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Bunny Crunch, 4 january 2013
The Emerald Road
Anger fills every vein
In your furious face
And I think that soon,
They'll burst
And I'll never have to see
Your merciless glare
That I could never make a smile
Only hate
Merciless,
Reasonless
Invisible pride
In me you could never find
I glance at the shining fire
Next to me
Lighting a candle to bring a smile
To the sweetest kid I've ever known
The fire vanishes
Smoke flies
Bringing tears
To my eyes
You're worthless
These words, I've only ever
Heard from you
I wanted pride, approval
Though when I ever made
Those emeralds shine
It was with anger
With hate
I think back, try to be you
For even seconds
Just to know
Why I could never make you proud
And I find nothing
Nothing in the past
I knew your father
He was great
And so were all
Your memories
He would've told me
If they weren't
Honesty
Such a wonderful gift
One that was much too sweet
To ever be given by you
I never wanted you
The words, so like a knife
Could only hurt me
If from you
In my past, I can find nothing
No method, only madness
That still takes its toll on me
Even on my brightest days
I can't begin to imagine
What I did to you
To anyone
That no matter what I did
I couldn't make those emeralds shine
That had once meant so much
But now are no more than another stone
On the road that first began my life.
Bunny Crunch, 27 july 2012
Things That Fly
Glittering moonlight reflects off the shining grass.
Calm rain glides off the leaves of the trees above us,
Pours gentle mist across my feet.
The warm wind flows through my hair.
Gentle starlight brushes across the shadows
In illuminating waves.
Sweet berries fall around us
From high branches of surrounding trees.
The wind carries new rainbow petals
Brought around the world and back just to surround us.
The chirping birds serenade us with their lullaby,
Later to awake the sunrise.
The fresh rain leaps from the sky onto young perennials.
Gel drips from my damp hair,
Filling the cool air with tropical citrus.
The rain scatters across the shimmering grass.
The wind is a force field
Circling closer around us,
Keeping all the world away.
As close as it circles,
It never comes as close as we are
And the glittering moonlight
Never outshines my smile
Bunny Crunch, 25 january 2013
Purple Hearts
I lay out here, gaze at the stars
With paint and skates, and chocolate bars
The softness of the island sand
Unmatchable throughout this land
Through turmoil, terror, hate and blame
I know that I'll still be the same
For I have learned from you this far
The bitter value of a scar
I won't return to you again
Now far beyond the reach of men
Though I'll never learn to fly
If you first never make me cry
After what you've done to me
I hope that all the world will see
That life is more than words and charts
But love and fear, and purple hearts
It is they that show us how to live
Love to me, you would never give
It is that love that hurt me first
But from it I will not be cursed
And now we're here, up in the air
On top of Earth without a care
We'll soar above and not be shy
Flying up above the sky
Now that I've learned to tell a lie
No one will ever have to die
Through work of yours
Or others scores
I never thought I'd save a life
With gentle words and fun nightlife
Just a hug and a gentle smile
Can take away those words of vile
This world once, he longed to leave
But ran to me, I couldn't believe
What I could do with just four words
And now we've been frequent shorebirds
Alone again, alone with me
I gave him more than can ever be
A miracle, at very least
His happiness is long released
I've made his life, I've done much more
Time again to hit the shore
Each of these sweet Memphis days
We will race some blue stingrays
The softness of the island sand
Unmatchable throughout this land
Purple hearts shine in the sky
From pain that we have long gone by
Bunny Crunch, 27 july 2012
Rainbow Glow
Rain falls slower than my tears
The night drags on
I lay awake
Breathing nothing but the tears I cry
I gaze at the distant city lights
And all I can think
Is of that day
When I got rainbow hair
But stronger than the rainbow glow
Reflected through my hair
The pain still stays
Grows stronger with every shining tear
That falls
No matter what you do
To try to make it up to me
You can't
No number of childhood dreams
You recreate to be true
No matter every wish you grant
You used to call impossible
You hit me way too hard
When I ruined your car with paint
To love me as much
As you keep telling me you do
No matter how many presents
You give me
You can't make me forget
And I never will
These words, now all you say
I'm sorry, Matt
Even if they're true
Can never take the pain
I still feel
When I think of you
Bunny Crunch, 27 july 2012
Fire Field
The fire crackled
Then exploded
Flames circled
Close around me
The new light
So close to me
