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Kahlia Mazacalletti, 8 september 2013
My Love
I need you like I need air to breathe
You encompass me and make me feel alive again....
Like having a newborn or learning how to tie your shoes
We have been through so much together and you still are my rock
When will it end....never my love.....an ode to you, I dream
You make me laugh and you made me cry
I love you and your ways; good or bad
Please love me back, seize my heart again today
You have made me feel lie a woman again......
It is like a spider web, being all engulfed......
Thank you for just being you......
Love,Kahlia
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 11 march 2013
Love me today.
I must have died and gone to heaven; for I met you and you are an angel
Even though we have never met...I feel loved and comforted.
I see the true picture and there is no frame to put it in
Pease love me today and tomrrow.....for an eternity
You see you are just a victim of your own circumstance
And I want to get this right.
You are your own person, do not take it for granted
SHE is now the other woman in our three way love affair
Jealousy, EGO (Means Eaze God out), pride, these are all the qualities you posess.
Your morals speak for themselves
So goodnight my love and kiss the other woman
I am thinking of you, every hour, every day.
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 26 april 2013
Goodbye
I thought I would miss you; I don't anymore
You left me with no choice but to get over it all
Thank you for not making my life harder
With all your twists and turns
I could feel it slipping away; you wanted it that way
I thought I knew the meaning of a good friend
I was so wrong; you hate yourself
But, I will never hate me; I don't hate you
You have hurt me for the first and last time
With your lies and misery; go by yourself to some other land
I waited for you to call, you did once-That shocked me
So, now in a 24 hour period, you have no time for me?
My watch has not broken and I know what time it is
Time for you to fool someone else..........
Goodbye.....................
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 8 february 2013
Wonderful Love
Love never dies a Natural Death
It has to be killed or put to rest
Lovers come and then they go
Real Love stays eternities Plus one day, you know
I've seen good love and I've seen bad
Some I wish I wanted and didn't have
True love will give you unconditional peace
It will last a lifetime and never cease
It is the only thing that can calm man
He will look to the future with everything he can
And see the Heavens in his own eyes
For he has his beauty and that's his prize
For Love never dies a natural death
It has to be killed or put to rest
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 5 april 2013
Curiosity
In the dark; I find you clinging like some stuffed animal
Abandonment issues are the hardest-who takes thier love away?
It is so hard to get through to you sometimes....
Yet, you are so agreeable; I cannot leave it alone
Curiosity hails from every line that you have written
To say "I Miss You", would it even be appropriate
I feel like a caged animal, in my own circus
I have tried everything to get you out of my mind
But the brain and senses are still telling me-you are fine
You have a lot going for you; I want to be a part of it
Please open your door and let me in........
Kahlia
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 5 january 2013
REVENGE
I shot an arrow through your heart; it is an act of terror and hurt
We never go on dates but you expect me to put out
I seek vengence for my anger
All those years gone by like a speeding bullet
And I am the one in Therapy??
I do not understand the lack of concern for myself
Yet, I am all consumed by your actions
You are flippant and callous in so many ways
I tell myself truth lies in REVENGE
I have gotten so bitten by your sharp tongue, I feel stabbed
How many stitches have I had because of you?
I am a recluse in my own life
It is only fitting to get you back for all the things you have done
But, I do not have the energy or the time
People say with age comes wisdom
I am an Owl, You are an Ass
For all the battered women still suffering..........
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 18 january 2013
Waiting
My heart is beating so fast, I can't catch my breathe
In anticipation of you
I know you are out there somewhere
But I am not looking , as I know GOD will bring you to me
It has been awhile since I loved last
I loved and lost, but am not afraid to love again
Because this time it will be with GOD'S blessing
You can only be hurt if you let yourself be hurt....
So, please come to me, I know you are waiting, too
We will be one
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 9 march 2013
Footprints of a dream
I see your face in my dreams...I hear your footsteps coming closer
I am ready for you now, in my requim of sleep
Touch me, hold me, never let me go.
Bring me all your kindness and goodness and leave it with me so I may
pass it along to the world
For you are a strong influence in my life....
I know that we have never met; yet you are no stranger to me.
For in my head lies deep thoughts of you and undying love.
Some people might think I am just dreaming, but I KNOW you are there for me
No matter what the cost.
I have a wakened and see you, still, in the footprints of my dream.
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 4 february 2013
One Red Rose
I know you so well; I have met you before
I have seen you in the cold blue light
And in the damp darkness; of the moonlight
Do you wish me well; or is it a game you play with me
The low voice of intimacy; the face in the crowd sometimes
I have left and come back
I have freed you and returned
Are you still angry now?
