Patricia Etienne

Patricia Etienne, 11 september 2013

*** America Remembers ***

Simply Tuesday morning, a day just like the ordinary
But to some Lucifer's hearts,
It's planned to be a day in hell
And continues to be a hellish memory to some.

Yeah, America Remembers!
A morning that goes the opposite
When the sun overtaken by cloudiness
And darkness spreads onto her land.

Yeah, America Remembers!
A morning that turns out to be
A deadly viper assassination squad.
That serves thick blood on a plate, and tears in a mug for breakfast.

Yeah, America Remembers!
A morning that rips many families apart.
and hold many hearts in sorrow
And lead many children to the orphan world.

Yeah,9/11/01
America falls onto her knees.
It's as if the sword of Zeus is planted into her heart
Oh she weeps and weeps
The tears that fall from her eyes look like the river of the unknown gods.

Oh terrorists!
You strike my land but I'm not destroyed
You shed my children blood
But most are standing tall and vigilant

You must know
With my torch holding up high
I am who they say I am
My road is illuminating for life to come.


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Patricia Etienne, 22 january 2013

Indian women cry “Great St. Essa”


Oh great wisdom Sage of wondrous time

Shine up your great eyes on the women of India as they have been under difficulties

Their land has no place to free and their voice has no strength to cry for mercy

Each day is a struggle like a challenge for a limb to climb up mountains

For you Great Sage, stood against the great Sanhedrin's practices

Your revolutionary actions, had delivered the ultimate chance, and fair choices

That brought by far, women's and children's rights.

Like Mary-Magdalena became sin-free

The Samaritan woman spread the gospel of salvation

The crippled woman who first took steps inside the synagogue

for you broke down the hall of patriarch superiority

your affirmation on behalf of women, had brought The Pharisees to humiliation and shamed

Oh Great Master-avatar!

Why in India a woman is raped every twenty minutes?

Why such adversities on those women ?

Why tears take the place of their glowing eyes?

why sadness takes constant notes in their hearts?

Why such malevolent at large?

If follow your theory by turning the other cheek to the aggressor.

It won't be much hope and

MeditaTION wouldn't be the answer either

For those Indian women cry “Great St. Essa”

You sacrificed to create peace and gender equality.

Let the bell tolls and said “Beware, Brute-Men leave the site of those women for they are sacred and loved!”

Let those unleashed rapist be refrained to normal type of behavior

For legacy of justice reigns, and the fallen souls shall depart in peace.
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Patricia Etienne, 15 january 2013

The Monopolize Way

With your narcissistic aspects,
How can I grow under your shadow?
Must I always carry a panhandling,
or...
Break
Away?
Either way...
The thought of you give me the fear.
Must I remain passive
so I can be pet around?
Must I act coercively-
Again...
How can I break loose
From this-
Hypochondria form of you?


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Patricia Etienne, 21 april 2012

~So disturb! ~

It’s 6: 35 in the morning
I wake up sweat and breathless
Thoughts pounding my head
The ramblings of my brain
Wanting to come out live through ink
I slip my hand to look for you
Then, instead my hand touches
The folded sheet on the pillow
Damned you!
Damned you!
I slip my hands between my thighs
The early sun set hit my eyes
Through the thin curtain window
Allow my eyes to close
The memory of the beautiful night
Shivers my body, then I get angry
Hear my heart cry
God of misericord
Why must it always have to be this way?
Like a hit and run situation
Like a Doctor’s visit
You come and treat my pain
And then hit the road
Never once have the chance
To wake up cuddle in your arms.
To cry our joys of the night passé
To gaze into each other’s eyes
Share a good morning kiss
Or drink a morning coffee together
Never mind!
O’ ma tête me fait mal
C'est comme une piqûre d`aiguille
ça me fait si mal, si mal
Dans ma tête...
I try to think of something else
Still my thoughts want to
Transcribe on paper and
Here is my endless story (…)
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Patricia Etienne, 20 april 2012

~Humanity Cries Woe~

Gazing upon the rocky grey mountain peaks
Abruptly, particle of rocks avalanche break away
Rush down the surface of the mountain
and shake the ground into bitter disaster
It seems like darkness holds the world hostage

Rush down the surface of the mountain
Like a cat sink its claws into the wall- people hang on the edge
Fighting not to slide down below the cave erosion
Anatomy of fear stares in the eyes of us all
Really no room to talk, humanity is caught in the act of misdeed

Anatomy of fear stares in the eyes of us all
When we are trapped under the cloud's veil
and evil paint-balls spread all over our bodies
Should harsh reality to be tossed in?
What is our reasons and alibis?