The shield of heat
Captured the cool
Smoke clouds rose
Dissolving the air
As well as my hope
That I could ever win
I closed my eyes
Felt the heat
Then a rush
Of hope
I took the water that was there now
Spilled it all around
Flames melted into dust
Smoke transformed into air
My hope returned
I just won
The fire was gone
And everything was fine
Don't stand too close to the fire
Everyone says
But I have to
Or I'll never know
How to put it out
When it comes again
Bunny Crunch, 13 february 2014
Lonely Crowded Street
You ought to practice what you preach
Or it is no more than wasted words
Meaningless lessons
Which are deeper than the air you swallow
But never breathe
Wasted time
All of which you use to tell them
To follow a path
Which you will never cross
Don't stoop to his level
You tell her, though you really are yourself
A level which only you have learned
Not to rise above
I know he was mean
I know it's been tough
But that's how it goes
In the world of love
You can change fate, but can't change a fact
So swallow his pride and quit with this act
Nothing now can be done
Four years now, I've heard about the one
Who you claim to hate to no avail
And yet you persist to bring up at any chance
By fighting against him
You are playing on his team
A team that can only lose against itself
It takes more courage to forgive
And to give up the fight
Than to complain that you've lost
When you are the only thing continuing this losing battle
If you don't fight, don't start
You can never lose
But you can win
As Marvel shows
Which you stand by every day
You can't let evil win
You preach this day to day
And yet you are the only one
To throw that white flag across your heart
To fly it from the ground when above it you could soar
You can't change him
You can't change what he's done
But he hasn't quite killed you yet
So you from him can still gain strength
Take his words and burn them up
Rather than throwing fuel to his fire
You say you're a chicken to cross the street
But fear you must not have
This lonely street is crowded not with cars
But with many others in your place
Afraid of what on the other side may lie
Afraid of what this life without hurt may hold
And it is only they who are hurt by these cars
Killed from their own fear
Why did the chicken cross the road?
To find a better life
Across this street an oasis lies
Across this lonely crowded street
But this true happiness may only be reached
Without the absence of pain unlike you think
Hiding from this pain in the dark
Will only bring the light of hell on Earth
Never anywhere will you find happily in this life
Unless you have the faith to cross this lonely crowded street
Bunny Crunch, 6 february 2016
Boarding School
That one night when I got lost
Made two months of high emotional cost
When first I saw you, I started to reel
Fearing suddenly the sound of pavement against wheel
Your incoordination
Skewed and arced your destination
And without much of a sound
Your longboard knocked me to the ground
It struck me thrice
And I fell twice
Once to the ground
And once for the sweet sound
Of your voice and your facaded care
We were the tortoise and the hare
I told you that we hit it off
I could hear not nature’s awkward cough
I wish that a light in my mind you’d knocked on
‘Ere that smile on my face began to spawn
Though my shin then stung like sleet
I thought you were very sweet
I couldn't walk
So to you I tried to talk
About my great stress
And you began my back to caress
You gave me a hug
Though I'd really caught a bug
You held me in your arms for twenty minutes straight
And I thought you were so, so great
You talked to me gently
Though you hit me like a Bentley
Taking the pain
Though I sounded insane
Your gentle grip was far too soft
And facaded was your loft
When you helped me to a nearby bench
I had fallen through your trench
You told me you felt awful
And though it was unlawful
You thought the distance to help was a little too far
And I almost accepted a ride in your car
Even when you lost your keys
Because you stayed my trust you could seize
You slowly half-carried me back to your room
Though it was really to my tomb
Of me you tried to take great care
The only time you were truly fair
You made sure I felt safe
And because of your kindness, you for a moment were my chief
When you left for a moment, I spoke of you highly
Insisting that you were ever so knightly
And you amazed me, for I thought in your heart
There room and care was enough for a stranger in part
That night I left the hospital delighted
But alas, come to find, I had only been slighted
For last night of a sudden you wrote to me
Saying you've never been my boyfriend and would never want to be
When I'd said nothing of the sort
You'd mangled that ball right into my court
You said you hoped that I would see
While you had been ignoring me
When I said simple things like “How was your day?”
