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steve, 19 october 2023
"No More"
No one really gives a dam.. what I feel inside...
They don't know what lonely is.. or just how much I've cried,
I don't care what people say.. when my back is turned...
My whole life I've had to fight.. and every scar I've earned,
I'm never going to have the love.. that other people share...
Love is pain and hard to find... while life is seldom fair,
I need to have someone... I can run to now and then...
And spend a little time with.. who's a little more than friend,
Someone who gets lonely too... someone who is free...
Someone who is not afraid.. to give themselves to me,
If only for an hour.. to chase away the rain...
Where lonely isn't welcome.. as you leave behind the pain,
There's nothing that you have to say.. nothing you must do..
All I ask is to come in.. and I'll take care of you,
And when the sky turns grey again.. and lonely's at the door...
Together we can face the storm, til lonely is "no more"
steve, 19 october 2023
"All Eternity"
I'm standing at a crossroads.. as time just passes by...
They say time waits for no man.. and it does no good to cry,
I watch the years pass by me.. and watch friends come and go...
You lose some of the ones you love.. as time will take its toll,
I doubt that you will understand.. when I look at you I stare...
But I've loved you for a thousand years.. and a time when you did care,
Just this once. let down your walls.. and let my heart come in...
And I will take you to a place... I know you've never been,
I'm waiting for an invite.. that can only come from you...
Praying for a green light.. instead of midnight blue,
I don't know how to ask again... but I'll give it one more try...
As the flames you sparked so long ago.. still refuse to die,
It's like you have a spell on me.. and I have no control...
As I dream about you every night.. why can't I just let go,
Let me pretend.. there's something more.. and lay my hands on you...
Let me show you who I am... before our time is through,
You don't have to look at me.. just close your eyes and dream...
Life is rarely black and white.. and never as it seems,
You don't have to do a thing... you don't even have to care...
And when the morning sunlight comes... I'll be far away from there,
You don't have to say the words.. or even say my name...
But I promise if you give me time.. you'll never feel the same,
I have no expectations... I have only love for you...
I hope you find it in your heart.. to see beyond whats true,
I'll ask once more... hear my words and give this gift to me...
And I will place it in my heart.. for "all eternity".
steve, 22 october 2023
"Strength In Numbers""
I pray I go to heaven when my days come to an end...
But heaven came to me, the day that you walked in,,
I've never seen more beautiful when you come into view...
The world around me disappears, all I see is you,
I have no words to describe.. when I lay my hands on you...
For no one else in this world.. could I feel the things I do,
You don't even have a clue.. how much you mean to me...
And I will never burden you.. for someone you can't be,
You keep your feelings buried, so you won't come apart...
You try so hard to hide it, but I see into your heart,
I feel the pain inside you, but you won't let me in...
You keep pushing me away, you forget that I'm your friend,
Anything.. is what I'd do.. to see you smile again...
And anything I didn't do.. would have to be a sin,
I can't cure what ails you, but I can ease your pain...
I can't stop the storm, but I can shield you from the rain,
Remember "strength in numbers", as the willow learns to bend...
Your not facing life alone, as long as you have friends.
steve, 24 october 2023
"No Regrets"
It's not easy when you're here, time hasn't eased the pain...
And I'm not yet strong enough, that I can break the chains,
I thought that I was stronger, till you came into view...
But when my eyes met yours, I already knew,
You still have my heart, as I'm hanging by a thread...
And I still carry regret, for words I never said,
It's my last chance to reach you if you'll only let me in...
I'll show you what you've never felt, and never will again,
You have nothing to lose, and everything to gain...
I don't want to say goodbye, but I'm weary of the pain,
I know that your uncertain, on a road you've never been...
So take my hand, let me lead, and this journey will begin,
I promise "no regrets", if you'll let me touch your heart...
And I will keep it close to mine until the day I part.
steve, 24 october 2023
"I Failed"
There's nothing in this world, I want more than you...
Without you, there is nothing I have the will to do,
I can't face another day, wondering where you are...