Humanity cries for help and attention
What is our reasons and alibis?
We are of different races, ethnicities and creeds- love must not flourish
For you not silence- I must retaliate
For we are not in the same political comfort zone- war must declare

Humanity cries for help and attention
Who to blame and who should we go to for repair?
It's to keepsake, and can't be left in this lucrative scene
We should collaborate, and make amend, but when?.
Humanity cries- look at me, notice me and stare at me!

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Patricia Etienne, 25 march 2012

~~This Poet I Am~~

Midnight hour sets on the clock

Mother moon, lights up the deep black sky

The ray of light strikes on the surface of my bedroom window

Appears to disturb my sleep cycle

– Meanwhile,

I am tossing and turning unable to find comfort

Alphabetical letters whirled inside my head

Images and shapes throbbing my brain

looking to cluster and birth a meaning.

Under a teeny cylinder candlelight

I oblige to transcribe down my thoughts

Perhaps a poet I come to be?

~~~~

I glimpse down on the paper

Ponderous words exert feelings of discontentment and concern

The muse is coming stronger like a tam tam beat

So words are climbing down as though on the activist dance-hall

– Unbelievable!

They are revolutionise words

In form that pursuit a cause

It seems like my clever in action.

I rebel against my thoughts

I attempt to replace bitter lines with  soft sentences

In the end the true rhythm of my heart reveals – A superlative minder

This poet I am

