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steve, 16 october 2023
"Fairy Tales"
Is it ignorance.. or denial.. that just won't let you see...
The reason pain and anger.. still dwells inside of me,
All the nights you left me.. to sit there by the phone...
All the nights I cried aloud.. and waited all alone,
All the pain you put me through..and all the lies you told...
And all I ever wanted.. was to have you there to hold,
Its as though you don't remember.. like.. you don't have a clue...
Of the sacrifaces that were made.. out love I had for you,
You've never done a single thing.. to prove your love to me...
And everything I've done for you.. you pretend you didn't see,
And yet somehow.. I'm to blame.. according to your lies...
Why place blame on anyone.. when its time to cut the ties,
I just wish I hadn't wasted, all those years on you....
But it's my fault for believing, that "fairy tales" come true.
steve, 18 january 2023
Anytime Anywhere
I know we've had our share, of arguments and fights...
But I just want to lay with you, and turn out all the lights,
I want to put the past, behind where it belongs...
And make up for the things, we have both done wrong,
I want to put you first, and be here every night...
And when you've had a hard day, I want to make it right,
To show you that I love you, and just how much I care...
For you will never be alone, I am always there,
There's no one that I need, I need only you...
And I'm hoping that you feel the same way that I do,
I'll do anything for you, anytime, anywhere...
You don't have to ask, you just have to care,
steve, 9 june 2022
"Love Equals Pain"
I wish I'd never met you, then my heart would still be mine...
And I wouldn't cry myself to sleep, pretending everything is fine,
I wish I'd never talked to you, or even heard your name...
It hurts so much when your not here, I'll never be the same,
I wish that I could turn back time, to the day before we met...
So I could turn and run as far away as I could get,
I wish that you could feel, the pain that I must bear...
Only then could you understand, just how much I care,
But it really doesn't matter, that I'm in love with you...
One plus love equals pain, for love, there must be two,
Nothing that I've ever done, has made you care for me...
So please have mercy on my heart, and just set me free.
steve, 6 november 2020
What Am I Doing?
I can't hear your tortured thoughts, or see what you've been through...
But I can feel your pain from here, through miles of missing you,
I'm sorry if I made you think, somehow I didn't care...
I never meant to bring to you, feelings of despair,
I care so much from my heart, it swells the fear in me...
I'll ask myself "What am I doing?" I clearly cannot see,
I have no right to put on you, what I think I need...
No matter how much pain I feel, no matter what I bleed,
A world away what do I have, that could ever make you see...
All I have to offer you, is all I have of me,
steve, 6 november 2020
She Lives
Trapped inside myself, there's no place I can hide,
No escape, no salvation, only years of tears I've cried,
You don't know what it does to me, when you come into view...
How it tears me up inside, because I'm in love with you,
Knowing you will never care, or ever touch my skin...
Or ever really get to know, the person that I am,
Trapped and all alone, bottled up for years...
She'll never have her freedom... but she can have her tears,
No one even knows... that she lives at all...
The chains that hold her down, keep her shackled to her walls,
She'll never see the light of day, she'll never be set free...
Though she loves, she'll not be loved, such is destiny.
steve, 6 november 2020
Burning Flame
It cuts just like a knife, every time I hear your name...
And I feel the blood just drain away, as we start to play the game,
You're never going to give me, the part of you I need...
And I'm never going to let you know, just how much I bleed,
The tears rain down inside my head, and I am washed away...
As this heart is broken once again, by things I couldn't say,
I tried to hide this "burning flame", but I got too close to you...
Now my world is burning down, and there's nothing I can do,
Even tears can't douse the flames, as I begin to burn...
And the pain that only lonely brings, is far too strong to turn,
My heart's desire in front of me... and yet a world away...
But I'd give this life to feel your love, if only for a day.
steve, 27 january 2021
Never
You will "never" feel the same...
It pierced my heart.. with deadly aim,
I guess there's nothing I can do...
That will ever get me close to you,
My heart screams out... in silent pain...
Alone again... in the rain,
Knowone hears me... no one cares...
And only "God", can hear my prayers,
Right or wrong... what I feel...
This broken heart... will never heal,
A hallow soul... now dwells in me...
Crying out... to be set free,
But I am shackled... to what I feel...
My heart is hostage... my fate is sealed,
Love will "never"... know my name...
For you will "never" feel the same.
steve, 22 october 2021
"Never To Love Again"
How do I tell my heart, never to love again...
To let go of my dreams, to never touch your skin,
To never breath you're fragrance, you're intoxicating scent...
