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steve, 3 november 2023
Every Moment
How do I touch your heart, the way that you touched mine?
You hold the keys to Heaven, but I can't cross the line,
You're everything I've dreamed of, the answer to a prayer...
And the only thing I need, that I need more than air,
You have the power to give me, what I've never known...
And my last chance at love, before God calls me home,
If only for a day, or an hour you were mine...
Your gift would be enough, of heaven to enshrine,
I will cherish "every moment", as it's now a part of me...
Whether life or in death, in my heart you'll always be.
steve, 26 march 2020
"Wasn't Enough"
What can I say.. that hasn't been said...
Of dreams I had.. that now, are all dead,
Love wasn't enough to help you to see...
All that you had.. when you still had me,
And it wasn't enough.. that I've always been here...
As you make up excuses.. to just disappear,
And love wasn't enough.. as you still raised your hand...
While love trickled away... like hourglass sand,
Bruises and blood... heartache and pain...
What you called love... I call insane,
I know that it hurts... I've been hurting for years...
As I try to explain away all the tears,
Now it's too late... there's nothing to save...
There's only goodbye... as I walk away.
steve, 2 august 2012
"Help Me Find My Way"
Changes in my life.. are comming hard and fast...
I've lost almost everything.. of things I thought would last,
I lost my job.. then my home.. and the bad luck didn't end...
For yesterday I lost my heart... when I lost my one best friend,
I've heard "God" won't put on you.. more than you can take...
Well if your listening.. Lord.. I've nothing left to break,
My life is in such shambles.. I'm walking on the edge...
What used to be a wide path.. is now a narrow ledge,
I teator on the brink.. not sure which way to go...
It seems my head is spinning.. but my world is moving slow,
Are you calling to me "Father"... is there something I must do?
Well I'm putting my life in your hands.. to leave it up to you,
Theres nothing left to offer.. I've got nothing left to give...
Except this broken heart... and what life is left to live,
I've nowhere else to turn.. so today I turn to you...
For the burdens I once carried.. I'm no longer able too,
I hope that you can hear me.. for I've been so far away...
But I'm ready to come home now.. if you'll help me find my way.
sg
steve, 9 june 2012
"We Laugh, We Cry, We Live & Die"
My heart is all but shattered.... and the pieces fall like rain....
Scattered by the wind... it seems to numb the pain,
I have lost myself... and it seems I've lost my way....
My direction is uncertain... and nothing feels OK,
I don't know where I'm going... or just what lies ahead...
But I can hear the whispers... though I don't know what was said,
I feel as though a part of me... has died and blown away...
And I am just an empty shell... `with nothing left to say,
The echo's in the distance... are ringing in my ears...
And as the sun begins to rise.... I wipe away the tears,
Its strange it seems... how life goes on... while yours is crashing down...
And though one "love"is at its end... another one is found,
And so it goes.. the circle... as it was meant to be...
"We laugh.. we cry.. we live.. and die"... and then our soul is free,
So I will gather the pieces... of my scattered wind blown heart...
And never look over my shoulder... at the world you tore apart.
sg
steve, 19 april 2017
"Pretend The Pain Away"
The sun won't shine without you... the nights are twice as long...
And I'm just lying in the dark... wondering what went wrong,
The sky's no longer blue... the way it used to be...
And even when the stars come out... it's just too dark to see,
The truth is.. life without you... hasn't been the same...
I still break down every time... someone says your name,
I can't pretend the pain away... it's just too hard to do...
And I can't forget the way it was... I've never wanted to,
Our friends won't come here anymore.. they don't know what to say...
As I keep the curtains drawn uptight.. and stay in bed all day,
I pick up all the pieces.. and say that.. "it's all good"...
But it's just a lie to cover up.. how I've never understood,
The sun may rise tomorrow.. but it's just another day...
For nothing in this world makes sense.. since you went away.
steve, 18 january 2023
Something That You Gave
When at last we are accustomed.. to shoulder what we load...
Life will put a curve.. on a straight and narrow road...
No matter what the obstacle.. that's placed in front of you...
You rise to the challenge.. and what you have to do,
It's a trait that I admire.. it shows how strong you are...
It makes me proud to know you.. and how you've come so far,
The strength you have within you.. that others clearly see...
Was "something that you gave".. and made a better man of me,
It's a reason I was drawn to you... like the moth is to a flame...
It wasn't just your beauty.. this heart had longed to tame,
Your spirit is so complex ... with sides that you've kept stowed...