Nor drown away the memories, sitting in some bar,
If I never reach you, how am I to live?
When the only thing that matters, is something you won't give,
I would give my life tonight, just to be with you...
For no one else in this world, makes me feel the way you do,
But alas my life has ended, for I can't reach your heart...
And I can see no reason, from this world, I shouldn't part.
For what is life without you, like a day without a night...
No end and no beginning, as I sit alone and write,
If only you cared about me, then you'd finally see...
That you are the only place in life, where I wish to be.
But I failed to make you understand and failed to make you care...
Let the execution of my soul, be the answer to my prayer.,
steve, 1 november 2023
Lonely Doesn't Even Come Close
I thought we had something special, a friendship made to last...
We've been through so much together, while both letting go of the past,
I thought that I could control it, no longer it controlled me...
But you walked in and our eyes met, how wrong could I possibly be,
What am I supposed to do, with feelings that tear me apart...
So much for thinking I'm stronger, I have no control of my heart,
Am I to walk away from you, am I supposed to say goodbye...
That's not something I can do, it'd be easier just to die,
There are no words left to describe, the feelings I harbor for you...
"Lonely doesn't come close", but it couldn't be more true.
steve, 31 march 2024
"If Or When"
Do you know how hard it is.. to lay down next to you...
To know that I can't touch you.. you don't want me too,
Do you know how much it breaks my heart.. to look into your eye's...
After all the years that we've been friends.. you still make me cry,
Do you know that I can hardly breath.. when I get too close to you...
And your the one who has control.. of what I say or do,
Do you know how much I need to feel, the heat beneath your skin...
Never knowing the time or place, or even "if or when",
For I have no control, and to need you more than air...
To risk my heart and soul, when I'm not sure you even care,
Should I say goodbye and walk away, or should I hang on still...
Knowing you may never care, and that I always will.
steve, 18 may 2012
"RUN"
The person that you pretended to be...
was just a facade for show...
And I can't believe, it took me this long...
to see the things I know,
I'm just sorry my heart, will suffer the pain,
of being broken again...
For blindly believing, the words you spoke..
and thinking you were my friend,
I just want to run... far, far, away...
and escape the lies you've told...
And the laughter I hear .. is comming from you...
how could your heart be so cold,
Does it make you feel.. more like a man.....
to see the pain in my eyes...
To hurt the one.. who loves you the most...
as you try to destroy him with lies,
Why murder love... I thought you loved me.....
I thought you were the one.....
As the walls we built..crash down all around me...
all I want is to run,
I'll never look back... and you'll never see...
all the tears I've cried...
As I watched love go down... I craddled her close...
she took her last breath.. and she died.
sg
steve, 30 may 2019
"Through A Vail"
I used to sit around all day.. and dream of what could be..
Then I'd cry myself to sleep.. when I faced reality,
I used to think, that things would change.. just like a "fairy tale"..
I'd walked around with blinders on.. saw the world through a vail,
I believed that someone, somewhere.. was made "just for me"..
But I know now, how wrong I was.. what a fool I came to be,
"True love" isn't something real.. and there is no "ment to be"..
Faity tales are "stories".. that they want us to believe,
Nothing that I know today.. is truly as it seems..
And I can't prove "reality" .. is more real than my "dreams",
So I take each day that comes to me.. expecting nothing more..
For I've let go of any dreams.. that you'd walk through that door.
sg
steve, 30 may 2019
"Just A Fool"
Do you know how much it hurts inside.. when you turn and walk away..
My heart screams out.. "Please Don't Go".. but the words I just can't say,
I cried a river of tears for you.. a river that overflows..
And I'm washed away in sorrow.. for I don't want you to go,
Life is a lonely illusion.. if there's no one who stands by your side..
And its easy to come to conclusions.. about all the tears that you've cried,
I've got no reason to be here.. if there's no one who cares but me..
And I'm just a fool for putting you.. somewhere you don't want to be,
This heart is so tired and lonely.. I just wanted to be close to you..