~~~~

Now the candlelight goes out, and

I’m sitting in the dark thinking.

~~~~

Thus, I bump into some difficult tunnels

To hear the voices, to interpret them,

then to feed them accordingly through the mind of the reader and listener.

Not an easy task. Sorry for those who think this way.

– Controversial!

Some depict me as a feminist thinker, a citizen poet--

Others view my approaches as 'A bowl of mixing salad.'

Either one bothers me not

What matters to me is the one life that I touch and make the difference.

There's always one indeed, not to say many

It's the power projected in the pen

The free verse unravel,

and create a piece of evocative writing,

Which is free to revise at any time-- makes me the poet I am.


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Patricia Etienne, 21 february 2012

~*~The ist and ism discoloration~*~

I am the  creation of the higher up

Can't be the specimen of Virgin Mary

Can best be the seed of Aphrodite

Created to please-

Satisfy,

Submissive,

Lure,

Discrete

Strive and grow

(… Enough already)

 ~*~

If I choose to follow the path of Lady Godiva

To strengthen things-

Gain remission,

Rebuke oppression,

Acknowledge,

And to set up justice whereupon

(… Frankly, I find nothing wrong with that)

~*~

If I choose to follow my meanings in life

To voice concerns

for those in the dungeon,

Keep in silence with a leash

and blind folded with a gipsy veil

(… then, that's great!)

~*~

If I choose to be me!

I bow down to  no fear , just dare

In spites of being a woman

I step on my imperfections

To flaunt my women-ism-

Socially involved

And, an...

(… Go on , don't crack down, please stop it, stop those tears of yours. You are stronger than that, go on, I'm listening)

~*~
Then why must I misconstrue in the  plethora of  the ist and ism characteristics?

Feminist,

lesbianism,

Envy-ism

All called names  by male chauvinist, sexist

who solely perceived Aphrodite's seeds as stupid and worthless.

Stand on the superiority scale

Throwing dragon fire if winning and controlling are not up to their vantages

(… But sweet pea, you sound very upset)

~*~

Unlike the Virgin Mother

I am a modern woman

I put on the red eyes

When I'm bit by snake tongues

Cruel judgmental minds

I wear my trouser and boots to maintain my activities

I hard labor around the clock

For I sustain and cater to my family

I carry my banner up high to denounce  malfeasance

Intimidation is aroused when imply  the ist and ism cycle

The idea behind is to hibernate thoughts

Cripple and crush  women's souls

In spites of all called names

I remain to be me

Whole and concrete

(… You said it all sweet pea, now rest your case!)


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Patricia Etienne, 21 february 2012

*`~`*the Forbidden Flea*`~`*

It hurts to feel

When you have a dream

A very funny dream

That is bigger than your thoughts

Than what you can take on

When illusion rises

You feel to take the world by storms

Then limitation stands in your way.


If only she could, she would

She would find a way to defy

What is appeared to be

The scourge of our time

The irrational thing

The forbidden flea

That literally sucks life

And supplies darkness in return


If only she could, she would

She would destroy by rage

This funny pioneer wants to be

The gloom and doom insect

With the ultimate intention

To destroy man kind

With no exception


Nonetheless, she is so very heartbroken

When realize this demon is at its will power

Nobody has yet to come close to its match

In fact she finds it to be so very difficult

To even finding words of motivation

To alleviate its victims' souls

Knowing half of the time

It's just...


But when she looks on the bright side

She takes a very deep breath

Hopeful breath!

Knowing, that we are human, the biggest species among all!

The celestial gift given to us

We will not be defeated by cancer

The dubious insect

The supreme victory is to us!


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Patricia Etienne, 13 february 2012

~~The Bogeymen In The Black boots~~

On this foul terrain 

Even the very light blowing wind 

Bring the strongest man off balance 

Go figure the  heavy black boots predators 

who spread torture by buckets. 

They blow fire with burning pressure 

and oppression with no measure; 

attempting to meltdown those who are reluctant of their wrongdoings. 

Like the no kindest, no heart Apocalypses' laws 

Intimidation is ruled to win souls 

Rejeanne's father underwent the knife of oppression 

The tried to drain off his activist blood 

Poor Rejeanne, she witnessed the entire reckless operation, 

and when her father’s last breath went flatlining like a candle light. 

Her mother escaped through the back wooden window

 
With little Rejeanne carried on her shoulder 

Hours later she fled the country, 

and left Rejeanne behind with her Grand-Mama. 

Poor child has carried the cross of her time. 

She felt short-changed to have lost her father, 

and sort of abandoned by her mother. 

She shed tears of broken memories; 

especially, on father's day same for Mother's day. 

Although, her Grand-Mama really tried to act as her parents, 

but at times that didn't cut the drill. 

She really needed someone to call Mom and Dad and she needed parenting love. 

For Rejeanne, being a toddler and life without parents was very upheaval. 

The many distressing dreams she always encountered, 

Related to the traumatic event she has suffered. 

Her nightmares content – the bogeymen in the black boots; 

who were trying to break the door open. 

Horrific dreams, that she often awoken with her heart pounding from fear. 

Through many years Rejeanne spent each day of her life like a massive morn. 

She grew into an anxious adult 

