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Bunny Crunch, 4 january 2013
The Emerald Road
Anger fills every vein
In your furious face
And I think that soon,
They'll burst
And I'll never have to see
Your merciless glare
That I could never make a smile
Only hate
Merciless,
Reasonless
Invisible pride
In me you could never find
I glance at the shining fire
Next to me
Lighting a candle to bring a smile
To the sweetest kid I've ever known
The fire vanishes
Smoke flies
Bringing tears
To my eyes
You're worthless
These words, I've only ever
Heard from you
I wanted pride, approval
Though when I ever made
Those emeralds shine
It was with anger
With hate
I think back, try to be you
For even seconds
Just to know
Why I could never make you proud
And I find nothing
Nothing in the past
I knew your father
He was great
And so were all
Your memories
He would've told me
If they weren't
Honesty
Such a wonderful gift
One that was much too sweet
To ever be given by you
I never wanted you
The words, so like a knife
Could only hurt me
If from you
In my past, I can find nothing
No method, only madness
That still takes its toll on me
Even on my brightest days
I can't begin to imagine
What I did to you
To anyone
That no matter what I did
I couldn't make those emeralds shine
That had once meant so much
But now are no more than another stone
On the road that first began my life.
Bunny Crunch, 25 january 2013
Purple Hearts
I lay out here, gaze at the stars
With paint and skates, and chocolate bars
The softness of the island sand
Unmatchable throughout this land
Through turmoil, terror, hate and blame
I know that I'll still be the same
For I have learned from you this far
The bitter value of a scar
I won't return to you again
Now far beyond the reach of men
Though I'll never learn to fly
If you first never make me cry
After what you've done to me
I hope that all the world will see
That life is more than words and charts
But love and fear, and purple hearts
It is they that show us how to live
Love to me, you would never give
It is that love that hurt me first
But from it I will not be cursed
And now we're here, up in the air
On top of Earth without a care
We'll soar above and not be shy
Flying up above the sky
Now that I've learned to tell a lie
No one will ever have to die
Through work of yours
Or others scores
I never thought I'd save a life
With gentle words and fun nightlife
Just a hug and a gentle smile
Can take away those words of vile
This world once, he longed to leave
But ran to me, I couldn't believe
What I could do with just four words
And now we've been frequent shorebirds
Alone again, alone with me
I gave him more than can ever be
A miracle, at very least
His happiness is long released
I've made his life, I've done much more
Time again to hit the shore
Each of these sweet Memphis days
We will race some blue stingrays
The softness of the island sand
Unmatchable throughout this land
Purple hearts shine in the sky
From pain that we have long gone by
Bunny Crunch, 27 july 2012
Rainbow Glow
Rain falls slower than my tears
The night drags on
I lay awake
Breathing nothing but the tears I cry
I gaze at the distant city lights
And all I can think
Is of that day
When I got rainbow hair
But stronger than the rainbow glow
Reflected through my hair
The pain still stays
Grows stronger with every shining tear
That falls
No matter what you do
To try to make it up to me
You can't
No number of childhood dreams
You recreate to be true
No matter every wish you grant
You used to call impossible
You hit me way too hard
When I ruined your car with paint
To love me as much
As you keep telling me you do
No matter how many presents
You give me
You can't make me forget
And I never will
These words, now all you say
I'm sorry, Matt
Even if they're true
Can never take the pain
I still feel
When I think of you
Bunny Crunch, 6 february 2016
Boarding School
That one night when I got lost
Made two months of high emotional cost
When first I saw you, I started to reel
Fearing suddenly the sound of pavement against wheel
Your incoordination
Skewed and arced your destination
And without much of a sound
Your longboard knocked me to the ground
It struck me thrice
And I fell twice
Once to the ground
And once for the sweet sound
Of your voice and your facaded care
We were the tortoise and the hare
I told you that we hit it off
I could hear not nature’s awkward cough
I wish that a light in my mind you’d knocked on
‘Ere that smile on my face began to spawn
Though my shin then stung like sleet
I thought you were very sweet
I couldn't walk
So to you I tried to talk
About my great stress
And you began my back to caress
You gave me a hug
Though I'd really caught a bug
You held me in your arms for twenty minutes straight
And I thought you were so, so great
You talked to me gently
Though you hit me like a Bentley
Taking the pain
Though I sounded insane
Your gentle grip was far too soft
And facaded was your loft
When you helped me to a nearby bench
I had fallen through your trench
You told me you felt awful
And though it was unlawful
You thought the distance to help was a little too far
And I almost accepted a ride in your car
Even when you lost your keys
Because you stayed my trust you could seize
You slowly half-carried me back to your room
Though it was really to my tomb
Of me you tried to take great care
The only time you were truly fair
You made sure I felt safe
And because of your kindness, you for a moment were my chief
When you left for a moment, I spoke of you highly
Insisting that you were ever so knightly
And you amazed me, for I thought in your heart
There room and care was enough for a stranger in part
That night I left the hospital delighted
But alas, come to find, I had only been slighted
For last night of a sudden you wrote to me
Saying you've never been my boyfriend and would never want to be
When I'd said nothing of the sort
You'd mangled that ball right into my court
You said you hoped that I would see
While you had been ignoring me
When I said simple things like “How was your day?”
