I Need Some Space

I want to have an absolute life
with an adept mind
but like a dead fish I
abreast in the flood of
intelligence, depression, alienation,
'id' and 'super-ego'.
I lost myself to
a demon
who sucks my life
with the mask of an angel,
drags me to a state of
persecution.
I lost my
"ideal motherhood" and
"universal womanhood".
Atlast,
I want a no man's land
to get my freedom
but I can only afford
my soul's freedom