Nonetheless compassionate... 

Still with the long lasting emotional effects of traumatic experienced 

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Patricia Etienne, 7 february 2012

`*Hatred rules*`



Since the ancient time

It has been a constant fight-

Between the two forces

With a profuse imbalance


The small walks on the blade of grass

With the end result of ongoing tears- of anguish;

The big delivers endless corruptions,

And make certain their victims' joy is treason.


A battle of justice versus injustice-

Knowledge debating with ignorance

Prejudice leading towards racism

Eventually proclaim world apartheid.


Oh this chronic fight of agony

Where things are taking a twist

Hopeless marches on the graveyard

It's like bringing knife to gunfire


For the small it's a fight without pod

Since an ant cannot tangle with a giant elephant

The scale has remained imbalance.

Again the sadist with a smile on his face!

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Patricia Etienne, 20 january 2012

~*~I'm of Destiny~*~

I'm the product of what he had written for centuries ago

A figment of his visions the rest are yet to come.

An envoy with a different portrait among so many

Thu my perspective and intention are of his directions


I'm no fairy tale whether than you think of me

I'm no imagination of what your thought may seem

I'm human, rather say a flesh, with dust and breathe he created us both.

By now, you should acknowledge that I can't be gone with the blink of an eye.


Upon his will I'm leading this nation

Your impertinence onto me hurt him more than you may have thought.

Your plots verses me have raised good patriotic concern from many

Now, the all union crews are on the verge of dissension.


I'm of destiny and by all means- it's to charge

I know nothing of my past present and future

I know nothing from the string of my hair through the tip of my toe

One thing I know he cast me a vote and so I'm a voice among you all.

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Patricia Etienne, 20 january 2012

His Traverse

The moment of anguish
Alley of betrayal
Scene of suffering by one man greed
Garden of lost hope
Awful, dreadful night
The beasts, unmerciful men, armed
Marched toward the pure, innocent soul
Gethsemane! Gethsemane!
He was tied with ropes and arrested
Accused for no known cause
Pilate, “for I find no fault in him”
Thus he was flogged
His garment was torn
With the crown of thorns
His blood dripped from his forehead
Bathed his face, body and sweat
Put to shame, degradation, pain, sorrow
Condemned and crucified
O Bethlehem! O Bethlehem!
The Lamb of God
He came to save us sinners
We gave him deception and death
O  sweet courage  our virgin lady!
For your martyrs and torments
For witnessed the great sacrifice of the lamb
You stood the pain with fortress
And with great compassion
Blessed be! Blessed be!
O Jerusalem! O Jerusalem!
Sadness has landed onto your land
The deep dark sky cried of despair
For our saviour has been sacrificed
We all are sinners!
With his compassion,
He took the part of a man for our sins
The prophecy has accomplished
He defeated death!
Maranatha!
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Patricia Etienne, 20 january 2012

She's April



Just early dawn

Clear blue sky

Hear the birds sing behind the glass window.

Stand in the midst of her horizon


The wakening of the rose bouquets.

A wonderful allure

A perfect therapy for the eyes.

The fresh scented smell, things to come

It's going to be beautiful!


She, in the morning is the same at nighttime

Especially, with her black satin negligee.

Portray the pattern of bright stars and luminous moon.

Enough to sway any man off balance.


A very happy soul

Can as well be really pretentious.

Very reputable for her mood changes

Her roller coaster body temperature.

And her majesty green weepy eyes.


The Cleopatra to all men eyes.

The renaissance of beauty.

The happiness by all mean.

April is blossom with Spring.


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Patricia Etienne, 14 january 2012

`~The lyric of Fiona~`

As daylight appears above the
earth's horizon
My thoughts begin with this perpetual race
In which my
inner voice always steps in to the rescue
On the pretense of reassurance,

Whisper the very same tone and lyric

"Here's cheers to your pain"

"Here's cheers to your sorrow"
"As it happens long and gone"
"The
damage has already done"
"time to let go, something meant not grow"


These words usually carry me through for sometime.
They are
constructive and wholesome
They are used as a basis for relating values to
my issues
They are used as principle to reach me out
They are supposedly
therapeutic words, useful while they last

But how long can I dwell on
this trend of words?
When each day, all I can see is the same old face

The same mask is haunting me down
The same scenario with a repetitive
play in my eyes
His sound of voice echoing in my head
Fiona, Fiona,
Fiona...
His breathe, heavily on my face
Frankly, words are not enough
to heal my pain
This carve in my wrist is done as in a cry for help
A
sign of psychological disturbance.
But how can I receive proper help?

When all along, I've been plastering the truth
I've been ashamed to say
that I was raped
Yeah, I finally say it!
I bursted out the pain
I
was raped...
By an unknown core
The evil man, who constantly disturbing
my sleep
I find myself in the circle of rape trauma syndrome.
Now my
inner voice whispers a different tone and lyric >>

"Here's cheers
to your strength"
"Here's cheers for breaking the silence"
"Here's
cheers for coming out of the isolation"
"Here's cheers for taking the step
toward your healing journey"
© 2012 by _Patricia Etienne
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Note from author: To all rape survivors, While there's no way to
