Poetry

i tryd so hard to push u away, i knew u would never understand. the memories the past where still at bay. i couldnt find the words to say, but this is never what i had planned.

 

u remind me in my dreams as i wake up to ur screams. and relize things may never change. its a crippling thought all the pain i brought and to know that ur heart was still range.

 

i die more each day every second ur away. but my mind lies to my heart. i wish i could describe to u everything i would say. but i wouldnt know where to or which way to start.

 

i thought things would get better, but they only got worse, im a wreck a disaster and i belong in a hurse. but still my heart beats, im a dead man walking in the empty streets. 

 

numb but yet i still feel fear a sense that i acquired over the year. im afraid u will never understand, im afraid u will never take me back , im writing this to u because a silver tounge is something that i do not lack. 

 

i am sorry for the lies ,i am sorry for pain. i feel like there are to sides of me. and the worste half i cannot contain. selfishness is his name, hes the one who lies for his own personal gain.

 

i want to controll it and thats y i had to let u go. but i still love u so much. i only wish that u would know.

 

-philip goode