The Emerald Road

Anger fills every vein
In your furious face
And I think that soon,
They'll burst

And I'll never have to see
Your merciless glare
That I could never make a smile
Only hate

Merciless,
Reasonless
Invisible pride
In me you could never find

I glance at the shining fire
Next to me
Lighting a candle to bring a smile
To the sweetest kid I've ever known

The fire vanishes
Smoke flies
Bringing tears
To my eyes

You're worthless
These words, I've only ever
Heard from you
I wanted pride, approval

Though when I ever made
Those emeralds shine
It was with anger
With hate

I think back, try to be you
For even seconds
Just to know
Why I could never make you proud

And I find nothing
Nothing in the past
I knew your father
He was great

And so were all
Your memories
He would've told me
If they weren't

Honesty
Such a wonderful gift
One that was much too sweet
To ever be given by you

I never wanted you
The words, so like a knife
Could only hurt me
If from you

In my past, I can find nothing
No method, only madness
That still takes its toll on me
Even on my brightest days

I can't begin to imagine
What I did to you
To anyone
That no matter what I did

I couldn't make those emeralds shine
That had once meant so much
But now are no more than another stone
On the road that first began my life.