Apparently I'd gotten far in your way
To tell them you were my boyfriend, which had crossed never my mind
You said was no right of mine of any kind
Of the First Amendment you must surely have heard
It's far kinder than you and your every last word
You can go to hell
For treating me so well
For holding me close and rubbing my back
Then telling me to you I'm less important than an empty sack
Like pool, you've really got some balls
To be making all these awful calls
Into my life your punitive claim barges
When I had pressed on you no charges
I had done you a favor
And my forgiveness you don't savor
All you wish to do is accuse me of lies
And with my blood that you caused stain the sanguine skies
Take it from the horse’s mouth, not the donkey’s hole
I'd be better off strapped to a silver pole
Than tolerate your lies
As kindness in disguise
You are no man
So your presence from my life I must ban
A broken heart is a heart nonetheless
And a heart is far more than you have, I guess
If only I could kick your ass
For trying these rumors as truth about me to pass
If you were a buck
My heart strings you'd still pluck
But I'd have a chance that trigger to pull
Have a chance to charge you like a bull
I still wouldn't take it, for I know from you
Just what a few hurtful words can do
They can destroy
Turn a man to a boy
If only you had ever grown up
‘Cause damn, you started cute as a pup
You started as security
Now you're a mere impurity
A virus that will kill
A large hospital bill
You have no room to care about a stranger or soul
For with love for yourself your heart is full
But mine with the rest of your victims I'll share
I'll keep them safe from the horrors of this hare
Bunny Crunch, 30 september 2015
From a "Packrat"'s Point of View
Everything is temporary
And to me, that’s kind of scary
It’s intense psychology
So don’t give me your theology
It can be a fatal psychological disorder
So it’s really not funny when you call me a hoarder
With all these struggles I can’t cope
And for control I only hope
I need an escape
No matter what the form or shape
When you lose so much and your betrayers can’t replace
Tell me again that I need in my empty crowded room more space
When these shadows I’m too weak to face
You tell me it’s my fault I’m losing my race
In my burdens I am drowning
That’s why I have collections in their aging that are browning
I want the happiness of childhood
So lay off the mocking if you could
I grew up too fast
That’s why I cling to mementos from my past
You may not understand my fears
But it doesn’t mean my age-old carpet has never dried my tears
Maybe rejection has just been too much
And that’s why I have all this candy and such
Maybe what haunts me is the absence of love
And that’s why I cling to this empty glove
The hand that I’m holding may be never there
But I keep it to think that someone with me it will wear
Instead of sneering and yelling, try being there for me
Then maybe a light in this darkness I’ll see
Maybe these boxes and things growing old
Are the only lifeline I can hope to hold
This is the one thing I can do
To avoid being slaughtered by the new
I want a shield from this hurt
That’s why I keep every single shirt
Don’t call me selfish for trying to hide
From the day that in the midst of us a man slowly died
I’m sure if you saw him have that stroke
You too would make yourself go broke
After all, an expensive mask
Is healthier than a suicide flask
When you mock my heart that I’ve shared with you
Tell me, what else can I possibly do?
