matter most, are things that we don't share,
I don't need to tell you, again the way I feel...
For if you cannot hear me, these wounds will never heal,
There's not a day that passes, that your not in my heart...
And not a day that passes, that we don't tear apart,
I've heard it's just a fine line, between what's love and hate...
But the clock for us is ticking, and "time won't stop" to wait,
I wonder if things were different how happy we could be...
If we break the chains of anger, and set our spirits free,
As long as we hold to pain, these chains will hold us down...
And we'll look back at what was lost and love we never found,
I don't know if you hear me, or if were too far gone...
But I'm out here on this ledge alone, for us I'm holding on.
steve, 16 october 2023
You Don't Want Me
It hurts...that you can walk away... without a second thought...
When all I do.. is think of you.. wanting to or not,
The days are long without you.. as the smile I wear's pretend...
And the black abyss.. that we call night.. seems to have no end,
I can't make you care for me.. but I can't just walk away..
Until I hear it.. from your lips.. what you have to say,
This hearts already broken.. from that old familiar pain...
But I'd wait for you forever.. even in the pouring rain,
So look into this heart once more.. beyond what you might see...
Feel the love that's there for you.. and say "you don't want me",
Tell me whats inside your heart, it's what I need to know...
Tell me that you'll never care, so at last I can let go.
steve, 5 may 2023
Do It All Again
I've made every mistake, that one possibly could...
Every bad decision, instead of what I should,
My life is about regrets, and things I didn't say...
If I could "do it all again", it wouldn't be this way,
Many years have passed, since you left this town...
And countless beers I've put away, to keep you're memory down,
But I still drive by you're old house, to see if you are there...
I haven't met a person yet, with you I could compare,
I should have told you how I felt, so many years ago...
And never let you walk away, from things you didn't know,
But you will never know of, the love I feel for you...
And I could never forget, you're eyes of sapphire blue,
I don't know why I held back, or let you walk away...
I only know it's one regret, that I feel everyday,
If only I could turn back time, there's one thing I won't do...
For I would change everything, except my love for you.
steve, 9 july 2023
I Wouldn't
I just want to touch you, as your heart beats next to mine...
And breathe in your aroma, which smells like Forrest pine,
I don't want to care about, all the pain I feel...
And though I fell in love with you, I know you never will,
I don't want to know the love, that I will live without...
For heavy is the burden, when you have a heart devout,
I wish I'd never met you, then love would pass me by...
I'd have no broken heart, nor these tears that I cry,
I wouldn't cry myself to sleep, I wouldn't say your name...
Through tears I wouldn't to ask myself, why you don't feel the same,
I wouldn't need to see you or care that you don't care...
You wouldn't haunt my dreams at night, with desires I can't bare,
If only letting go of you, was an easy thing to do...
Goodbye would be so easy if I weren't in love with you.
steve, 25 july 2023
"The Only Way"
I can't make you look at me, the way I look at you...
And I can't show you what I feel unless you want me to,
I didn't want to love you, but my heart got in the way...
Wanting to believe there's a chance that you might stay,
You think it's only physical, but I've so much more inside...
It breaks my heart to know, there's no crossing that divide,
I believed in happy endings, fairy tales, and dreams...
But life is hard, love is pain, and nothing as it seems,
I don't know what to say, that I haven't said before...
I've cried a river of tears, to be washed up on the shore,
I need you in my life, but I have to say goodbye...
My heart needs time to heal, but won't if I don't try,
Sometimes goodbye"s the only way, when there's nothing left to do...
Goodbye would be so easy if I weren't in love with you.
Latest comments:
27 april 2024
kb
hm tutaj pokazano niejako wprost sprawcę światła.
27 april 2024
sufit, uśmiech i barany... no tak to jest, sama
27 april 2024
"wszystkie modlitwy wymyślili grzesznicy"
27 april 2024
social-real. bardzo fajnie ujęte
26 april 2024
jeśli tylko
właśnie :)
26 april 2024
Adam Pietras (Barry Kant)
Dzięki, Violetta!
25 april 2024
violetta
Dziękuję:)
25 april 2024
Bociany są takie ufne:)
25 april 2024
Yaro
Bardzo kobiecy wiersz:) Pozdrawiam:)
25 april 2024
Bardzo prawdziwe słowa.
25 april 2024
eyesOFsoul
A nawet mniej.
25 april 2024
Piękne:)
27 april 2024
Satish Verma
26 april 2024
wiesiek
26 april 2024
Satish Verma
25 april 2024
wiesiek
25 april 2024
Satish Verma
24 april 2024
Satish Verma
23 april 2024
Adam Pietras (Barry Kant)
22 april 2024
Satish Verma
21 april 2024
sam53
21 april 2024
wiesiek