Apparently I'd gotten far in your way
To tell them you were my boyfriend, which had crossed never my mind
You said was no right of mine of any kind
Of the First Amendment you must surely have heard
It's far kinder than you and your every last word
You can go to hell
For treating me so well
For holding me close and rubbing my back
Then telling me to you I'm less important than an empty sack
Like pool, you've really got some balls
To be making all these awful calls
Into my life your punitive claim barges
When I had pressed on you no charges
I had done you a favor
And my forgiveness you don't savor
All you wish to do is accuse me of lies
And with my blood that you caused stain the sanguine skies
Take it from the horse’s mouth, not the donkey’s hole
I'd be better off strapped to a silver pole
Than tolerate your lies
As kindness in disguise
You are no man
So your presence from my life I must ban
A broken heart is a heart nonetheless
And a heart is far more than you have, I guess
If only I could kick your ass
For trying these rumors as truth about me to pass
If you were a buck
My heart strings you'd still pluck
But I'd have a chance that trigger to pull
Have a chance to charge you like a bull
I still wouldn't take it, for I know from you
Just what a few hurtful words can do
They can destroy
Turn a man to a boy
If only you had ever grown up
‘Cause damn, you started cute as a pup
You started as security
Now you're a mere impurity
A virus that will kill
A large hospital bill
You have no room to care about a stranger or soul
For with love for yourself your heart is full
But mine with the rest of your victims I'll share
I'll keep them safe from the horrors of this hare
Bunny Crunch, 9 september 2015
Fit For a King
You used to crown me with new glory
You were the best part of my story
You were a wonderful, colorful king
And to you your praises I would never cease to sing
You have no conception of how hard I tried
To always make my heart a place where you could hide
Every piece of your story I would treasure
Even though it gave me less than pleasure
When stories of trauma you had assembled
I started to cry and my hands quickly trembled
You didn’t let me hug you then
Nor any time you told me again
You wanted me there but would shove me away
Saying with you I’d never be okay
Yet still at our parties I’d give you a toast
For this was the time when you needed me most
Even though you would never quite swallow your pride
To be there for you I tried and I tried
Slowly but surely we drifted apart
Just like the fibers you’d stolen from my heart
I should have known you’d never be there ‘til the end
Should have known you would leave like a fleeting trend
One night in your palace, you said I wanted more
I didn’t, and yet, still you forced me to the door
Your actions were strange, yet the greatest sin
Was making me think you’d ever let me in
Why did you ever make me think
That of closeness we were on the brink?
I gave you all my time
I let you stop me on a dime
And this is how you pay me
By saying cruelly mine you’ll never be?
Your words were degrading
And your guards came parading
I didn’t understand why friends we couldn’t be
Simply because of the woman I called me
You used to want to cheer me up
Now all you do is fill my cup
They tell me I should go get drunk
Or lock your mem’ry in my new car trunk
But this kind of pain whiskey just can’t facade
One I away from just cannot trod
You left me in the dark, in the shadow of your guards
Seeming to care not that you left my heart in trembling shards
Because I tried to enter into yours
With your words you struck me with a thousand two by fours
You’ve said before you know this pain
But from it nothing you will gain
For I’ll win this battle
No need to raise cattle
For I have my strength and that you can’t take
Even though my heart and will you can break
Woefully, I’m done with you
For there’s no more that I can do
With tears in my eyes
I bid you my goodbyes
With me still resonates your claim that you never felt a thing
But I suppose this is all too fit for a king
Bunny Crunch, 24 january 2015
Stars and Stripes
I wasn't too young to remember
When you came to see me in November
And took me gently in your arms
Taking my mind off its alarms
It was so wonderful to see you there
To rock with you in Grandma's rocking chair
I thought you were the coolest guy in the world
Not simply because up against your chest I curled
Your cashmere cradled me in love and a hug
The warmth and joy spreading quicker than a bug
Your voice was the smile in those paralyzing winds