change what happened to you, but you can at least speak up. Don't fear reprisal
and feel ashamed, please take action!


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Patricia Etienne, 11 january 2012

``Sephora``

Just before dawn sitting on the balcony, heavy winds blow with gravel dust smear my eyes into tears.

Then, thinking of you

Asking myself the unanswered question

Why do I love you so?

In the mist of the night, thoughts racing through my head, wake up sweat and heavy breathe

Then, thinking of you

Asking myself the silly question

Why is my heart beating so hard for you?

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
If sky could speak, perhaps my only question would be answered

Because above...

I raise my head each time I have wondered

About that...

My heart is so happy whenever I see you,

But then again...

I rather turn my head the other way

Knowing...

It pierces my heart to the extreme just to have this feeling onward.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Many times I have felt for girls,

But then...

Cannot compare a soul to how I feel for you now

Many times...

I've heard my friends complain of love that hurts,

But then...

I didn't think this could ever happen to me

Simply...

I thought that I could control my heart about anything!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Now, Sephora is the girl my heart yearning for

My remaining question...

Does she feel the same way I feel about her?

O' worthless,

I feel by exposing this capsule of words

Unexplainable...

When a poor man's heart is consumed with feelings

Reality is...

To break silence in a serene mode, before driving to the insane road.


Note from author:

I was inspired by my friend Eric O'Connor, after our discussion on the factor about the equation of falling in love.


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Patricia Etienne, 5 january 2012

Just Another Woman


He came into my life like a gush of water he dispersed everything away

My friends warned me of him, but his strong poetic words transformed my heart to weakness

Gave him my heart and strength with no measure

Then the romance felt good. Each second spent on a high note of excitement


************
    



Like the only marble left on the round, yet unable to realize

His name was the only one showing on my caller ID

Just like another woman I were to him

But being buried with my naivety of blind love incapable to acknowledge


 
************
    

So sad outrageously  sad, my heart genuinely desired him

But for him, simply nothing  it was just to kill time

flipped  his note book, mark down his agenda, point at his next prey

Another one next door, a weak character, or fantasized how his next lust would be


 
************   


His shallow heart and his incentive actions

Brought heart to fear, brought love to regress and hope to lowest point available

Trapped in his arms, as though I made acquaintance with  Dracula

Was concluded when my heart was drained out of blood and touch



 
    


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Patricia Etienne, 5 january 2012

*Oh it is Mystery*

No mountain shall be an obstacle to climb up

No river stream shall be too ferocious to swim across

Even when black smoke obscure the road

When winds blow with gravel dust

When the last cent spent

Not a drop out of possibility

Could be at  the last grasp of breath

It will manifest!

The written parchment of all human tasks

Disclose by our earthly missions

If it was meant, it would be

Whether it's a crown

A cushioned chair

Or a risen star

Fate!

The mystery to all!

**´¨) ¸.•´¸.•*´¨(**

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Patricia Etienne, 5 january 2012

~ No Cure~

They clap and clap till their hands grow tired

 Sing with high tone till their voices worn out

 For leaders of untruth words

 They cast their votes with the wish that change will be


 Once tasted the cushion chaise

 The rhythm of the drum alter to a cymbal tone

 The dance steps are followed together as one

 By far all promises climb up the tree

 

 Poor souls of this Island

 Have been waiting for a perpetual new ray of sun light

 All leaders voted as a motive for their voices

 Turn out to betray and shatter their hearts


 Cruel, hatred of unknown kindness

 Trample on the conscience of devoted electors

 Deliver false illusion

 To a nation that is moaning for hope

 

 To all are rip-off their fair rights

 The wrong and the bad  are at large

 What fair can be drawn out of madness?

 No cure for this island soul.

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Patricia Etienne, 30 december 2011

~*This Calf love*~


*********

Shall we not

Go on through everyday

Bickering

Yapping

For reasons

I've cometh to believe

That are untitled

*********

For I'm ceased

Not to conflict  I rest

Dickering

Brightening

Best way

To lay the cards

Full house of aces.

*********

Where I stand

In the flamingo flock

Fluttering

Tingling

My heart

Whisper but love

Please read between the lines.


*********


Why portray

Like a beast with no heart?

Puncturing

Frightening

A pity soul

Who looking for nothing but

A fragment of your attention.


*********

Why portray

The devil like you are?

Crumbling

Sinking

One's heart

Upon my pain

I wish but to rid of

This crazy love.


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Patricia Etienne, 30 december 2011

*~No mourns~*

Don't cry for me

When I'm no more

Rather...

Please

Be glorified

~*~~*~

Better off I'll be

From this strange life

Injustice...

From

Fallacious system

~*~~*~

This constant black shroud

Hold before my eyes

Barricade...

I

Remain motionless

~*~~*~

Expressions of my face