To share something special together.. I could take, that would carry me through,
I'm sorry my friend.. I've failed you.. I couldn't convince you to see..
Everything I've tried to show .. comes from love that's inside of me,
I see you as someone so special.. its the reason I feel like I do?
But my heart never stood a chance.. when it came to just loving you.
sg
steve, 30 may 2019
"Never Will"
When you walked out last night.. my heart hit the floor..
I've never felt so empty.. as I watched you close the door,
If you could see my heart.. or the river that I've cried..
Then you might understand the pain.. from you that I must hide,
I can't burden your broken heart.. because my hearts broken too..
And I can't look into your eyes.. and say that "I love you",
I know that you don't feel the same.. I know you never will..
But as long as you still have knowone.. use me at your will,
For I'd take any part of you.. I know you'll soon be gone..
But you don't have to be alone.. in the darkness before dawn,
Together is less "lonely".. and together we are strong..
I just want to kill the pain.. thats been hurting for so long,
You don't have to promise me.. a thing before you go..
You don't even have to speak.. for I already know,
You only have to let me show.. I can take the pain away..
If only for a little while.. keep lonelyness at bey,
sg
steve, 30 may 2019
"Times"
Though you'll soon be leaving... I won't let it break my heart...
For there were things between us... that kept us far apart,
I'll cherish what we shared.. when we put those things aside...
And the chasm that's between us... didn't seem so wide,
There were times when I loved you.. and times you made me mad...
But most times I was grateful.. for all the times we had,
And when you fly away... like a bird upon the wind...
I'll keep the memories close to heart.. and always call you friend.
SG
steve, 25 june 2019
"More Than Just Hello"
The first thing that I noticed.. when I laid eyes on you..
Was your beauty and how it emanates.. in everything you do,
Something "more than just hello".. drew me when we met..
I looked into your chocolate eyes.. and broke into a sweat,
With cinnamon skin so beautiful.. my senses began to spark..
Setting off a fire inside.. that raged well into dark,
I couldn't stop thinking about you.. or get you out of my head..
So I rewound every moment.. and replayed what was said,
I wanted to be with you.. to know just who you are..
To hear the story that you live.. and how you came this far,
Everything about you.. from your head down to your toes..
Was everything I needed.. but I couldn't let you know,
I know that I can't keep you.. and I know that it won't last..
But I'll always have the memories.. to relive a time that's passed.
steve, 25 june 2019
"Heaven's On Earth"
My mind wanders.. with thoughts of you.. I'm so grateful for your love...
And just why on earth.. of all the hearts.. its mine you hold above,
I can't think of anything.. to deserve someone like you...
For anything, is what I'd give.. to have you love me too,
I shouldn't tell you.. how I feel.. when I look into your eyes...
Or just how high it takes me.. you chose me of all the guys,
And I won't say, how warm it feels.. to hear you say my name...
Or though we've kissed a thousand times.. its never quite the same,
Or even that my blood still boils.. long after your lingering touch...
While pretending "I don't give a dam".. when your love I need so much,
Should I hide the fact.. that just your kiss.. sets my soul on fire?
And never mention.. the ragging battle.. of my uncontrolled desire,
If I told you how I really felt.. would it change the way you feel?
Would you look at me the way you do.. and say you love me still,
Or do I let the fires burn.. and the chips fall where they may...
For "heaven's on earth".. right here.. with you.. and its where I want to stay.
steve, 25 june 2019
"Two Steps Back"
I've tried so hard to get along.. but all we do is fight...
And the tears I cry may fall like rain... but I'm alone again tonight,
Goodbye would be so easy.. if I wern't in love with you,
One step forward, and two steps back.. have never been so true...
It breaks my heart.. that we found love.. but were going down in flames...
For even love can't save us now.. as we play our little games,
I thought that we could make it.. that love could conquer all...
As I'm hanging on for life.. from this long and lonely fall,
And though my heart is bleeding.. I just can't say goodbye...
