Why Can't I Let Go?

Will I ever let it go? 
Why can’t I just stop?! 
Stop comparing everyone to him!! 
 
 
Why can’t I just let go?? 
Why do I hold on to the memories? 
Why do I see his face in every guy I meet? 
 
Why can’t I just let go? 
 
 
This is my breakdown
My way of getting out of my head
My outlet of the world around me
 
Why can’t I just let go? 
 
 
I push it out of my mind.
But it just keeps coming back
to torment me at the worst time
 
Why can’t I just let go? 
 
 
I loathe him
with every fiber in my being
but when he comes around I cower in fear
 
why can’t I just let go? 
 
 
I know I can do it
I just have to push myself to do it
I have to push and push
Until there is nothing left inside
 
Why can’t I just let go? 
 
 
Can you help me? 
Can you save me from myself? 
Can you help me sleep at night? 
Can you help me let go?