Melting away the great world of my sins
You took me in as your little girl
Your arms cradling my locks of curl
You remembered me while you weren't home
Making joy echo across my heart like a dome
Breeding my exponential admiration
Of your every imperfection
I love you, Chris
If I remember anything, it's this:
That you're my hero and I can help not but smile when I see you
For there's no way I can be blue
When you give up your time for me
And love anyone I want to be
Spunky, sweet, and funny too
With you I don't know what to do
Just like a renewing river
Of love and fun you are my giver
They may say with you things have nothing to do
But they do, 'cause I admire you
You are everything I want to be
And the good in me you can always see
One of the things, though, that separates us
Is that you are a soldier magnanimous
You are a pilot
Flying by my tears of violet
In the skies of foreign countries far away
Instead of seeing me by day
I rarely see you anymore
The man that I still so adore
If give anything to hear your gentle voice
And if only I could see you I would ceaselessly rejoice
The fact that I can't ever see your face
Turns my emotions to a basket case
All I have are photos now
While in Kuwait you will soon take a bow
One of you blowing out a birthday candle
Is a little more than I can handle
After all these gifts without you there
Lying motionless in Grandma's rocking chair
I can only long to feel you there
To feel you gently stroke my hair
Without you life means not as much
Without your hugs or gentle touch
You think the way I do about
Most everything, and there's no doubt
With a soft tear welling in my eye
I long not to say goodbye
Can pray only that you will be not next to die
You are my father's godson
But it's clear that you're the one
Who I connect with more
So I wish that you'd be at my door
Waiting there to greet me with a hug
So I can cling to you like a water bug
For my birthday I wish that you could land
And walk with me slowly on the sand
And tell me that you're proud of me
For you are all I want to be
This February I'll look to the sky
And see my Blackhawk flying by
I'll walk alone beneath the stars
And think of time that once was (h)ours
Back home I miss you far too much
And the stars are clearly comfort such
For you fly among them, making them shine
And one of them you cast down to be mine
Shining as brightly as the sparkle in your eyes
Like you it may make me wise
And guide me through my darkest night
With a fleeting memory of you that I pray is right
Anytime I miss you I can wear some gentle stripes
Like the fading ones on Grandma's rocking chair which in my memories are ripe
Every night I cling to my teddy bear
And think of how you have less hair
Like the bear in that old-fashioned storybook rhyme
And I'll wish that back could be that time
They tell me that I'll have some more
When you come back to your family's door
In six months' time you will return
And elation in my heart may burn
For they tell me that you'll give me a day
To from the world get away
You and I may be together
A time which time's great ball can't tether
I would give my life to see you again
You're my favorite of all other men
But for now, I'll remember how it felt to rock with you
And in all that ever I will do
I'll listen to the wind and let it carry me back
To the last time I heard your voice telling me that you don't slack
That I should do some cardio
So I can survive within the zombie radio
That once I do, you'll help me shoot a paintball gun
And around the city we can run
That I finally can drive your car
Provided I don't leave a scar
I cling to these memories like I did to you back then
When I had no fear that I'd see you again
Bunny Crunch, 4 october 2014
Smoky
A four year old stood on the beach
Asking for a cigarette
Seeing my frown, she said with a smile
Daddy does it. He's my hero.
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1 may 2024
violetta
Tak;)
1 may 2024
kb
złotej*
1 may 2024
kontoler żłotej poświaty
1 may 2024
samo życie, każdy swoje brudy ma, lepsze czy
1 may 2024
romantyczny to romantyczny, prawdziwy taki
1 may 2024
ten ketchup to fakt, trzeba przypilnować przy
1 may 2024
interesujący przekaz, jak dla mnie o własnej
1 may 2024
jakby trzy style w jednej substancji :)
1 may 2024
ucieczka z przewidzianym powrotem to też stabilizacja...
29 april 2024
Nie jest niczym podyktowany:)
29 april 2024
sam53
nic nowego, wszystko mam pod kontrolą... tak
29 april 2024
a jak wygląda nieromantyczny pocałunek...?
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