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maryam muhammad, 17 may 2013
The wondering Mind
Between the lies I act surprised but really who am I,
to those who steer into my eyes are you my preacher
teacher or the ones sitting there waiting for me to
fall, whose role model am I; they look at me and
laugh because I'm working to acheive my lifes goals on my own, maybe this life
wasn't meant for me, whose wife was I destined
to be, it hurts not knowing if there will be someone
motivating me to succeed,
why isn't there anyone helping the weak, why is it
that I have to be the guide instead of someone
guiding me, could it be that life hates me, or is
he punishing me,
I don’t know, why don’t you all tell me, I’m just
wondering about those many questions we have in life.
maryam muhammad, 3 may 2013
A Love that beats the Odds
Let’s play a game called love Stay here by the ocean enjoying the warmth of the sun,
Just have fun cherish this moment,
Look into each other’s eyes smile as the water rush against our semi bare skin,
Put our phones on silent or we can just turn them off,
It’s our time to cuddle push our troubles to the side while we lay in the sand,
I want you to play in my hair while I lay on your arm,
We whisper in each other’s ear the many things we like to hear,
Let us work on our many pleasures while we enjoy this peaceful day together,
Jump in the smallest part of the ocean splashing water at each other,
Chase me down the boardwalk forgetting about everyone around us,
Just have fun bask in the sun love is so beautiful when you have someone special to share it with,
Let’s kiss after you catch me sense im not as fast as you when it comes to running,
Let’s rest on a bench taking in the fresh air,
I’ll use my towel to dry you off even though my need to keep you clean irritates you,
I smile at the face you make while I whip the sand off of your face,
Of course you feel the need to correct me when you see the need,
We may have our flaws but this is the kind of love that beats the odds,
No one cares whose looking in waiting to give their opinion,
The only thing that matters here is you, and me
“THE END”
maryam muhammad, 2 may 2013
The Acquaintance
Hi how are you? We wave then walk away,
Going about our way doing different things to satisfy ourselves during the day,
This is the first time we’ve meet I don’t know you so we are not friends,
You haven’t thought about me once through the week then you want to come around making up stores, making fun of me thinking I would find it some-what funny,
On top of that you only come around when you see I have some type of food or money,
To be honest I’m kind of tired of it you don’t want to hang out or chill
You rather make sarcastic comments to other people about how I do things,
Not to mention the sly comments about what I believe in doing or not doing,
I don’t trust to many people because they will disappoint you prior experiences has taught me that,
Yet again you still walk by saying hi and expect me to respond every time,
If I for some odd reason choose not to even if it’s not on purpose you get upset,
This also drives you to go to different people with your assumption as to why I didn’t say hay to you,
A friend is there through thick and thin and that type of relationship doesn’t grow over night it takes time, effort, and patience,
Just like a marriage its 50-50 you both give as well as receive,
Being there for one another, helping each other, respecting each other’s beliefs even if you don’t agree, standing by each other’s side when someone else tries to harm you or them that’s my idea of a true friend,
With the many things you’ve done to push me away in the short amount of time that I’ve known you I wouldn’t call you a friend,
But it’s nice to meet your acquaintance.
maryam muhammad, 22 april 2013
Poisoned by hosing
the air is full of deceit the mystery of lies hidden beneath
up above people are hooked on the mist of such poisonous hosing
that exist
shaken and sick the poison is thick gasping for air which is now limited
gas mask is missing no were in sight
struggling to crawl my way to safety I start to cry
the exit is finally near
reached the door and opened it what a surprise I got pushed back into
the poisonous air "NO" what'd I do to be hated
deceived and used like this;
Trying to stay awake I search for a lightened area
"Yes" finally splash of fresh air
All of a sudden there's a noise I jump whose there
someone grabbed my foot Leave me be another took my arm set me free
still one more from the mist so dark that even I couldn't resist
I shake my head I can't be drawn in
Yelling Someone Please Help me!!! I wiggled around to break free from restraint
one side released
I start wiggling even harder to set the other side free. Their grip on my arms and legs are becoming unbearable they call on others to jump in and grab me.
NO!! I scream fighting them off of me. I fall to the floor hurrying my way to a hiding space while they chase after me.
Yes I whisper I've finally got away sitting in a closed area trying to breathe low enough so they can't hear me. Contemplating my next move I prayed the God would guide me to a place where I would be safe.
maryam muhammad, 22 april 2013
Friendship
I hear this word on a daily basis
What is the true meaning of it?
Is it the appearance of people who are willingly able to stand by your side, or is it the comforting nature of a person who’s looking for you to smile?
Can the true meaning be both of these definitions combined?
Or does the meaning come attached with the person who’s around?
This is a question that I've been pondering about.
