Lost love

Never met a girl and made a decision
I didn`t know thought it happened naturally
All I knew was to have a mutual feeling
Found it hard to give them up    
Never knew why love
all I knew was it has to be done
never put my foot down
I just wanted to do the right thing
Thought if my heart agreed
she was the right one
Oh! My nature why are you killing me
I can just love love love
for no reason
only when it end I knew

To her I made a choice and a decision
to love her forever,to swallow her even if she was bitter
to stand by her when the world crumble
and die together like a fused sperm and ova
   to smile,cry and jump with joy like hand and a leg
as young as I am my players play
I vowed to God and thanked Him for this wonderful child
I promised God to love her forever
I choked myself to the right thing
It was an opportunity though it cost
I made a decision to love her

Now it was  not about her beauty 
it was about love OH! LOVE WHY??
I learned to love my Havenly Father
and all those promises I made for her for us
I learned to respect God

but when she walks away 
and almost breaks me after we break up
If she wants to come back should I chase her
?