That renders me a slave, to whatever you're intent,
How do I tell my mind, that you're no good for me...
Pain is not the answer, because we disagree,
How do I let go, of the reason my heartbeats...
As my every waking thoughts, are of you beneath my sheets,
Why should I even care, when you don't care at all...
As once again this broken heart, takes another fall.
To never see you again, to turn and walk away...
To know the words we speak, are the last we'll ever say,
steve, 28 april 2022
What Keeps Me Holding On
What is it about you.. that draws me close to you...
That keeps you in my thoughts.. no matter what I do,
That won't let me forget.. what it was we shared...
That won't let me forget.. you never really cared,
Why is it that my heart breaks.. each time I hear your name...
And nothing in my life.. without you is the same,
The seasons of my life.. have brought the autumn leaves...
Still, every time you touch me.. I can barely breath,
"What keeps me holding on".. to dreams just out of reach...
Or won't let me stop pounding.. on walls I'll never breach,
Why can't I just let go.. and watch you walk away...
For nothing in my world.. could ever make you stay,
Why is "love" the one thing.. that no one can control...
And still the only thing.. that makes a person whole,
Why can't my heart accept.. "the truth, of reasons why"...
And learn to let go of the pain.. each time I say goodbye.
steve, 28 april 2022
Wanted You To Know
I can't live without you.. I don't even want to try...
All I do is sit around.. asking myself why,
Why did you stop loving me..and why it hurts so bad...
If I'd done the things I didn't do.. would you be here if I had,
My mind just keeps on racing... and my heart just pounds away ...
And time is running out.. for the things I need to say,
I feel as though I'm spinning.. and there's nothing I can do...
But I need to tell you.. just how much.. that I'm in love with you,
I'm sorry for all the things.. I've done to let you down...
I should have been a better man.. than the one you found,
I'm sorry if I hurt you.. and if I wasn't there...
But there was not a moment past.. for you I didn't care,
No matter what the future holds.. and if it didn't show...
There's nothing I loved more than you... "I wanted you to know."
steve, 28 april 2022
What's To Lose
Do you know how hard it is for me.. to know that you are there?
Do you know how many tears I've cried.. to hide how much I care,
I sit here thinking about you.. as the tears roll down my face...
All alone again tonight.. I just wanna get out of this place,
I want to run into your arms.. and hold you all night long...
I want to kiss .. and say "I Love You" .. I don't care whats right or wrong,
I need you to feel whats in my heart.. things I'm afraid to say...
I want you to care when were apart.. and tell me your gonna stay,
It may not last.. people change.. and life's not carved in stone...
But any chance.. beats no chance.. when lonely's all you've known,
What's to loose.. but your heart.. for mines already gone...
It belong's to you.. and always has.. from dusk to breaking dawn.
steve, 28 april 2022
Wish Upon A Falling Star
I sit here on a stary night.. but my thoughts belong to you...
I wish upon a falling star.. in hopes it will come true,
The nights keep getting longer.. and days just come and go...
And I can't help but wonder.. about the love I used to know,
I had hopes and dreams, and plans.. to build my life with you...
And I used to think you felt the same.. but I don't think you do,
I thought our love was strong enough.. to weather any storm...
I used to feel your passion burn.. now its barely warm,
I used to feel the love.. when you told me that you care...
But now I can't remember.. the last good time we shared,
I miss your hands upon me... I long to feel your touch...
I don't think they'll ever be.. someone I love as much,
There goes yet another star.. as it streaks across the sky...
And here goes yet another wish.. that we don't say goodbye,
So I wish upon this falling star.. that the love we had is true...
And may it bring you home to me, with love that we once knew.
steve, 6 november 2020
Time
Time has kept me prisoner, with the dreams I have of you...
Keeping me awake each night, with things that I can't do,
Slowing down the hands of time, in the middle of the night...
Minutes turn to hours, as time holds back the light,
It's only in the darkest hour, that time is standing still...
When I miss you most of all, time only you could fill,
Dreams are all I have of you, as time keeps you at bey...
But even time must run it's course, as time just ticks away,
And when the time has finally passed, just maybe we'll both see...
How precious time really is, and what our time could be.
steve, 16 october 2023
"Take A Chance"
I don't want to say the things, I always say to you...
And I don't want to cry the tears, that I always do,
I don't want to ask again, for something you won't give...
When your here it hurts too much, and that's no way to live,
Goodbye's the only answer, to rid me of the pain...
