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My friends are very special to me, they give me insight and love. I will always treasure them......
I know today is going to be a good day just because I woke up this morning...always count your Blessings as you never know...Life is just a Whisper.
Remain STRONG, Perservere, do not let anyone or anything de-rail you from your dreams.
Be serene and Thankful...........
Today is the 10th anniversary of my Father's death......
I will celebrate his life as I feel that he is in an awesome, beautiful place, you can only grieve so long and have to figure out WHAT kind of person were they? He was awesome and NEVER said a bad word about anyone...
why should He? Why should anyone.....accceptance is a BIG part of me......I love all people...no matter what they have done , who they are etc. Everyone has a reason for the things they do-we cannot judge them.
I am very serene and have not posted fo awhile...have been super busy. I hope all is well with everyone.....PEACE and Serenity
Kahlia
I would like to note that my last diary entry was sad and frustrated, I am feling more positive and glad that I have a format to express my emotions...it seems like time is moving so fast. It is Already July and I remember Christmas shopping? I don't know where the time goes, except to say, I have gotten a lot done...........I am so happy about life, the unfolding of the flowers, the green, VERY green grass, and newborn babies being born, even though they have no clue , yet,as to what our existance is like. Hopefully, they have parents who will guide them.......we must hope for positive things in our world. PRAY...........that is my outlet, God is awsome.......Have a GREAT weekend.
Blessings,
Kahlia
My life was empty when you went away...like loosing your best friend
I always put trust and believed in you.......where did I go wrong?
These days have been great ones as I filled your head
And your ego...you are not my friend, just a passing in the dark
I can either let myself be hurt or pick up the pieces and move on
I guess you thought I was glass, and I have ben through MAJOR things
with and without you.......
You are an imposter in my mind..........
I was very frustrated for a few days. Now I am just puzzled. A good friend of mine went out of town and I have heard from them ONCE???? I understand that they could be extremely busy but a 5 minute phone call? HELLO...........I am very hurt by their lack of concern for someone who was there for them and isn't any more. It was like a big secret-I do not want to know , I just wanted you to write and let me know you are OK. That is what good friends do.
Good freinds don't make you worry etc. I am done with it........there is nothing I can do...it is out of my hands. You lost a really good friend...........
Kahlia
I have sat back and took a back seat to what is going on.
I think sometimes people forget others. Have you?
It seems as though ever since you have been away, I hear nothing.....
I care about what happens to you; no emails, no notes, nothing.
Are you OK? I hope so. This is a bit awkward to keep writing, with no response. It is 4:30am and I cannot sleep......so I am venting.
I asked you to at least let me know you are OK. Tht is not a huge task.............it is on you.........Kahlia
I am having a good day...that is all that I can ask God for. I miss my friend who has gone to do some business. I miss the letters, the emails and the poetry. I am sure they are busy. I just want a note telling me that they are OK.
I am saying a prayer for those still out there and lost. I have a few friends that are lost......it makes me sad.
I cannot stay sad because I do not have that mind set. Some people are more considerate than others, I guess. I am pretty much the same all the time. Getting upset will not solve anything.
Happy Days,
Kahlia
My friend is still gone for a few weeks; finishing some things. I miss him. I hope everyone gets up like I did this morning and is seeing summertime. The grass is finally turning green and it is not as cold outside (compared to 23 degrees). Yesterday it was 70 degrees. I am doing excellent, feel better and am wide awake after 4 hours sleep. I am seeing my Dr. this afternoon at 1:30. I want to know if he is doing yet another medicine change. I hope not. The last one he did really made me almost sick. Life is good, my freinds are happy and I am very happy that some things can be worked out. Without any drama.........
Peace,
Kahlia
I feel better today, this morning......my freind and I are OK.
Sometimes you assume something and it really is not what you thought it was
I wish I did not have abandonment issues, but after everything that has happened with my family...it is something of a work in progress. I miss my daily chats with my freind but it will all work out. It might just take awhile. Today is a good day.....Hope everyone has a great day as well.......Kahlia
I have been writing to a person on this board. I feel as though when he is on here, he opens up. He gave me his phone number and I called him. He was distant, too busy to talk, could not talk???? What am I supposed to think? Well, I am not thinking anyone as I have to figure this out peacefully alone. I have many friends but I don 't want anybody in a position where they are uncomfortable in sending me notes etc. Hope everyone is doing well, I feel great.......Kahlia
I just got a note from Goldie-she is so sweet and thoughtful. I am writing a poem but it is not done yet. I hope that it reaches some people out there. I miss talking to Louis...I may call him today. I am feeling soooo much better. My meds are working and I just feel good. It has been ann upward struggle to feel better. I am very strong minded and would not let a detox rule me. If we believe in Gods power, we are safe. I feel absolutley wonderful. I Have not felt like this in a year........more later...Kahlia