Or a stallion that runs free.. no man has ever rode,
I look up when I see you... what you gave to me is real...
Strength, love, and hope.. are the things you make me feel.
steve, 9 february 2023
Time Won't Stop
You say that I don't give, the kind of love you need...
I say to have a forest, you first must plant a seed,
It isn't that there isn't love, it's not like I don't care...
It's just the things that matter most, are things that we don't share,
I don't need to tell you, again the way I feel...
For if you cannot hear me, these wounds will never heal,
There's not a day that passes, that your not in my heart...
And not a day that passes, that we don't tear apart,
I've heard it's just a fine line, between what's love and hate...
But the clock for us is ticking, and "time won't stop" to wait,
I wonder if things were different how happy we could be...
If we break the chains of anger, and set our spirits free,
As long as we hold to pain, these chains will hold us down...
And we'll look back at what was lost and love we never found,
I don't know if you hear me, or if were too far gone...
But I'm out here on this ledge alone, for us I'm holding on.
steve, 28 april 2022
Wanted You To Know
I can't live without you.. I don't even want to try...
All I do is sit around.. asking myself why,
Why did you stop loving me..and why it hurts so bad...
If I'd done the things I didn't do.. would you be here if I had,
My mind just keeps on racing... and my heart just pounds away ...
And time is running out.. for the things I need to say,
I feel as though I'm spinning.. and there's nothing I can do...
But I need to tell you.. just how much.. that I'm in love with you,
I'm sorry for all the things.. I've done to let you down...
I should have been a better man.. than the one you found,
I'm sorry if I hurt you.. and if I wasn't there...
But there was not a moment past.. for you I didn't care,
No matter what the future holds.. and if it didn't show...
There's nothing I loved more than you... "I wanted you to know."
steve, 28 april 2022
What's To Lose
Do you know how hard it is for me.. to know that you are there?
Do you know how many tears I've cried.. to hide how much I care,
I sit here thinking about you.. as the tears roll down my face...
All alone again tonight.. I just wanna get out of this place,
I want to run into your arms.. and hold you all night long...
I want to kiss .. and say "I Love You" .. I don't care whats right or wrong,
I need you to feel whats in my heart.. things I'm afraid to say...
I want you to care when were apart.. and tell me your gonna stay,
It may not last.. people change.. and life's not carved in stone...
But any chance.. beats no chance.. when lonely's all you've known,
What's to loose.. but your heart.. for mines already gone...
It belong's to you.. and always has.. from dusk to breaking dawn.
steve, 28 april 2022
Wish Upon A Falling Star
I sit here on a stary night.. but my thoughts belong to you...
I wish upon a falling star.. in hopes it will come true,
The nights keep getting longer.. and days just come and go...
And I can't help but wonder.. about the love I used to know,
I had hopes and dreams, and plans.. to build my life with you...
And I used to think you felt the same.. but I don't think you do,
I thought our love was strong enough.. to weather any storm...
I used to feel your passion burn.. now its barely warm,
I used to feel the love.. when you told me that you care...
But now I can't remember.. the last good time we shared,
I miss your hands upon me... I long to feel your touch...
I don't think they'll ever be.. someone I love as much,
There goes yet another star.. as it streaks across the sky...
And here goes yet another wish.. that we don't say goodbye,
So I wish upon this falling star.. that the love we had is true...
And may it bring you home to me, with love that we once knew.
steve, 9 june 2022
"Love Equals Pain"
I wish I'd never met you, then my heart would still be mine...
And I wouldn't cry myself to sleep, pretending everything is fine,
I wish I'd never talked to you, or even heard your name...
It hurts so much when your not here, I'll never be the same,
I wish that I could turn back time, to the day before we met...
So I could turn and run as far away as I could get,
I wish that you could feel, the pain that I must bear...
Only then could you understand, just how much I care,
But it really doesn't matter, that I'm in love with you...
One plus love equals pain, for love, there must be two,
Nothing that I've ever done, has made you care for me...
So please have mercy on my heart, and just set me free.
steve, 18 january 2023
"Lonely For Too Long"
I'm sorry for what I said.. that turned your heart to stone...
But the love that drew me close to you.. is what I've never known,
I never meant to push you.. or turn your heart away...
I thought the strength I felt in you.. might help me find my way,
I don't know what I've done.. but the rain keeps pouring down...
As this broken heart cries out for love.. that's nowhere to be found,
I'm sorry for the friendship.. that I never got to hold...