There are so many definitions to the word friendship
I am looking for the true meaning of this word
It can’t be found in a dictionary which is updated every so often to fit a scholar’s perception.
The true meaning is deep rooted within the soul, and only you can know the true definition of friendship
maryam muhammad, 22 april 2013
The Toy
The obvious reason that most men aren’t interested in her intellectually is why she feels so uneasy,
She’s not the one to dress provocative nor does she want to throw herself at them,
She’s more interested in learning new things the library is her best friend,
The one thing she wants the most is a man as her friend, but most of them are only interested in having intercourse instead,
She feels like a toy a Barbie doll being grabbed from the shelf,
She has no movement her body being maneuvered repositioned and played with until they get bored or tired,
They look at her as an emotionless device, easy to control yet she’s not the one giving up herself so freely,
She is constantly repeating herself to them with the statement “No! I’m not that type of female.”
Some respect her and leave and others try to take the control a step farther by using mental games,
She tries to confide in others for emotional support, but they look at her awkwardly and state, “your issue is not my problem” what else is there to do besides write out her emotions and stay to herself
maryam muhammad, 22 april 2013
Nature’s conversation
The sun wakes up to begin the morning,
As he starts to rise from the atmosphere he Thinks about the schedule that’s been prepared for today,
He has a conversation with the clouds about what to expect,
The Trees butt in shaking its branches to what the clouds have to say,
The leaves run away, the sand being noisy waits to listen, but the water moves along ignoring the conversation
Instead the water relaxes singing a silent song in order to generate peace for the earths’ creatures.
maryam muhammad, 22 february 2013
The Time Past
She sat back and thought about the things she went through,
All the while time has already flown by,
Unsure about the next move she tried her hardest to keep it going,
Crying helps only for that moment she is emotionally on her own,
Her friends help when she’s on the Verge of drowning,
She gets up in the morning thinking of a different move so that she wouldn't get the same results that kept her in this circle,
She works hard at finding a life of responsibility only to gain nothing,
You’re smart with a lot of potential her mother told her,
“Never doubt that you will succeed just be grateful and you'll get there;” was on a birthday card that she received,
Scared of what’s next she’s ready for the war, war of love, war of success, and the war of emotional freedom,
Not that she has any choice but to be. She moving gradually and changing slowly but surely
maryam muhammad, 21 february 2013
Innocence
in my world there's always love I like watching mommy put on her makeup,
I ask mommy about the red stuff on her face she smiles and tells me that it's something called lipstick whatever that is.
after playing dress up I hear daddy call for me "come on sally give me a hug before I leave" I Jump in his arms to give him a hug as I pull away I ask daddy "why are you dressed like that" as he stands he smiles and says this is what I wear to work.
Would I have to wear that when I grow up, I replied. He laughs and tells me "No baby you are a girl only little boys would have to wear this when they grow up"
as I wonder about what I would have to wear, daddy tells me to have a good day, and then he says by to mommy.
she walks out with that red stuff on her face, and said "by honey" that confused me, because daddy doesn't look like honey
as she strapped me in my car seat I asked mommy why she called daddy honey; she paused for a minute then told me don't worry about it baby
when we got to my school she walked me to class and said goodbye behave
my days are spent learning my ABC's and playing with my classmates on the playground at recess,
sweet, pure, and clean spinning around in the sand smiling so carefree. I'm dizzy from all of that twirling
no worries at all I'm young, and having too much fun.