I must be with you if I am to survive
Can you call me and tell me you are fine
I know you are with her and it burns my soul
That empty space; that aching hurt
I will just wait for one Red Rose........
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 9 september 2012
Ode to my Master
Standing at Deaths door, you played the odd's , like playing Russian Roulette.
Fooling everyone, even yourself; All those years gone by
In a swift sound barriar instant
Why do you hurt our children so and make their pain so real?
So oblivious to their needs as you were to mine
You have passed through the circular saw window, leaving your scars on us, never to return again
Not to say hello or goodbye
Your daughter grieves for you in a fairytale dollhouse
Your son, a recluse among his own friends and family
No one knew that day, your plan to carry our your last act of unmercy
Must we continue to suffer
Shall we lie down in fields of clover and pass amongst the rest
We remember you, like a flicker of light
In a flourescent bulb going out one last time
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 29 december 2012
ANXIETY
I am up again at 3am, once again to my chagrin
I try and try to stop the fight, it's just another anxious night
I feel like I am losing my mind, I have tried to leave the memories behind
It's such a crazy place to be, I can really, really see
That none of this makes any sense at all-but someplace I have dropped the ball
I can't seem to get control again over me; So I just scream "God , help me, Please"
Why must this continue on, I think of it as a punishment
But then I stop and I lament
About my family and such and how I loved them oh, so much
The car crash killed them all, you see
That's why I have anxiety
God took them all that day, but I know where they are
That helps me a lot-each one is a star-
In the southern sky and in Heaven way up high
So anxiety will stop someday, I will just muster through
I will think Of All Of You
Until my grief goes away, I continue to pray each day
Dear Lord hear my prayer; keep my anxiety in your care
For Susan Powers, my dear friend
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 27 january 2013
Mindframe
I sat on the beach and I looked at the sky, I asked myself a question and I wondered why
How many heartbreaks and how many traumas have to happen before I can cry
It has been a long 10 years and now I am done , trying to reason with all of it still
If, I don't leave it and move on it can possibly kill
My mind as I know it, my heart and my love for man
I've went to therapy, I have done all that I can
I am happier now than I have ever been
I can laugh at a laugh and grin at a grin.........
My life has not been so easy but I am not alone
I've met other people like me; who are in the mindframe of not going on
I realize that certain people help, they brighten your day
You don't have to see them, Just a freindly hello or hey
I want my friends to know I am really O.K., just sometimes sad...
It is normal you see, but better than always "acting" and being mad
So, I wrote in the sand..."It's a good day today" and then I said my blessings
Then I wrote this , so no-one is guessing
After visiting the graves of my family........
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 21 february 2013
Illusionist
For it is fine with me now; if you go away, leave without a trace
It has been coming for some time
You wear so many masks; you could be in a carnival of clowns
I have tried for 4 years to get change
But change is hard when you are a master illusionist
I feel like I have been cut in half more than once by your words
Do you believe I still care for you; I don't, it is a convienience
Like the one you get the BIG GULP from, it has been banned in New York
You should be banned as well
Sitting like a King in the living room; with your crown on, know it all
And know nothing; except , you need to walk out the front door
Please let me enjoy the silence once more
As if I were deaf to you
Go on your way and leave me alone
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 19 february 2013
PATHWAYS
Stay away from those who use you
For they are the wicked and deceitful
Being forlorn is not the answer
Your insides will turn to stone
For you have been hurt so desperately
Do not sit on the spinning ball
For it will keep you complacent
In your future ; there is such hope and dignity
Much love and mutual respect
Don't you see that you deserve so much more
Than just remnants of a broken heart
The pathways to a lost soul
Now is your time, your day
Pick up the pieces and move along
For it is your time to shine....
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 7 january 2013
Somewhere in Tiajuana
She sat up late to contemplate, what life would be like with all the strife
Problems here, Problems there-some larger than others, but still everywhere
It seems that her time has taken its toll;but she's still fighting to reach her goal
To be the woman she wants to be, with all her wealth in her memory
For sometimes dollars aren't worth a dime
It's what she had stored for all her time
She spent looking back over the years of lost and found and planted her feet on solid ground
It's not easy going down memory lane,and re-hashing heartache all over again
But she stayed in time with herself-one on one; until her inventory was done
She forgot about the bad and kept the best;threw away the garbage and kept the rest
Put X's on some boxes and closed those doors;she'd already been down those roads before
Then she smiled and let it all go.......