I’d rather be alone than taken and unloved
And unhealthy by yet another’s words be dubbed
If you don’t love the worst parts of me
If like me good in me you can’t see
Be like the rest and from me walk away
And leave me with no light to face alone my darkest day
Bunny Crunch, 25 september 2015
Metal Mouth
You to me would always listen
When my tears began to glisten
As though those tears could work like guns
You told me several stupid puns
You abhor them, and yet, you would tell them to me
Showing me to you something special I might be
You would text me every day
Making me think that talking was okay
Sometimes you’d feel like you were safe to open up
And you’d tell me about family or your recently dead pup
When you did, I showed you I was there for you
But nothing ever would I make you do
I told you I’d be there in the middle of the night
And still with me you’ve never tried to make things right
With no one I would share the things to me you told
So your insistence that I make you talk is getting kind of old
By never giving up on you, I thought your path I could remold
Everyone but me could see your heart was cold
My own barriers I broke so you could do the same
Yet when you went too deep you insisted I take blame
I wish I could stop crying myself each night to sleep
Because you’ve made me feel at fault that your kindness I could never reap
Slowly I am drowning
While your ego I’ve been unknowingly crowning
You never thank me for the things for you I’ve done
Sometimes I wish I’d have the courage to run
If I needed you, you’d let me keep falling
If I called you, you’d just laugh and leave me bawling
I’ll take no more blame than you for this act
Of breaking our nonconsensual pact
It’s hard to help when I know nothing at all
And for your games I always fall
You deceive and you manipulate me
Making me think that me is the worst thing one can be
You act like I’m a useless burden
Communicating to you is like being back at Verdun
Your tongue is like a fatal blade
It is heartless in the highest grade
You gnaw at my heart like acid rain
From tearing it to shreds you think something you will gain
Though of your past I’ve never first spoken
You insist your barriers I’ve broken
I’m not the one and I’ll never be
At least you realize you’re not good enough for me
My emotions you slowly molest
And tell me I’m dramatic and a burden when I protest
You tell me to chill
When my hurt with you I try to kill
Your talent as a homewrecker
Is stronger than a mountain trekker
My mind you would manipulate
You never cared; t’was all in hate
The evil in your essence
Bubbled up in effervescence
You are an active volcano
Drinking me like Draino
By your words of lava being burnt
One first learns about true hurt
You need to practice what you preach
Swallow your pride; and don’t give me my speech
If you claim my barrier I should break down
Descend from your imagined throne and tear apart your crown
You have made me starch and starve
While ‘cross my heart your name you carve
Thinking you have power over me
Because there for you is all I’ll ever be
I want you to come to me and see you’re a jerk
Yet keeping you close will never work
I can no longer save you; I can no longer try
Yet I want you to realize and can’t seem to say goodbye
Though I promised you I wouldn’t, now I have to give up
For all you do is fill my cup
You may wonder why your friend I refuse to stay
What else can I do when you push me away?
Some people you can’t change; sometimes them you cannot save
And to think I promised to be there til I reached my grave
You my skies have turned forever gray
And though it kills me like you do, to leave you has come now my day
You can go to hell, my love
For you tear apart my wings when I’m soaring like a dove
There’s nothing more I can do, for my hands are tied
But it isn’t really losing; for to save you I have tried and tried.
Bunny Crunch, 9 september 2015
Fit For a King
You used to crown me with new glory
You were the best part of my story
You were a wonderful, colorful king
And to you your praises I would never cease to sing
You have no conception of how hard I tried
To always make my heart a place where you could hide
Every piece of your story I would treasure
Even though it gave me less than pleasure
When stories of trauma you had assembled
I started to cry and my hands quickly trembled
You didn’t let me hug you then
Nor any time you told me again
You wanted me there but would shove me away
Saying with you I’d never be okay
Yet still at our parties I’d give you a toast
For this was the time when you needed me most
Even though you would never quite swallow your pride
To be there for you I tried and I tried
Slowly but surely we drifted apart
Just like the fibers you’d stolen from my heart
I should have known you’d never be there ‘til the end
Should have known you would leave like a fleeting trend
One night in your palace, you said I wanted more
I didn’t, and yet, still you forced me to the door
Your actions were strange, yet the greatest sin
Was making me think you’d ever let me in
Why did you ever make me think
That of closeness we were on the brink?