"Out of sight, out of mind", might just keep me sane,
It's not a choice I choose to make, it's what I have to do...
This broken heart can take no more, of living life askew,
If we'd done this, or I'd done that, if you'd given me a chance...
If you'd learn to let your heart decide, it might of said "just dance",
I'd like to think I'm more, to you than just a friend,
But you won't let me get that close, and I cannot pretend,
If you never "take a chance", on understanding something new...
How much have you missed, when it's right in front of you?
Life is taking chances, and learning as we grow...
If you never try another path, how will you ever know?
And though this is goodbye, I leave with you my heart...
It's something that belongs to you, and has from the start.
steve, 5 november 2023
"Smoke Upon The Wind"
As I'm out here on my own, it gets harder everyday...
And I think about when you were here, the things I didn't say,
Every night is longer, than the one that came before...
And I feel as though I'm stranded, on some far and distant shore,
Our bed is cold and lonely,as I lay my head to sleep...
And I wish that I was stronger, as I close my eyes and weep,
The house just seems to echo, it's your voice that I can hear...
From times we were together, like reflections in the mirror,
I wonder if you have regrets, or feel the way I do...
For every single part of me, is still in love with you,
Tell me you don't care, that your not in love with me...
That all the years mean nothing, you just wanted to be free,
That you moved on without me, and you want it all to end...
And I'll disappear before your eyes, like "smoke upon the wind"...
steve, 11 november 2023
"Cold Heart"
What hurts the most is finding out.. that you "never" cared for me...
I thought you were my friend for life.. but it would never be,
Everything you've ever said.. has all been just a lie...
You broke my heart beyond repair.. and left me asking why?
What kind of friend could hurt someone.. the way that you've hurt me...
After all the times you spoke of love.. that I should clearly see,
There is no love inside you.. except your love for you...
They all tried to warn me.. but I couldn't see the truth,
You used me like so many.. that's just what users do...
And when there's nothing left at all.. you try to blame them too,
It's an ice "cold heart".. to crush someone.. and leave them there to die...
You took the shirt right off my back.. and never said goodbye,
For all the pain that you've caused.. and all the lies you've told...
Will someday circle back to you.. and hit you hard ten fold,
I know that I should hate you.. but I look at you and cry...
As you made greed instead of love.. your partner till you die,
You've lived your whole life taking.. that which you've not earned...
You've stepped on lives without a thought.. and left them there to burn,
I pity the person you've become.. and what lies ahead for you...
Because we "all" must someday answer.. for "today" the things we do.
steve, 13 november 2023
"What To Say"
I don't know "what to say" to you, I don't know what to do...
This broken heart will never heal, unless I'm far from you,
You feel nothing in your heart, you have no love for me...
While I struggle with feelings for you, that you refuse to see,
You don't need me in your life, you've got so many friends...
You don't need someone who cares, you need someone who bends,
I'm at my very end, and just want to run away...
The pain keeps getting stronger, and the skies are always grey,
I want not to walk away, for my heart belongs to you...
But if you don't want me in your life, I must face the truth,
My only option is to run away, as far as I can get..
Don't look back, don't say your name, don't try again just quit,
I don't know "what to say" to you, I don't know what to do...
Goodbye would be so easy, if I weren't in love with you.
steve, 19 november 2023
"I Can't Hold On"
You just don't understand, how much it hurts to be...
In the presence of my dream, that wants no part of me,
I can't take this anymore, I'm finally at my end...
You won't reach out to catch me, as I continue to descend,
I have to learn to say goodbye, and you must let me go...
You have no love inside for me, of this you've let me know,
If only things were different, if you cared enough for me...
You wouldn't let me say goodbye, and I wouldn't want to leave,
But "I can't hold on" to nothing, that's a place I've been...
I've hurt so long and cried so much, I can't go there again,
I'm sorry it has to be like this, and that I take this stand...
I never ment to fall in love, it's not what I had planned,
But I know that you don't love me, and probably never will...
And I don't want to hate you, for something you don't feel.
steve, 26 november 2023
"My Wildest Dreams"
I already had all the treasure, as rich as my wildest dreams...
But my heart wasn't paying attention, and now I've lost everything,
My world is crashing around me, just tell me it's a bad dream...
My life has started unwinding, and nothing is as it seems,
For the one who's holding my heart, is no longer by my side...
How could I take for granted, that her love would never die,
How could I have left her alone, all those lonely nights?
Making money and power my mistress, the only thing in my sights,
How could I not see before me, the rich"s I already had...