My love for you won't let me go.. I think I'd rather die,
Together we could have it all.. why can't I make you see...
That all that you've been searching for.. is here inside of me.
steve, 25 june 2019
"Turn And Walk Away"
The sun came up again today.. and though you're still not here...
I can't see a reason why... that I should shed a tear,
But I wipe my eyes.. and I go on.. to face another day...
While the shadows of your memory.. in my head begin to play,
After all the years.. after all the times.. after all that, we've been through...
How could you "turn and walk away"... while I'm still in love with you,
What more to life.. is there than love... though some shall never know...
But I can barely breathe at all.. for my heart will not let go,
What words to say to touch your heart.. and bring you back to me...
To show you all the love we had... and what it still can be,
If just once... I could turn back time.. to the day when we first met...
For one more chance to get it right.. and live without regret.
steve, 25 june 2019
"Perfect Is A Fairytale"
Its when your not around.. that makes me realize...
All the things I tell myself.. are nothing more than lies,
I'll say that I don't need you.. pretending that's it's true...
But when you're gone.. and it's just me.. all I want is you,
I'll tell myself.. don't fall in love.. for love will never last...
But I know too well.. to save my heart.. the time has long since past,
I thought at last.. when I found love.. how perfect it would be...
Everything would fall in place.. and we'd never disagree,
But "perfect is a fairytale".. life is what is real...
Happy.. sad .. content..or mad.. this is what we feel,
I guess I should surrender.. I could never walk away...
For if never there was darkness.. there could never be a day,
I will always love you... and we'll always disagree...
So I will learn to look beyond.. to just the love I see.
steve, 30 may 2019
"You'll Never Be"
I waited for you all night long.. for you to come back to me..
But my heart knew all along.. it wasn't ment to be,
Its funny how we've no control.. of what we feel inside..
And though I knew how it would end.. I went just for the ride,
I'd walk a thousand miles for you.. I'd give everything I own..
I'd lay my life down at your feet.. I'd bow before your throne,
To have you say you love me.. to have you care at all..
I'd use every ounce of strength I have.. as I break through every wall,
But some things we can never own.. and you have to just let go..
It doesn't matter how much you love.. it matters what you know,
And I know that I can't have you.. I know you'll never be..
The one I wake up next to.. someone who just loves me,
steve, 16 january 2019
"Only In My Dreams"
I thought I'd gotten over.. anything I felt for you..
I cried those tears out years ago.. I guess you never knew,
It broke my heart in pieces.. when told that "you were gone"..
And I would "never" see your face.. in the early light of dawn,
I cried just like a baby.. wanting only you..
Only time would ease the pain.. in a world that broke in two,
I couldn't help my feelings.. for from the very start..
The first time that I met you.. is when you stole my heart,
I couldn't let you know .. I couldn't say a word..
Until that night you shared with me.. and the embers that were stirred,
The embers turned to flames.. that raged out of control..
And the bare white hot emotions.. burned right threw my soul,
And though you wouldn't know it.. its not always as it seems..
I still see you when I can.. but only in my dreams.
sg
steve, 18 december 2018
"From Me / To You"
I remember when we met.. and right out of the gate...
Before you even said a word, my heart was thinking fate,
I've loved you from that moment, with my heart I love you still...
But I can't make you care for me, I know you never will,
Dreams are all that I have left, to make it through the night...
I sometimes wish we'd never met, so my heart would be alright,
I'd like to put a happy spin, on what I'm trying to say...
But the tears running down my face, keep getting in the way,
Goodbye would be so easy if I weren't in love with you...
To walk away and not look back.. is something I can't do,
Though my love for you is real.. I must hide it far away...
Never to be heard again... nor see the light of day,
If this is what you wish "from me".. your wish is my command...
And everything I'm saying now.. "to you" is my last stand,
I look into your steel blue eyes.. for any change of heart...
But I know exactly where I stand.. and I've known it from the start,
You know how much I love you.. you know I'll always care...