Are invisible by many

Strange...

Understood

By children

~*~~*~

Being on this battlefield

Far too long already

Striving...

Enormously

Losing faith

~*~~*~

When I'm no more

Faraway I will be

From...

This

Twisted Era

So

Very please

No sorrows

Preferably

Adieu


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Patricia Etienne, 30 december 2011

~I Bid You Adieu~

I'm eagerly awaiting this last wish

My eyelids flutter each time, sun light slope on earth

Asking when will that moment be?

To just uncover the repressed feelings

That seem to lessen my joy


But until I see you then for just one last

To explain your empty promises

To respond to all unanswered questions

To put to rest the unfinished business of our time spent

I shall continue to influence by this emotional feeling "leftover"


…Nonetheless

On second thought

I'm no more going to show excessive smiles to conceal my sadness

Crying on my pillow, I'm no more

…Or fantasizing


I'm to release the butterflies

…I'm to

Ache from no past feelings

To free my thoughts of all past ordeals

To paw on the ashes of my past burdens


…Yearning last wish

I'm dashing now

…This heavy energy is now resolved

Awaiting no more

I'm vulture bliss.

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Patricia Etienne, 28 december 2011

***Time***

We don't have time'
Time has us

Though I wish
Like
anyone else
To grab a hold of time
Just to mingle and dwell

Yet
the day passes so fast
That it's already tomorrow,
Still we beg and
plead for
Time to borrow

Still surprise on how the sun has gone'

Our shocked and amaze will never be done

Time is a comedian, first
fast then slow
Because on boring days the day will never go

So spend
time wisely if you must,
We don't have time'
Time has us


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Patricia Etienne, 26 december 2011

*Gone With Her *

 



Then:

          They bullied me,

Made me feel much smaller than what I really was,

Not knowing How to deal with pain I kept inside.

Woe is me

As I cried in grief

Staring at myself

Laying still

As I wish the minutes would be

But twos not


After:

          They made me feel low.

          Called me ugly

          And stepped on every ounce of confidence I had stored.

          Like thieving pirates searching for my sacred treasure,

          They found my self-esteem and took from me.

          The priest said a prayer and placed me to rest.

          My friends and family all shed their tears.


Now:

          I did it! I dealt with her.

Her blood falls on my hands,

But a problem she is to me no more.

They teased and bothered both her and me so much

That I came to a point where I killed myself

I have committed suicide.

The greatest act I have ever done.

I killed her low self-esteem,

Her below zero confidence

And her tradition of crying

But I live,

Proud of myself

And of who I am.

No longer obliged

To the comments they make of me

Or the opinions they have.

For I have committed suicide to her.


Note From author:

This piece of writing is dedicated to all of those who have survived
  bullies, who have been teased, who have accepted themselves for
who they are, and learned to get rid of their low self esteem.

So Please keep on fighting!


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Patricia Etienne

Patricia Etienne, 26 december 2011

~~When Depression Climbs up the Wall~~

~~1~~

Down and under

Below black skies

Heavy clouds follow

As though with legs

Clomping the air road

Striving to escape as always try

But…

Down and under

Rain water burns

~~2~~

Down and under

Where light is gloomed

Each step forward

Is found to go backward

Exhale a heavy cry

Who's there to hear

Only…

the voice echoing

The woods to sink down deeper

~~3~~

Down and under

Shoulders shrug down

Sleepy eyes unable to open

Within the four walls

Darkness is glorified

Light becomes the intimate enemy

Only…

Sweet   taste commands the stomach walls

Marriage is made with the fluffy blanket

~~4~~

Down and under

Does not rhyme with shine

Snow cascade from skies to heart

Unable to reason or to smile

Tearful eyes relieve pain

Feelings of worthless invade soul

Now…

Suicidal thoughts take over Grim's  weapon

Deep feet under makes the last move


Note from Author:

Depression is a serious disease. Allow yourself to see the symptoms and be proactive


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Patricia Etienne

Patricia Etienne, 26 december 2011

~~Am I a Conniver? ~~

For so I am a woman

All fingers are pointing at me

All eyes are fixating on me

All verdicts are going against me

For what reason ever be

Who has the right?

Who has the right to think that way?

My question is yet to answer

~~``~~

For so I am a woman

It's like a stigma

I am viewed like a rotten apple

A libertine, thinking by many

For what so ever reason

Who has the right?

Who has the right to feel that way?

My question is yet to answer.

~~``~~

Indeed I am a woman

I am perturbed,

Prosecuted,

laughed at,

Damaged,

Minimized,

Pushed aside,

I long carry the world's burdens on my back.

~~``~~

For all I know

I am a woman

From Eve

Pass down the curse

Begins far, so far back

In the ancient epoch

Time of B.C.

When the pleasing to the eyes fruit got bitten

Then sins take nascence

I come to be the conniver

~~``~~

Alright I am a woman

Through childbirth

I hollow

I agonize

I encounter,

Pain beyond the word imagination

I pay my penance

Am I still a conniver?

~~``~~

He the superior of all lawyers

He makes all the laws

And he who has the right

To give all the rights;

Has already given me,

My rights

I am a woman

I am at my own free will.

© 2011 by _Patricia Etienne

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