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Wow it's been along time since I've been on here, alot has happen to me. I re-read one of the diary entree I wrote on here that was in 2013 I didn't have a job. But now I can say that I have a job. I've been at my job for a year now. Crazy looking back on this. I also got my license which I never thought I would get because I was scared to drive but I got it. too many good things has happen to me as well as bad things but I'm trying not to dwell on the bad things. because I know god has a bigger plans enstore for me.
Try not to dwell on the bad things because things do happen for a reason even if at the moment you cant see it.
I haven't been writing poetry in a long time which I'm going to try to start back. I do write almost everyday in a journal. But I miss writing poetry. So hopefully I can get my groove back.
I hope everybody out there on on here is doing great. I hope this year will be great for you and me.
The words I don't like you runs it's way though my brain down to my heart.Tears starts to fall because the words that were said hurt more then anything.I keep hearing these words to the point one might think I should be use to this but I'm not. When will the day come when the words I don't like you turn into I like you or even I love you.To not have a reason to not like me but you just don't like me.One wouldn't know what to say or know how to take that.But to expect you to be ok deep inside. Think about it, why would you be ok.My esteem once again has been attackEach day the more I think about it the more ugly I feelWhy was I cursed with this plague of ugliness what did I do to deserve this.The words I don't like you make me more ugly each time I hear it
I am struggling with life. I need a job, like I want to do something with my life. Why does life seem to be so hard. I can't seem to find what I need to survive in the present lifetime. Life sometimes trult sucks.
Has anybody ever felt like that nobody likes them. Like no matter what you do to get people to notice you, they just don't. Doesn't that make you feel crummy inside. It doesn't feel good at all. Music is a great tool to get your mind off of things, but it doesn't always cure the emptiness you feel inside. I just want to know that I'm not the only one who feels this way. I'm not that young either, so when people say thing like when you're in high school it doesn't matter because in college it will get better. It doesn't get that much better. Like it may get a little better but not that much. I don't know maybe I'm still not good enough. What do you do ?