So if you need me... turn around.. for I'm already there.
sg
steve, 23 may 2012
"Think Of You"
You ask if I still think of you, even when your not around...
You may well ask, "if the sun will rise", for to your heart I'm bound,
With every breath I take, no matter what I do...
And every time my heart beats, is when I think of you,
Each minute of every hour, and each hour of everyday...
And when we are apart, with you my heart will stay,
I don't know where were going, only where I've been...
I do know what I've found in you, has helped my soul to mend,
And if you were to say goodbye, and leave me here alone...
I won't regret what we have shared, because of you've I've grown,
And I can't change whats in the past, or see what lies ahead...
But I thank "God" the path I chose, to you my heart was led.
sg
steve, 17 march 2015
"Cried Without A Sound"
2:00 oclock in the morning.. as she "cried without a sound"...
Three days after Christmas.. in a sleepy southern town,
The year was 1956.. and Chevy's ruled the road...
When I was born.. Momma's tears was the only pain she showed,
The second born of seven.. while five stood in the wings...
Waiting for a chance at life.. and all the pain it brings,
I've watched her do our laundry.. on a washboard in the cold...
And even though her hands were blue.. her heart was made of gold,
Raising seven children.. alone and somewhere new..
I wonder where she got the strength.. to do the thing's she'd do,
She taught us to be strong and just.. and pray to "God" above...
And I knew if I lost everything.. I'd never loose her love,
We never had much money.. and there was no "silver spoon"...
We were blessed with so much more.. my Mom hung the moon.
sg
steve, 6 june 2015
"Whispers In The Wind"
If somehow there was more for us.. more than just a friend...
And I didn't have to hide it all.. from "whispers in the wind"
If somehow all the tears I've cried.. could wash away the pain...
And I could hold your hand in mine.. I wouldn't mind the rain,
If somehow I could change it all.. I'd make you love me too...
And it wouldn't be just in my dreams... I'm spending time with you,
If somehow you could see inside.. the person that I am...
It might be more than just a glance.. you might just "give a dam",
If somehow I could stop the pain.. this broken heart will feel...
Knowing you will never care.. and that I alway's will,
If somehow I could end it all.. I might just say goodbye...
I'm so damed tired of lonely.. and asking myself.. why.
sg
steve, 27 june 2015
"If Only"
If only things were different.. you might still be here...
And I could set the world on fire.. instead of shedding tears,
If only I'd of listened.. to things you had to say...
Instead of rushing out the door.. to the same thing everyday,
If only I could see you.. and look into your eye's...
I'd never let you get away.. there'd be no more goodbye's,
If only I could have one chance.. to do it all again...
I didn't know the hour glass.. was running out of sand,
If only I'd of shown... the love I have for you...
Instead of somehow thinking.. that you already knew,
If only it was not too late.. and I never had to say...
Those two words I've come to hate... that haunt me everyday.
sg
steve, 27 november 2016
"Two Hearts"
Two hearts beating.. side by side...
Torn apart.. is love denied,
But even miles.. cannot erase...
The love that know one.. could replace,
Now this heartbeats.. just for you...
Through lonely nights.. and tears of blue,
And dreams someday.. the love that flows...
From my heart.. to yours will know,
No walls.. nor fence.. nor miles between...
Two hearts.. could ever change a thing,
As the world, we knew... was torn apart...
My love still soars.. into your heart,
Like golden wings.. into the sun...
Two hearts filled.. become as one.
steve, 28 november 2016
"Build A Bridge"
We'd been ten years together.. but I'm not going to lie...
As the hardest year's I've ever faced... I wish had passed me by,
There were trials we faced together.. and trials I faced alone...
Times that I needed you.. but you left me on my own,
There are things that I've forgiven.. and things I can't forget...
But the love I had.. forever changed.. the first time I was hit,
If it all had played out different.. if you had more self-control...
The love we had.. may have survived.. despite the heavy toll,
Our actions cause reactions.. and the foundation that was laid...
Was a price that cost us everything.. and should never have been paid,
We can't turn back the hands of time.. we can't change who we are...