maryam muhammad, 20 february 2013
God over any squad
The love of god is greater than anything physical, or material,
His love runs deep embedded like rhinestones in your soul,
If you believe that he is the one and only spiritual person that keeps you afloat, or free from difficulties,
Then you would be willing to put him before any squad that makes you sacrifice your own spiritual enlightenment and emotional health in order to make the squad leader satisfied,
I refused to be like the walking dead a zombie going about my everyday life unaware of how much today’s economy has put on my mental state,
God come first in my eyes he makes my spirit free from the stresses of today’s society
No squad can do that for me they may offer me temporary security, but no one can secure my safety better than god can,
Squads turn against each other; god never turns his back on those who trust in him,
simple things can make a squad want to hurt you, God knows that you are only human and will allow you to make mistake in order to learn,
maryam muhammad, 20 february 2013
The Underrated
So underrated it can be irritating at times, but when I think about it those are the ones in the spot light. No one can appreciate good talent if their minds aren't open for it. Speaking the truth for some is overrated so they deny the facts to keep from hurting because they are used to hearing, reading, and watching things that talk about nothing. What will you know if you retain information that gets you nowhere, and what will you gain if you aren't open to receive positive information. learning is an everyday process it will not stop after college, paying attention to the things that matter will help you grow as a human, but will also give you the knowledge you need to help you get through your everyday life's lessons
maryam muhammad, 20 february 2013
The historical Figure
The grace that he portrays while finding his way in this world is honorable,
The many things he creates to make a living is his determination to live and succeed,
He is what holds his family up; he is the strength, the provider, and the protector of his loved ones, and the one uplifting his community,
To me he is an historical figure someone that lives beyond material gain, and loves to give in order to see others happy,
His honesty brings respect and love to his people,
He is the first to jump up and stand up for the rights of those who can’t,
He brings relevant facts and evidence to the table to prove his point to those who cover up false truths,
He is not afraid to learn what he doesn’t know,
He acknowledges those who’s willing to pick up a book to learn for centuries to come,
He is always looking for ways to help better his community,
He encourages others to jump in and help a historical figure is what he is,
His actions, commitment, and devotion to providing a safe, and healthy life for everyone is quite evident,
maryam muhammad, 15 february 2013
In Love
How I wish I could fill the sun every time I wake up,
And the brush of his skin when I walk by,
It would be nice not having to worry about being lonely or waiting for the right man to hold me through the day and night,
Oh how I long for the fill of his heart beat when we hug and to see his smile in the morning after waking up,
He makes me feel so special with those constant I love you bear hugs,
I guess I’m in love well I would be if I wasn’t in love with the thought of being in love.
maryam muhammad, 18 january 2013
A Writers Block
My mind is blank I can’t think,
I’ll start scribbling words on a piece of paper to come up with something,
Asking other peoples opinion about different writing topics but they’re no help when it comes to that subject,
Tearing out sheets of paper because I’m not satisfied with the outcome,
What will I do now?
I guess I’ll start looking around different areas of the neighborhood for some type of inspiration,
Nothing much there my mind is still clear,
Next I’ll just start talking to people about their challenges Yes a little something,
Little bulb, “I know what to do!”
Write about not writing at all I must be bored,
Where did that Idea come from,
maryam muhammad, 18 january 2013
Gossip
She makes unnecessary comments; he adds his two sense to it
She mixes up the words of the other person,
He gives more excitement to the first statement that was originally mentioned to her
They must be tedious
Isn’t there anything else to do besides gossip?
I guess not Lets’ bring in others so that they too can have something to say about her,
It fun , but wait I figure it wouldn’t be if you were the one they were all making fun of,
maryam muhammad, 16 january 2013
A mother’s letter
To my unborn child you are the light that shines within me,
Thank god for giving you to me,
My spirit smiles when I think about seeing your little face,
I can’t wait until you enter the world,
I’ve prepared for your entrance,
There is so much I want to teach you,
You are a gem worthy to be loved, and cared for,
Your father strives every day to obtain the things you need while I'm home nesting awaiting your arrival,
You have a lot of family waiting to meet you,
Everyone is home waiting by the phone ready to drive to the hospital when they receive that call letting them know that you are on the way,
I am sure the world is ready to see what you have in store for them,
Love, Mommy
maryam muhammad, 11 january 2013
Think/Feel
To live life unaware of time and its actions is hard so
As I sit here on this stair way watching cars go by and people giving me awkward stares I think about the time when I was one of them,
Judging a homeless person saying it’s his fault he’s in that predicament, and how he shouldn’t have done what he did.
Then my heart drops I start to feel a headache coming thinking of how I was then and if I’ve changed sense,
Still sitting here I’ve wondered about my out of control habits, and destructive ways I start to feel like my chances are being numbered,
Then I think about my mother and how it would hurt her to see her baby on the streets,
my heart starts getting heavy thinking of her voice and having enough food to eat,
I wondered if I should’ve stayed with her instead of this person who I thought was a friend,
I began to cry holding my hands over my eyes while these people stroll right on by,
I thought about the time when my friend and I went for a walk they decided to kick this homeless person in the chin,
I wondered could this be my punishment for not stopping them,
I’ve gained just enough strength to get up after this little girl did the same,
then I started to think life sure has a way of making you pay for the decisions you’ve made,
I then started to smile realizing that I gave up half of my life for judging a homeless person and how he might have not known that he would be in that position,
I began to pray and think him for opening my eyes because he helped me realize that just because someone’s homeless doesn’t mean it’s on purpose,
This man decided to approach me as I sat on the bench near the highway,
He asked if he could have a set then he said, "you look so familiar to me",
I asked who he was; he said, "I was waiting for an opportunity to tell you how you’ve helped me by not stopping that person who kicked me in my chin way back when you all were walking,"
How could you’ve remember that far back I only remember parts of that,
He said, "I think about it every day know I get a chance to say I forgive you and them,
I’m now married with 3 kids and a job I’m able to keep; I’m happy"
I started feeling embarrassed all I could do is sit there holding back another batch of tears while i apologized,
He said, "don’t you can’t change what happened,"
As he walked away he said, "Just remember one thing just because you’re homeless doesn’t mean that your hopeless get up and start again your life is still going."