I gave you all my time
I let you stop me on a dime
And this is how you pay me
By saying cruelly mine you’ll never be?
Your words were degrading
And your guards came parading
I didn’t understand why friends we couldn’t be
Simply because of the woman I called me
You used to want to cheer me up
Now all you do is fill my cup
They tell me I should go get drunk
Or lock your mem’ry in my new car trunk
But this kind of pain whiskey just can’t facade
One I away from just cannot trod
You left me in the dark, in the shadow of your guards
Seeming to care not that you left my heart in trembling shards
Because I tried to enter into yours
With your words you struck me with a thousand two by fours
You’ve said before you know this pain
But from it nothing you will gain
For I’ll win this battle
No need to raise cattle
For I have my strength and that you can’t take
Even though my heart and will you can break
Woefully, I’m done with you
For there’s no more that I can do
With tears in my eyes
I bid you my goodbyes
With me still resonates your claim that you never felt a thing
But I suppose this is all too fit for a king
Bunny Crunch, 24 january 2015
Stars and Stripes
I wasn't too young to remember
When you came to see me in November
And took me gently in your arms
Taking my mind off its alarms
It was so wonderful to see you there
To rock with you in Grandma's rocking chair
I thought you were the coolest guy in the world
Not simply because up against your chest I curled
Your cashmere cradled me in love and a hug
The warmth and joy spreading quicker than a bug
Your voice was the smile in those paralyzing winds
Melting away the great world of my sins
You took me in as your little girl
Your arms cradling my locks of curl
You remembered me while you weren't home
Making joy echo across my heart like a dome
Breeding my exponential admiration
Of your every imperfection
I love you, Chris
If I remember anything, it's this:
That you're my hero and I can help not but smile when I see you
For there's no way I can be blue
When you give up your time for me
And love anyone I want to be
Spunky, sweet, and funny too
With you I don't know what to do
Just like a renewing river
Of love and fun you are my giver
They may say with you things have nothing to do
But they do, 'cause I admire you
You are everything I want to be
And the good in me you can always see
One of the things, though, that separates us
Is that you are a soldier magnanimous
You are a pilot
Flying by my tears of violet
In the skies of foreign countries far away
Instead of seeing me by day
I rarely see you anymore
The man that I still so adore
If give anything to hear your gentle voice
And if only I could see you I would ceaselessly rejoice
The fact that I can't ever see your face
Turns my emotions to a basket case
All I have are photos now
While in Kuwait you will soon take a bow
One of you blowing out a birthday candle
Is a little more than I can handle
After all these gifts without you there
Lying motionless in Grandma's rocking chair
I can only long to feel you there
To feel you gently stroke my hair
Without you life means not as much
Without your hugs or gentle touch
You think the way I do about
Most everything, and there's no doubt
With a soft tear welling in my eye
I long not to say goodbye
Can pray only that you will be not next to die
You are my father's godson
But it's clear that you're the one
Who I connect with more
So I wish that you'd be at my door
Waiting there to greet me with a hug
So I can cling to you like a water bug
For my birthday I wish that you could land
And walk with me slowly on the sand
And tell me that you're proud of me
For you are all I want to be
This February I'll look to the sky
And see my Blackhawk flying by
I'll walk alone beneath the stars
And think of time that once was (h)ours
Back home I miss you far too much
And the stars are clearly comfort such
For you fly among them, making them shine
And one of them you cast down to be mine
Shining as brightly as the sparkle in your eyes
Like you it may make me wise
And guide me through my darkest night
With a fleeting memory of you that I pray is right
Anytime I miss you I can wear some gentle stripes
Like the fading ones on Grandma's rocking chair which in my memories are ripe
Every night I cling to my teddy bear
And think of how you have less hair
Like the bear in that old-fashioned storybook rhyme
And I'll wish that back could be that time
They tell me that I'll have some more
When you come back to your family's door
In six months' time you will return
And elation in my heart may burn
For they tell me that you'll give me a day
To from the world get away
You and I may be together
A time which time's great ball can't tether
I would give my life to see you again
You're my favorite of all other men
But for now, I'll remember how it felt to rock with you
And in all that ever I will do
I'll listen to the wind and let it carry me back
To the last time I heard your voice telling me that you don't slack
That I should do some cardio
So I can survive within the zombie radio
That once I do, you'll help me shoot a paintball gun
And around the city we can run
That I finally can drive your car
Provided I don't leave a scar
I cling to these memories like I did to you back then
When I had no fear that I'd see you again
Bunny Crunch, 4 october 2014
Smoky
A four year old stood on the beach
Asking for a cigarette
Seeing my frown, she said with a smile
Daddy does it. He's my hero.