What we had went up in flames.. just like a burning car,
It was all downhill their after.. and I should have walked away...
I could have saved us both the pain.. of the higher price we'd pay,
If you're always in the fast lane..someday your going to crash...
But I'd like to think that something.. could be carried from the ash..
What's done is done.. we must move on.. let the past remain the past...
And together, turn what we destroyed.. into friendship that will last,
If anger and resentment.. are allowed to have control...
Friendship's not an option.. as we'll have to just let go,
After all these years together.. if we let go what was lost...
I think that we can build a bridge.. that both of us could cross.
steve, 26 may 2018
Just Beneath My Skin
You walked into the room last night.. and I could barely breathe..
I couldn't take my eye's off you.. and my mind could not concieve,
That anything more beautiful.. in this world might exist..
As my eye's caressed all of you.. there was nothing that was missed,
I don't remember what was said.. as my world, dissolved away..
You were all that I could see.. beyond you, only gray,
I couldn't bring my words to mouth.. and I couldn't let it show..
The inferno that consumed me.. was not in my control,
I had to walk away from you.. my thoughts were not my own..
My heart was in complete control.. and you were not alone,
With bated breath and heavy heart.. I tore myself away..
Wanting nothing more than you.. I kept my tears at bey,
There's no good reason.. to let you know, what I feel for you..
It wouldn't change a single thing.. and I wouldn't want it to,
I'll always see you with my heart.. the way I saw you then..
And always will the fires burn.. "just beneath my skin".
sg
steve, 18 december 2018
"I Could Say"
There's nothing "I could say".. that would change a single thing...
I can't make you fall in love.. and I'm not one to cling,
I could tell you what you mean to me... when I look into your eyes...
Or push it even farther down... behind a masked disguise,
I could tell you how my blood boils.. when your laying by my side...
But never mention the lonely nights.. without you that I've cried,
I could say your skin's like velvet.. and I long to feel your touch...
And I doubt there's anyone alive.. who could make me feel as much,
I could tell you how it feels.. to be burning from within...
As the fires rage out of control.. just beneath my skin,
Or I could say "I don't care".. I could say that "I was high"...
But every single word I spoke.. would be another lie,
Maybe I should walk away.. and never say a thing...
I don't want the broken heart... goodbye always brings.
steve, 18 december 2018
"Never Was"
I wanted only to love you.. as this heart already does..
While I cry myself to sleep.. for things that "never was",
He "never was" in love with you.. he "never was" too blame..
You can't make someone love.. if they don't feel the same,
It "never was" the right time.. as time plays tricks on you..
Yesterday I was twenty one.. today I'm fifty two,
Life was never fair.. and the road was long and hard..
I've had to fight for everything.. and its left me bruised and scarred,
There "never was" a reason.. as to why you shied away..
And there "never was" a time.. that I wished you wouldn't stay,
There "never was" someone.. that I loved more than you..
But you never felt the same.. and that "never was" more true,
Now the years have flown away.. as love eluded me..
Though I searched for many years.. it "never was" to be.
sg
steve, 28 june 2019
"One Wish"
If I was given just one wish.. to turn my life around...
My wish would be, for you and me.. to keep what we have found,
I've many regrets and sorrows.. and paid too high a cost...
I've laughed.. I've cried.. I've run to hide.. for mistakes, and loved ones lost,
But then you walked into my life..and now the skies are blue...
It seems at last.. the rain has past.. and everything is new,
I feel that "God" has smiled at me.. for enduring all the rain...
And given me someone to love.. someone who'll ease the pain,
If I was given just "one wish"..... to turn my life around...
I'd give it back.. for what I lack.. in you these things I've found.
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Jaga
Dziękuję za plusy i komentarze :)
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można je mieć każdego dnia :)
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...pitne, tylko lekko musujące ;)
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... i nowy początek ;)
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jakoś kojarzy mi się z "siostrami wielkiej
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zdaje się że nikt tu już nie mieszka
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