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Caroline S. P. Keller, 1 november 2011

How does it feel?

How does it feel?
To be hit and punched
To be thrown on the ground
Not being able to make a sound

How does it feel?
To be hurt and pained
To have your feelings crushed
And flushed down the drain

How does it feel?
To be ignored and left behind
Trying to catch up to you
Leaving me with nothing else to do

How does it feel?
To love someone you should hate
Thinking how did it happen?
That it had to be fate

How does it feel?

To be completely lost
You can’t even think
And you head starts to spin

How does it feel?
Being repeatedly used
Loving them so much
That you are willingly abused

Tell me how does it feel?
To have lost everything
Was it worth it?
Was it really worth getting?

Tell me how does it feel?
Because I’ve gone through the same
Do you even remember?
Putting me in the fire and the flames

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Caroline S. P. Keller, 1 november 2011

Memories

I see your face
Down the hall
Hanging up
Pinned on a wall

It is silent
But I can hear your voice
Persuading me to come closure
Leaving me without a choice

Memories filled my mind
Memories of you
I can feel the tears
I remember them too

The memories of your face
The memories of your touch
The memories of your voice
Oh how I missed them so much

I can hear the pouring of the rain
Going down down down
I shout my heart out
But make no audible sound

My eyes are shut
But my mind is wide open
My soul cries out
And my heart is broken

Everywhere I look
I can see another memory
Here there everywhere
And they always seem to haunt me

I try to run away
Trying to turn my focus around
Crashing into walls
That won’t break down

The memories
The dreams
Will never go away
It seems

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Caroline S. P. Keller, 1 november 2011

Stand Tall

Today was not a very good day
At least that’s what I say
It seems like I’ve been pushed and shoved all around
To the point my spirits have been completely trampled to the ground
There’s been yelling, there’s been screaming
I can’t stop my eyes from gleaming
I’ve been hurt and I’ve been given pain
Now my heart is starting to go insane
They yell at me as I sit silently there
Making me wish I wasn’t even here
They spew out useless rage
Making me feel like I’m trapped inside a cage
They don’t seem to care
That what they’re doing to me isn’t fair
I never have a say
And I’m the only one who has to pay

There’s nowhere I feel safe
And I’m starting to lose faith
I want to stand up to the people who are supposed to care
But I’m scared that I might lose them
And that’s something I just couldn’t bare
But then again I don’t want to live like this
I want to go back to the good old days that I now really miss

Where I used to laugh and play
Freely and carelessly every single day
But now look at me
And tell me what you see
You can only see tears and bruises on my face
Because I’ve obviously been put in my place
I remember when my life wasn’t as bad
And when I was never even sad
I’m strong I know it
Because I can take the hit
But when I go to school it’s all the same
But I guess it’s me that I should blame
I must be doing something wrong
For this has been going on for so long
I try to run away from all of it as fast as I can
But maybe that’s what I’m doing wrong
Maybe all I need to do is stand
Stand tall
From it all
And not run away from it
But to conquer all of it
It’s my choice I see
To tell me who I’m supposed to be
How come I’ve never noticed it before?
Did I just completely let it go out the door?
I know what I need to do now
The only question I have is how?
Do I just tell them they don’t control me anymore?
That they just can’t toss my feelings off to the side and onto the floor
Yes, now I know what to say
That they can’t mold me into what they want
Like I’m some piece of clay
Because I’m done trying to build a wall
And I’m final ready to stand tall

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Caroline S. P. Keller, 31 october 2011

What a Failure You Are!

What a failure you are!
You can't do anything right
I mean you're a smart girl
But you aren't looking so bright

It doesn't matter how hard you study
Cause you'll still get an "F"
Stop trying to escape the world with your loud music
Cause you'll only go deaf

Are you proud of yourself?
Are you proud that you're dumb?
When will you ever listen to your parents?
And stop being such a lazy bum

What a failure you are
You can't do anything right
You're supposed to be a smart girl
And you're supposed to be bright

Look at everyone around you
They are all so smart
While you're left behind
With a familiar pain in your heart

The never ending pain
Of not being good enough
The pain that is deep inside
That's forcing you to act tough

The pain of pure disappointment
Hitting you from every side
The pain that makes you scared
And want to run and hide

You want to know something
You wouldn't have all this pain
If you actually did thing right
Instead of acting so insane

But right now you're a failure
Who is lost and confused
Who doesn't know what to do
And is always being accused

Accused everyday
Not knowing what you do
No one believes a word you say
No one believes in you

You're different
And misunderstood
Wanting people to see that
If only they could

You're walking alone
Getting yourself lost
Didn't think you needed anybody's help
Not knowing the cost

And when you need help the most
Nobody is there
Making you even more confused
Thinking no one even cares

You're usually wrong
And can't make a choice
Letting people talk for you
Instead of using your own voice

You have a low self-esteem
But think that you don't
You have a terrible memory
Wanting to remember but you won't

You argue with your mother
Even though you know she'll win
Because you really didn't think
Standing up for yourself was such a sin

What a failure you are
You're not doing anything right
You were supposed to be smart
You were supposed to be bright

How naive can you be?
If you thought people would always be nice
What kind of friends are you expecting?
Cause you might want to think twice

You might love them
And not be loved back
But it's not because
There's something you lack

They might even hurt you
And completely tear you apart
Using you the whole time
While slowly ripping out your heart

Telling you things
That you want to hear
But in the very end
Leaving you with a bunch of tears

See life isn't as easy
As you had thought
And you think you can handle it alone
When it's obvious you cannot

What a failure you were
You couldn't do anything right
But now I'm proud to say
You've grown from the fight

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Caroline S. P. Keller, 31 october 2011

Time's All We Got

Hold me tight
Kiss me wildly
I love you…
So much baby

Those words haunt me
As time goes by
I won’t tell myself the truth
Thinking it’s unfair to you

The truth that we’ve lost the spark
That we used to always have
It was great for a while
But then ended up dead

You say you love me
And I say it right back
But you’re actually meaning it
While I’m trying so hard to

Stop using the words “forever”
Cause it scares me to death
You’re freaking me out
And taking away my breath

Slow down boy
There is no rush
You can’t rush love
Or it will turn to dust

Slow down boy
That’s what I said
But will you listen?
Now that’s the real test

I might love you
But then again I might not
Give me time to think
Cause time’s all we got

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Caroline S. P. Keller, 31 october 2011

Lend Me Your Ears

I cry myself to sleep
As I can hardly breathe
Telling myself I’m alone
For the millionth time

It shouldn’t be right
The thoughts that I have
But it seems better
Then telling myself a regrettable lie

I’m learning slowly
How to keep my mouth shut
With all the important things
Always left unsaid

Well maybe not so important
When it’s coming from me
Just a girl, just another child
What more can there be to me?

What’s so important?
That I’ve got to say
That would want to make people listen
Instead of shrugging me away

Is it attention I’m seeking?
No, that can’t be right
Maybe just a pair of ears
To hear me out for tonight

A shoulder to cry on
A strong hand to hold
A sweet and gentle whisper
Telling me that I’m wrong

Telling me I’m not alone
And that my feelings do matter
No matter how useless they seem
No matter how stupid they sound

For I’m as important
As anybody else
Well…aren’t I?
Can I at least believe in that much?

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