Or the truth that's in my heart... I should have never told,
For the shoulder, I can't cry on.. for whatever I did wrong...
Forgive a broken man.. who's been lonely for too long.
steve, 18 january 2023
Never There
If you can't feel my love, above anything you've known...
After everything I've done and everything I've shown,
If you can't hear the words, that I speak to only you...
And know there from my heart, and every word is true,
If you can't see a time, that has peeled away the years...
Knowing time is running out, as are all my tears,
If you can't give to me, the only chance I need...
As you cut me with your words, and I just stand and bleed,
If you'd rather have the fantasies, that live inside your head...
Instead of flesh and blood, that can take your heart to bed,
If you let me walk away because you say that you don't care...
Then you're doing me a favor, because you were "never there".
steve, 18 january 2023
Out Of Words
I've run "out of words" to say to you... but don't want to say goodbye...
Or let go of the dreams I've held... believing we could fly,
But one believing is not enough.. for love must be two...
No matter how hard the truth is to face... I'll never wake up with you,
I've carried this torch for so long.. my world beginning to burn...
As flames blow up all around me.. my life I cannot discern,
It's as though I'm under a spell.. and can focus no farther than you...
And try as I might to break down your walls... I've yet to ever get threw,
I don't know how long I can hold on... I don't know if you'll ever see...
I think I should throw my dreams to the wind.. and hope it sets my heart free.
steve, 18 january 2023
Anytime Anywhere
I know we've had our share, of arguments and fights...
But I just want to lay with you, and turn out all the lights,
I want to put the past, behind where it belongs...
And make up for the things, we have both done wrong,
I want to put you first, and be here every night...
And when you've had a hard day, I want to make it right,
To show you that I love you, and just how much I care...
For you will never be alone, I am always there,
There's no one that I need, I need only you...
And I'm hoping that you feel the same way that I do,
I'll do anything for you, anytime, anywhere...
You don't have to ask, you just have to care,
steve, 28 april 2022
What Keeps Me Holding On
What is it about you.. that draws me close to you...
That keeps you in my thoughts.. no matter what I do,
That won't let me forget.. what it was we shared...
That won't let me forget.. you never really cared,
Why is it that my heart breaks.. each time I hear your name...
And nothing in my life.. without you is the same,
The seasons of my life.. have brought the autumn leaves...
Still, every time you touch me.. I can barely breath,
"What keeps me holding on".. to dreams just out of reach...
Or won't let me stop pounding.. on walls I'll never breach,
Why can't I just let go.. and watch you walk away...
For nothing in my world.. could ever make you stay,
Why is "love" the one thing.. that no one can control...
And still the only thing.. that makes a person whole,
Why can't my heart accept.. "the truth, of reasons why"...
And learn to say hello again.. each time I say goodbye.
steve, 22 october 2021
"Never To Love Again"
How do I tell my heart, never to love again...
To let go of my dreams, to never touch your skin,
To never breath you're fragrance, you're intoxicating scent...
That renders me a slave, to whatever you're intent,
How do I tell my mind, that you're no good for me...
Pain is not the answer, because we disagree,
How do I let go, of the reason my heartbeats...
As my every waking thoughts, are of you beneath my sheets,
Why should I even care, when you don't care at all...
As once again this broken heart, takes another fall.
To never see you again, to turn and walk away...
To know the words we speak, are the last we'll ever say,
steve, 27 january 2021
Never
You will "never" feel the same...
It pierced my heart.. with deadly aim,
I guess there's nothing I can do...
That will ever get me close to you,
My heart screams out... in silent pain...
Alone again... in the rain,
Knowone hears me... no one cares...
And only "God", can hear my prayers,
Right or wrong... what I feel...
This broken heart... will never heal,
A hallow soul... now dwells in me...
Crying out... to be set free,
But I am shackled... to what I feel...
My heart is hostage... my fate is sealed,
Love will "never"... know my name...
For you will "never" feel the same.
steve, 28 april 2020
"Yesterday"
I don't like to think about... how the years have slipped away...
But everytime I think of us... it seems like yesterday,
I think about the times we shared... as two young lover's would...
If only I could turn back time... then you know I would,
But we were young and reckless... and the winds of change did blow...
And I never thought I'd ever be... someone you used to know,
The years have pulled us far apart... from what it used to be...
And I wonder what your life is now... do you ever think of me,
I've not found a single one... that I'd compare to you...
I held perfection in my hands... and let it slip right threw,
Regrets for what I didn't do... keep me living in the past...