On a dusty road in Tiajuana, Mexico
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 10 march 2013
Hurt
Be yourself in all things you do.
You are fortunate to be alive
After all the things that you have done to me.....
Hatred and contempt over cloud your judgement and at times you take it out on me.
Why must you be so stubborn and emotionally abusive to me
Did I not say I would stick by you til the end?
I have kept my promise but you treat me like a bag of dirt
Use some then throw it all away.
I loved you once but now the flowers are in bloom and I haven't enough time to weigh in on my feelings.
Love is blind but you read braille............get it?
I just want you to know I have no afternoon agenda here.
So please leave out the same door you came in and do it peacefully.
Maybe, I sound harsh but I have told you in so many ways...I do not love you anymore
So you end your own life and I am left to pick up all the puzzle pieces.
It is called hurt...........
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 16 january 2013
Raising Me
Being born into a family Black and Blue was hard; to say the least
I was not the prodigal daughter; I was a black sheep
A shirt with two double zero's on it...........
Never doing anything right was just oh so wrong
Sitting on a curb; dangling my feet off
Going to sleep in the basement; lower than my self esteem
EMERGENCY
Always undermined by my older brother; the Golden Child
Beaten in my mind til I was purple
Kept on lock down in my own home
Should I have held up a white flag?
EMERGENCY
I never realized the toll it took on me til I got in therapy
Her always asking me the questions......how did that make you feel?
It felt like an EMERGENCY......God, I needed Help.................
Twisted and worn, I left that HOME at age 17, and I am the person I am today, because of it
I asked GOD for help and HE listened every time
No More Emergencies
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 16 february 2013
GREEN EYES
He loved her green eyes; they told him so much
Her wild and tameless hair blowing in the wind
Will it ever stop, he wondered, that unbrideled spirit she has?
Her long muscular, but lean legs, her tempting rosy, red lips
He longed for her, he ached for her; she was unique
Like a wild animal; she growled a little moan at times
She was always thinking of new and interesting things to do
And ways to do them........it made him crazy
He dreamt of her in his sleep; he dreamt of her while he was awake
Her perfectly poreless skin; so soft like a babies
He loved her so; did she know it, or was his imagination running wild
He could only see things in her green eyes
We all covet things we cannot have ; things we want so badly
But she was different, living next door was so hard
Seeing her daily, it was like a job
So, until he could find the words ; he would have to just look at her
Beautiuful sparkling Green Eyes........
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 10 february 2013
A Broken Heart
It has been so calm in the house
Since our last argument; you could beg for more than silence
I surmise that it is almost over
The tension is unbearable; who dares, wins
I know my heart will be broken , but will keep beating, nonetheless
Why must you be so distant in your efforts to make me feel so alone
Love to me is like a war, easy to start but hard to stop
We were more than lovers once; we were friends
Friends who smiled at each other and didn't go out in a crowd to smile at strangers , instead
Why must you be so heartless in finishing our lives together, so cold
Like the snow gathering on the window pane
Once more I beg you to finish it as it started; a tear runs down my cheek
Please take your leave and I'll take mine; a fine goodbye and a good wish for the future
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 5 march 2013
Question Mark
How do you know when you've fallen out of love
The embers die in your soul and the dam in your heart breaks
We are like a flood of water pouring out all over
It seems as though I find myself pondering; people don't know how dark I am within my head at times.
The visual of true love gone awry...gone astray
There are many facets and masks that have been worn...........too long
Like a prom king being crowned but she's the town tramp
So love is a stranger to me but to love again will come
A protector of my own world and heart
You can waste years of your life; you never can have back
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 25 january 2013
For Kristen and Rich
I said a prayer for you today; For all the times you went astray
I still care for you; none the less
Even though "WE" are such a mess
It seems it's been going on so long; and we haven't been that strong
Why can't we just let it go? It's dead and something we both know
We used to laugh and smile and love; From all the Grace we got from up Above
Now we fight and call each other names; You say we just "play little games"
I think you are wrong and I am right; Somewhere in this drama fight
For Love is blind and Fool's can't win; what is put right in front of them
Let's end this war right now
And go on with Life
We will make it somehow
Through all the strife
Cause only GOD knows; we are ready to bow
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 25 january 2013
The BUS
She rides the bus each morning; wishing she had a car
The smell of the fumes are overwhelming, but she has no choice
At each stop someone "New" or the daily person gets on
Most of the time she gets a seat but when it is crowded she holds on to the upper bar
Once in awhile someone nice will ask if she wants a seat
She looks around to see all the different colors and patterns
Shoes, Coats, Dresses, Briefcases, Suits, Umbrellas
Someone talking louder than all the others
The Bus Driver looking in the rearview mirror.........