A loving wife who adored me, and kids who looked up to there dad,
The world I knew is now crumbling, I can't stop it from falling apart...
I was too blind to see when I had you, and that has torn me apart,
I hope that you can forgive me, nothing else matters to me...
What will I do if I loose you, because of what I couldn't see.
steve, 27 november 2023
"Can't Let Go"
I never ment to fall in love, the risk was way too high...
But it's too late now for turning back, I can't say goodbye,
I just wanted to have some fun, I tried to keep my head...
But I lost my focus on danger, and lost my heart instead,
Blinded by your beauty, and pulled into the dance...
Swept away by brown eyes, I never stood a chance,
I'm not sure what I was thinking, did I think I had control?
I thought that I was hanging on, now I "can't let go",
I know I'm going to feel the pain, when I finally hit the ground...
That's the price my heart must pay, for being left unbound,
I'd love a happy ending , but that's not the way it goes...
There's no such thing as fairy tales, ask anyone who knows.
steve, 2 december 2023
"Do You Think You Can Save Me"
How do you know, of the pain in my soul...
Were you there when I cried for you?
You've never been there to show me you care,
But you say you love me too,
"Do you think you can save me", from what I've become,
Do you despise what you see?
Is the truth hard to hear, do you live with the fear,
That you've become just like me,
And though I've been told, my heart can be cold,
I only know what I see,
That life can be cruel, and I'm just a fool,
for believing that you could love me.
steve, 9 january 2024
"Not The Perfect Answer"
It's been so long since I've seen you.. do you still remember my name?
The years come and go.. like people I know.. but my feelings for you haven't changed,
Did you think that I had forgotton.. did you think I'd never return?
How could I forget my biggest regret.. while the fire inside me still burns,
But Life is just an illusion.. as I awaken just to survive...
Going through all of the motions.. of living the 9:00 to 5:00,
The light begins to fade away.. as the day comes to an end...
And when I close my eye's to sleep.. is when my life begins,
For that's when were together.. and there you "love me too"...
And I make love to you all night.. when I dream of you,
It's "not the perfect answer".. it's less than what I want...
I want so much more of you.. than just the dreams you haunt,
It's "not the perfect answer"".. for tears you'll never see...
But as I lay my head to sleep.. it's what I need for me,
steve, 16 january 2024
"Not Another You"
I think I missed the train.. I should be riding on...
I'm standing at the station.. but I think its long since gone,
I used to have a ticket.. that afforded any ride...
But the only thing I have, is lonelyness and pride,
I can hear the whistle blowing.. as the echo moves away...
But there's nothing I can do.. that changes yesterday,
The past is just a memory.. of things I should of done...
And everything inside me.. tells me.. your the one,
I couldn't see you clearly.. through the fog across the tracks...
But if you were at the station.. I'd come running back,
And as the whistle fades away.. it whispers what I knew...
They'll always be another train.. but "not another you".
steve, 4 february 2024
"One May Never Find"
You don't have to tell me, what you think I want to hear...
And you don't have to get that close, if I'm something that you fear,
I'm not trying to burden you, to be someone your not...
And I won't ask of you, to do something you cannot,
But I'm not going to hide, the way I feel for you...
Or pretend that I don't hurt, when you know damn well I do,
I thought I found a friend in you, and maybe something more...
Someone whom for many years, I've been searching for,
I'm sorry for the love I feel, in my heart for you...
But I can't pretend it isn't real, if I wanted too,
I never ment for you to run, or feel the need to hide...
I'm sorry I came on so strong, because all the years I cried,
Love is so elusive, that one may never find...
As we hold on to the pain, it can render your heart blind.
steve, 4 november 2023
Killing Me
All I ever wanted, was to share that part of you...
But you don't want to share with me, the way I wanted too,
You don't even care, that I cry myself to sleep...
I wish I'd never met you, for I've fallen in too deep,
Either you're as cold as ice, or you don't have a clue...
Just how much I care, or how much I need you...
It gets harder everyday, and something has to give...
You know this is "killing me", but I just want to live,
If I'm the only one that cares, I know how this will end...
As lonely takes another life, and I lose another friend,
I wish things could be different, I wish that you would stay...
But I've got to save myself, and goodbye's the only way,
Whatever you decide, I promise to see through...
Right now and always has, this heart belongs to you...
steve, 3 november 2023
Matter Of Time
I knew it was just a matter of time.. and then you would be gone..
And I would be here all alone.. to face the morning dawn,
I knew what I was in for.. I knew how this would end..