There's so much that I want to say... but your not here to ask,
The hollow darkness screams your name... as the echo fades away...
And I am left here all alone... with only yesterday.
steve, 6 may 2020
"Out Of Time"
I heard a familiar voice today... I turned and it was you...
And all the strength I thought I had... was something I construed,
I almost fell down on my knees... as I silently cried your name...
But I had to keep my tears inside... because you don't feel the same,
We laughed and talked and all the while... the tears were pouring down...
And I cried a river of tears for you... but I wished that I had drowned,
Life is cold and hard... when you're living it alone...
When there's no one in your life to love... it can turn your heart to stone,
Everything I feel for you... I keep locked up inside...
Because I can't ask you once again... to cross that great divide,
I felt my knees begin to shake... if you only knew,
It takes my breath away every time... to get that close to you...
I just want to share with you... what only two can share...
And fill my heart with memories... instead of lost despair.
To lay down close beside you... to feel your skin touch mine...
To let my heart love again... before I'm "out of time,"
steve, 8 may 2020
"Great Divide"
Do you know how hard it is for me.. to lay it on the line...
To look you in the eyes and know... the only feeling's "mine",
To tell you what I feel for you.. and what I dream about...
To risk it all.. for the truth.. and let there be no doubt,
Did you know that every time you pass... I can't look away...
As the world around me disappears... when you look at me that way,
Did you know that I would walk through fire.. just to stand with you...
Knowing you don't care at all... but in my heart .. I Do,
Your eyes are like blue diamonds... even stars can not compare...
And I'd walk a thousand miles more... if I knew that you'd be there,
All of this for just one chance... to feel you by my side...
To take your hand and look at you... to cross the great divide,
On my knees and through my tears... if it's what I had to do...
I'd give my life without regret... and I'd do it all for you.
steve, 9 may 2020
"I Keep Holding On"
I keep holding on for love... that I know will never be...
Unless you look beyond ... to what's inside of me,
I'm not like anyone... that you've ever known before...
But you won't see what's inside me.. if you stand behind the door,
You always leave me breathless.. what's a man to do...
For I can barely breathe at all.. when you walk into the room,
I'll lie here in the darkness.. calling out your name...
But nothing in this world.. could make you feel the same,
Just one chance to touch you.. as the fire rages on...
Completely out of my control.. until the breaking dawn,
I know just where I stand... but my heart will not let go...
Tell me what am I to do.. with love that I can't show,
My heart won't set me free.. no matter what I do..
It's holding on for love.. because it belongs to you...
steve, 15 june 2020
Blue
If you ever wonder why my heart is always blue...
It's not hard to find the answer, because I'm in love with you,
I know that your afraid, to be where I now stand...
To tear down all the walls you've built, and give to me your hand,
To lay your heart out on the line, to bare your soul to me...
To trust me in that guarded space, that only love should be,
I'd never want to hurt you or cause you any pain...
I'd keep your heart right next to mine, and shield you from the rain,
I'll show you love you've never known, and hold your heart above...
And there will be no doubt at all, to weather I do love,
For all the joys that love would bring, together we would share...
To say goodbye to lonely night, and know I'll always care,
If these words were not my own, but words you said to me...
My heart would never cry again, and blue would never be.
steve, 15 june 2020
"No Guarantees"
It hurts too much to see you, I have to back away...
When you're here, I can't pretend, that everything's ok,
The clock hands just stop moving.. when lonely's how you feel...
Your moving in slow motion.. as though time was standing still...
The night is long and empty.. as you're waiting for a call...
But it soon becomes transparant.. like the shadows on the wall,
Minutes turned to hours.. and the hours drift away...
As darkness finally yields itself.. to the light it kept at bey,
You could play me like a fiddle.. you could break this heart in two...
You could look into these eyes.. and see my love for you,
For love is knowing some things.. are neither wrong nor right...
And what we see through different eyes.. won't be just black and white,
You could say the things you mean.. and mean the things you say...
You could give to me my heart's desire.. and then just walk away,
But love is not a fairy tale.. and it gives "no guarantees"...
And "happy ever after"... is something few will see,
So I'm taking back my heart, while I'm still in control...
It's not something that you earned, it's something that you stole.
steve, 20 august 2020
Why Is It
"Why is it".. that you make me feel what I haven't felt in years...
And why every time I see you do my eyes just fill with tears,
Why do I have to touch myself every time you walk away...
