I don't know

I thought i had it all.
I never did.
Picture perfect moments like this.
Could never exist.
Maybe in my dreams.
I need a reality check.
If i expected so much more.
I should have thought again.
I want to lay you down.
Pick out your flaws.
Dry you out.
And watch you crawl.
Don't pick me up.
I can stand by myself.
Don't give me lectures.
I don't need the guilt.
You couldn't help me.
Not even if you tried.
I'm to fucking ignorant.
Your words will never sink in my mind.
I know your only trying to help.
And im always putting you down.
If you knew what you are doing.
You would have already had a solution figured out.