Bunny Crunch, 25 july 2014
Stranger
Weak and wasted there I stood
Walking along the darkened path
Having no compass to light my way
Not even common sense
So young I was, and yet, so bright
For a stranger I met in the night
So strong you looked, so tall you stood
Waiting there for me
Bloodhounds scream
And sirens roar
But as always you
Are back for more
You smiled at me, and what I saw
Was fire there, not light
And because I was still just a boy
You played me like a toy
You were my hero
The very one to save me
From this path
The very one to swallow me
Along this swallowed ground
You took my hand and led me
Down the path of death
The death of sight and sound and scream
The poison in my veins
It's okay, you whisper
Softly as you slither next to me
Follow me and I'll show you
What life can truly be
But a ray of moon shone down on you
Showing me the truth
This Devil man you truly are
Despite my ignorance, I saw it now
The fire of you, the darkness
Cruelty beyond belief
Father of the night
And being myself a child of day,
That night I ran far away
When run I could no longer
I fell to my knees and cried
I watched my hero disappear
Into a cloud of light
I couldn't believe the way I felt
So heartbroken, so soon
Drowning in a black river
While searching for a lost and broken hope
I felt as though I was laid to rest
On a bed of broken glass
Each shard a memory of my hero lost
Reminding me I couldn't save myself
Just my luck I'd been to hell
Lured by a facade
And once in this land of terror
Betrayed by my own father
On my knees I did remain
I hurt, I screamed, I sobbed
Then a small star came to be
The awakening of me
Deeper into darkness did I fall
Until from the woods I heard a voiceless call
Drowning in the pitch black night
Of this hell so called my life
With the energy I hadn't gained
I rose and ran to it
A sweet new baby born this night
By the moon, my guiding light
I took him in my tiny arms
His shield from the dark
A tiny tear fell from his cheek
Melting any fire left in me
Don't worry, I whispered below the storm
We never have yet signed a form
You and I won't still stay here
This stranger you won't have to fear
I drew a cup of water
And we both took a sip
Our secret lighted promise there
That freed us of his grip
Slowly we began to crawl away
Reaching for the light of day
Brighter as we left our world became
Our promise making us fair game
To freedom we did try to crawl
Into a shallow stream
So magical our world seemed,
So much like a dream
I watched the sunrise break the sky
And all hold you had ever over me
Every now and then we hear you
Yelling from your cave
Violent words and treacherous threats
Screaming gripping ropes and shallow cheers
But these evil acts you justify
For you love me to the core
And this is right, so you say,
For all's fair in love and war
A house divided cannot stand
And that's why I fell so hard
Though I never thought my daddy
Would be the one to push me
Off the cliff,
The cold and fatal cliff
The very one that our bond broke
And taught me how to fly
No longer do I fear another day
When you'll whip me with your tail
Or any other means
For if you try to kick the fire
You only end up getting burnt
We won't try to fight
Instead we'll walk away
We'll no longer fear our dad
Our executioner
This stranger
For fear is never meant to last,
You see
It only makes you braver
Latest comments:
1 may 2024
violetta
Tak;)
1 may 2024
kb
złotej*
1 may 2024
kontoler żłotej poświaty
1 may 2024
samo życie, każdy swoje brudy ma, lepsze czy
1 may 2024
romantyczny to romantyczny, prawdziwy taki
1 may 2024
ten ketchup to fakt, trzeba przypilnować przy
1 may 2024
interesujący przekaz, jak dla mnie o własnej
1 may 2024
jakby trzy style w jednej substancji :)
1 may 2024
ucieczka z przewidzianym powrotem to też stabilizacja...
29 april 2024
Nie jest niczym podyktowany:)
29 april 2024
sam53
nic nowego, wszystko mam pod kontrolą... tak
29 april 2024
a jak wygląda nieromantyczny pocałunek...?
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