As the flames inside consume me all I want is you to stay,
I've tried to reach inside you to somehow touch your heart...
But I'm no closer to you now than I was right from the start,
The fortress you have built is strong with walls too high to climb...
But I'd give my life to breach them all and claim your heart as mine,
"Why is it".. that you look away when I look into your eyes...
I can feel the pain inside of you that you desperately disguise,
What hell have you been living that keeps you far away...
That won't let anyone get near and keeps your heart at bey,
Like breachless walls of titanium, there's nothing you've left bare...
So "why is it" I can't let go, when I know you'll never care...
steve, 20 august 2020
Passion
There's a passion that burns, between you and I,
Igniting a spark, that could light up the sky,
So hot is the fire, that burns through the night,
It blurs out the difference, of what's wrong or what's right,
All that I wanted, was for love to take hold...
I could feel the fire that burned,
With white-hot emotion, that was out of control...
and flames that wouldn't be turned,
But how is there love, and a passion so strong,
When two minds can't meet and every things wrong,
With no understanding, and nowhere to turn,
Like throwing gas on a fire, stand back let it burn,
When the backfires are lit, there's no turning back...
as another lesson is learned,
But I knew all along, the danger involved...
play with fire, you always get burned,
I did not want to lose us, but it seems I have...
as the flames have burned us down,
And as I walk through the rubble, of what's left of my life...
not a thing is left to be found.
steve, 6 november 2020
Time
Time has kept me prisoner, with the dreams I have of you...
Keeping me awake each night, with things that I can't do,
Slowing down the hands of time, in the middle of the night...
Minutes turn to hours, as time holds back the light,
It's only in the darkest hour, that time is standing still...
When I miss you most of all, time only you could fill,
Dreams are all I have of you, as time keeps you at bey...
But even time must run it's course, as time just ticks away,
And when the time has finally passed, just maybe we'll both see...
How precious time really is, and what our time could be.
steve, 6 november 2020
What Am I Doing?
I can't hear your tortured thoughts, or see what you've been through...
But I can feel your pain from here, through miles of missing you,
I'm sorry if I made you think, somehow I didn't care...
I never meant to bring to you, feelings of despair,
I care so much from my heart, it swells the fear in me...
I'll ask myself "What am I doing?" I clearly cannot see,
I have no right to put on you, what I think I need...
No matter how much pain I feel, no matter what I bleed,
A world away what do I have, that could ever make you see...
All I have to offer you, is all I have of me,
steve, 6 november 2020
She Lives
Trapped inside myself, there's no place I can hide,
No escape, no salvation, only years of tears I've cried,
You don't know what it does to me, when you come into view...
How it tears me up inside, because I'm in love with you,
Knowing you will never care, or ever touch my skin...
Or ever really get to know, the person that I am,
Trapped and all alone, bottled up for years...
She'll never have her freedom... but she can have her tears,
No one even knows... that she lives at all...
The chains that hold her down, keep her shackled to her walls,
She'll never see the light of day, she'll never be set free...
Though she loves, she'll not be loved, such is destiny.
steve, 6 november 2020
Burning Flame
It cuts just like a knife, every time I hear your name...
And I feel the blood just drain away, as we start to play the game,
You're never going to give me, the part of you I need...
And I'm never going to let you know, just how much I bleed,
The tears rain down inside my head, and I am washed away...
As this heart is broken once again, by things I couldn't say,
I tried to hide this "burning flame", but I got too close to you...
Now my world is burning down, and there's nothing I can do,
Even tears can't douse the flames, as I begin to burn...
And the pain that only lonely brings, is far too strong to turn,
My heart's desire in front of me... and yet a world away...
But I'd give this life to feel your love, if only for a day.
Latest comments:
1 may 2024
violetta
Tak;)
1 may 2024
kb
złotej*
1 may 2024
kontoler żłotej poświaty
1 may 2024
samo życie, każdy swoje brudy ma, lepsze czy
1 may 2024
romantyczny to romantyczny, prawdziwy taki
1 may 2024
ten ketchup to fakt, trzeba przypilnować przy
1 may 2024
interesujący przekaz, jak dla mnie o własnej
1 may 2024
jakby trzy style w jednej substancji :)
1 may 2024
ucieczka z przewidzianym powrotem to też stabilizacja...
29 april 2024
Nie jest niczym podyktowany:)
29 april 2024
sam53
nic nowego, wszystko mam pod kontrolą... tak
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a jak wygląda nieromantyczny pocałunek...?
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