I knew I loved you from the start.. and I'd always call you friend,
I don't regret one minute.. of time I spent with you..
If asked if I would do it again.. you know what I would do,
You gave to me a gift, so precious and surreal...
What I haven't felt in 30 years, and the last I ever will,
steve, 16 october 2023
Finally Realize
You'll give away to anyone, what I need from you....
I'll beg, I'll cry, I'll plead, but I just can't get through,
My pain and tears of anguish, fall upon deaf ears...
You could end in minutes, what I have felt for years,
Why do you let me suffer, your supposed to be my friend?
You know from where my torment comes, why don't you make it end?
And how is it "not selfish", to leave me here to die...
I've always been there for you, but you won't even try,
Do you have "no love" for me at all, do I need to walk away?
Friendship is a two-way street, but your only going one way,
I'll love you till the day I die, do I have to wait that long?
Before you "finally realize", you couldn't be more wrong.
steve, 16 october 2023
Scarlet Blue
I wish things could be different, as my world is "scarlet blue"...
If only it were black & white, as is my love for you,
I wouldn't sit here crying, over things I cannot change...
As cupid hits me yet again, when he knows your out of range,
I'll never lay beside you, on a moonlight summer night...
Never feel your lips on mine, never hold you tight,
I'll never feel your touch, caress any part of me...
And I can't even fathom, what love from you could be,
My whole world is "scarlet blue", when you're not around...
A grain of sand on an endless beach, hoping to be found,
A dream without an ending, no answer to a prayer...
Live this life pretending, that I don't really care.
steve, 18 october 2023
"In My Head"
The wind blows gently through the trees, as I stare up at the moon...
While the leaves are all dancing in the moon light, that looks like a big white ballon,
I sit here with thoughts of you in my head, stuck in the same lucid dream...
Hoping and praying someday I'll get through, in a life that is not what it seems,
It's a heart breaking tragedy, the one that I love, is stuck in a preconceived hell...
Effectively closing any doors that I've opened, ensuring my chances to fail,
How do I reach you before it's too late, as the hour glass sand runs out...
How do I show you what we stand to lose, if I can't make you let go of doubt,
Please give me a chance I'll give all that I have, to save us from dying alone...
Let go of the doubt to what lies ahead, we could find what we've never known.
steve, 19 october 2023
"My Wife"
There's so much that I want to say.. but the words I cannot find...
Though day or night it's all the same. your always on my mind,
I knew the road I'd chosen.. wouldn't always be so clear...
With twists and turns and one-way signs.. that finally led me here,
But I never for a moment.. since the day you said "I Do"...
Thought I'd see a sunrise.. or wake up without you,
I am at a loss for words.. as I stumble through the days...
What I used to see so clearly.. has now become a haze,
I try to reckon in my heart.. just where that I went wrong...
And how I let.. slip through my hands.. the love that you had shown,
You made your vows of love to me.. "till death do we part"...
For thirty years.. is just one chance.. too much to ask your heart?
When I made vows of love to you..and you became my wife...
I thought we'd grow.. to be as one.. until the end of life,
Don't let the love we had so long.. just wither on the vine...
Don't break this heart beyond repair.. and say that you'r not mine,
Don't disappear beneath me.. or let us fade away...
To let go after thirty years.. is just too much to pay,
I would climb a mountain.. or swim in the ocean blue...
And if I'm taking my last breath.. my thoughts will be of you,
Don't give up on what we had.. or what we'll have again...
Our love was like a fairy tale.. and can be that way again,
I'm sorry if I let you down.. if you thought I didn't care...
Your my world.. Your my wife.. there's nothing that compares.
Latest comments:
9 may 2024
Adam Pietras (Barry Kant)
Ech, Eva, miałem pewne przemyślenia związane
9 may 2024
Eva T.
Tak, prosze :)
9 may 2024
jeśli tylko
wycieczka do dachau..
8 may 2024
Weronika
Odwieczny strach przed porankiem.
8 may 2024
kb
też prawda. amnezja ma prawo kiedyś się skończyć
7 may 2024
Zapomnieć żeby było co sobie przypominać.
7 may 2024
Em, nie do końca, może wrzucę jakieś rozwinięcie,
7 may 2024
Myśli się zawsze więcej, niż pisze, tak sądzę.
7 may 2024
Pieknie w tej zieleni. Pozdrawiam :)
7 may 2024
Pomyslalam o wiezowcu, ale jesli o nic nie chodzi...
7 may 2024
Piekny :)
7 may 2024
spisanie to ujawnienie..
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