Seeing what there is to see
She thinks to herself.......
Driving must be better than riding the bus?
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 29 december 2012
Tetelestai
Are you really finished; do you recieve God's word
Do you go to war for Him daily like a battleship
Without surrender; only to Him
The world is a terrible place and we must Praise God
Every day, we must give thanks for every morsal of food
For it is finished-the day of old, the day of good things
Neighbors helping neighbors, man helping man
Walking down the streets without fear
Without judgement, no place to hide
Walk in righteousness for He is watching
Pray in strength for He is listening
It is finished for those who do not seek him out
It is finished for the murderers, the rapists, the child molesters,
May we pray for those still out there daily that it is not finished for them..........
That they may come back to God and revitalize their stronghold
It is finished for anyone NOT knowing God
Tetelestai, meaning "It is Finished" from John 19:28 and 19:30
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 21 november 2012
Neverville
People do not understand the position of the weary
Tired and lonely, they tread on
Into the Garden of Earthly Intentions
Cruelty surrounds them-a circle of mockery
A lifetime of behavior;taught by others
Why the torment they ask-were we someone's possesions?
Do we live a life of solitude and and square walls only to find our own demise?
The long road to nowhere, the short walk to Neverville.
A box; living in a self contained unit
Trying to escape their own reality
While everyone looks on
The world goes on around them and mocks their uncertainty
Pokes fun of inadaquacies and jokes at their lives
It is sad in Neverville-no smile, laughs or grins
Only the heartbeat of a lonely soul
Crying out for Mercy one last time.
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 25 july 2013
A Blessing for a Friend
I said a Prayer for you today.......
It means saying that it is O.K. for you to twist me like a pretzel
I feel the need to DRIVE very fast and go 300 miles
I thought you and I would reconcile our differences
The only difference is me not caring anymore......
Love is as good as you make it and as bad as you ignore it
I feel better knowing that you are happy
I KNOW what happiness feels like
Please don't forgive yourself for all the things that you have done
It would be a far reaching gesture
Be wonderful, love yourself as I do
I can still hear you whisper my name
Like tickeling my ears with a feather
Have a wonderful life an move on......
Blessings,
Kahlia
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 6 september 2012
Lovers
The long goodbye; like taking a puff off your last cigarette
Where do all the young lovers go?
Being so lonely after the affairs of the heart end
On the turnstyle of life, round and round
Their heads spinning with the lack of desire
Felt from days gone by
Lustful dreams; broken memories
The lament of love songs still ringing in their ears
Of what was said to each other
It is a sad thing, this forlong love
The break-up of destiny
Lost forever, only to meet in a back alley street some moonlit night
Under a starry sky-why must it be so hurtful, can't I just let it go?
Move along and find another
Or was He the only man of my years?
Please tell me there is good and plenty
Do not tease me or test me; for I am heart broken
And have no love to call my own
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 14 march 2013
One of my favorite sayings
Wherever you live is your Temple if you treat it like one.....Buddah
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 20 january 2013
Freeztag
Freeztag-Like my body having Frostbite
My body has this horrific Chill
I am Poker Face on the Outside
And silent on the Inside-Freeze
That mannaquin Freeze-Frame
A refusal; A mindset
Fill another Ice Cube Dispenser-Freeze
I am standing in this OH-SO Icy Pose
Will the Blackness ever go away?
Soon the sun shall come out and Melt Freezetag
And maybe I will be happy again..............
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 20 january 2013
War Games 101
I am lost-I need that game CLUE
I feel like I have been through a war
I have been captured and tortured
But maybe I can escape-I do not know
I don't have my dog-tags
13 rounds of ammunition
Still trying to dig out bullets
I am definately the private here
And getting court-martialed
Do I get a medal for Valor or just a commendation......?
Should I re-enlist?
Someday My war will be over and I can live in Peace
Please call the paramedics, I am wounded
Please call the M.P.'s, I have been assaulted
I need a helmet just to protect my mind
They even murdered Jesus and He suffered more than HE should have
I have to walk into the opposing force head-on
And I do not have a white flag.......
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 28 january 2013
Mindgames
He Haunts me.....I know he is watching
He Teases me.....I know he is waiting
It is a powerful connection but we have never met
I just want to say hello.........
Are we being overcautious because of our pasts?
We PRAY because we need to
I see him in my dreams.........
But only sometimes........
It plagues me to think that it may never come to be.......
Maybe it is just a fantasy
It is always with me.........
In my Head
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