maryam muhammad, 11 january 2013
The Right to Write
I have the right to write and express what's in my heart,
Writing about love and things that may tear me apart,
ongoing situations, and love that pops up on occasions,
writing about the things observed from outside influences,
to me its medication for the heart,
writing frees the emotions within, and helps me let go of horrible trials,
reminiscing about the many triumphs that's been achieved by me or somebody else
no one can say what’s right or wrong about the way I express myself
that gives me the freedom I so crave,
I enjoy writing even when the time to do it is limited, because I know that I can always comeback to it,
Writing is freedom of expression, and no one can take the right from me,
I will continue to write until my heart is set free from the locks and chains of today’s emotional strains
Because it is my Right to Write
maryam muhammad, 11 january 2013
U.G.L.Y
U-is for the unbelievable things people say to get their way
G-is for those many young girls looking to someone for inspiration in helping them to heal and grow
L- Is for The many lovely things in life that can be fun to do to keep your mind off of being stressed
Y- Is for being yourself, and not looking for anyone to define you
If being ugly is not the most desirable thing in the world I don’t mind it
I am me Unique, Giving, Lovely, and most importantly I’m young, and growing
to inspire others to love, live, and fell free to be ordinary
maryam muhammad, 26 december 2012
Stand up
stand up for what you believe in,
don't take discrimination, hatred, or miss-treatment from any individual groups for income,
I will stand because my dignity is worth more than money,
my sanity is worth more than what any job could offer me,
Stand Up and be strong even if you are standing alone,
Stand Up because someone is looking for you to guide them through their trials and tribulations,
Don't be afraid to stand up, Don't let anyone intimidate you from getting the respect you so deserve,
they may alienate you, talk down to you, or even degrade you, but god is with you to make sure no harm is done,
As long as you know who you are that's all that should matter,
stand up and smile because this trial is only temporary,
Stand Up for Life, Love, and your individual beliefs
STAND UP because You are Worth More Than money
maryam muhammad, 26 december 2012
Beauties Disguises
beauty is just a disguise to hide the soul inside,
whether pretty or drained out,
you'll never know how beautiful some one really is
unless they open there hearts and let you in,
looks is not what beauty is all about,
only love can declare whats beautiful,
the soul of a human being with a spirit that smiles,
someone who doesnt show hate and gives to others with a love so strong,
That is beauty all in its own.
maryam muhammad, 26 december 2012
Inspiration
You inspire me to be a Queen to live healthy and clean, you make me realize that I’m a rare prize, you help me get rid of those who can’t handle me, you are my inspiration, you believe that I can rise higher to make life a little nicer, I push hard because you believe in me, my child my baby, you inspire me, I am grateful to be called your mommy, watching you grow has been a treasure all in its own, even holding you when it’s cold makes me want to strive for gold, You are my inspiration and I will never let you go.
maryam muhammad, 26 december 2012
I Will
I will be the person I want to be despite what others choose to see.
I will have self-confidence and high self-esteem regardless of what they say about me.
I will create my own identity I will not let anyone create one for me
I will push myself to succeed to be the best I can be without letting negativity drawn me
I will be positive and block out the doubts thrown at me
I will be a positive role model for people and children I see on a daily
I will be strong despite my past, and current challenges.
I will be honest to those who matter most to me
I will do what’s right to gain a good self-image
I will admit my faults I know this is all a part of growing up.
I will see the difference between constructive and negative criticism
these are just some of the things I will do to help me grow as a human being but most of all
I will pray and think god for my life, the good people I have and will have in my future, and the necessities surrounding me.
Latest comments:
12 may 2024
Melancthe
Kajzerki są przereklamowane ;)
11 may 2024
kb
wielki wypas - był albo może będzie. kto wie...
11 may 2024
sama prawda z tym myśleniem i psoceniem ale
11 may 2024
zastanowiło mnie czy owe cenienie kajzerek wynika
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jeśli tylko
skomponowane kolorystycznie..
11 may 2024
violetta
To co te kozy dziobią i dlaczego? Co na to aktywiści?
10 may 2024
Jaga
Podobne miałam odczucia, kiedy zobaczyłam wyspę.
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Weronika
Nie wyrzucaj. Niech to będzie memento dla naszej
10 may 2024
W tym sęk, że tam gdzie one się pasą nie
10 may 2024
Wyjadają ostatnie źdźbła:)
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I pomyśleć, że w rzeczy samej podobno Bóg
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To prawda, jest częścią natury :) Dziękuję
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