The Only One I Can Blame

I spent my entire life acknowledging all the lessons I learned; and all the bridges that I burned,
trying to keep a hold of all the wisdom I earned; but yet it turns out that I’m the one who forgot my own standards that I set for myself as a man,
 Somewhere along the way I lost direction and forgotten my plan.
I’m glad that I’m aware; so I can understand what I did,
 Because I never thought I’d lose focus and start neglecting my kids.
 Hiding behind tears and acting stupid plus I’m steady wasting the years; but yet it appears I have all kinds of people that I can blame,
 And now I stopped pointing fingers because I realize that I’m doing the same. 
Now I’m going insane…  Seems like the devil’s calling my name,
 I don’t want to be another one that avoids the issues and try to end the game,
 Because I don’t want the word quitter be attached to my name,
 So I need to toughen up and try and maintain…
I know when all the drama is over… I’m the only one I can blame.
                                       Alex Perez