Poetry

Maybe I don't feel anything for him
Maybe I am not longer in love
But when I see him in his shiny black shirt
I can not not to die for him.

Maybe I am ok with having no feelings
Maybe I am ok with being as cold ice
But when I see him with her
I can not not to be jealous.

Maybe I know that we weren't meant to be
Maybe I know that he loves her
But when I think about love
I can not not to think about him.

Maybe I understand that we will never be together again
Maybe I understand that he is not the right one for me
But when I imagine my future
I can not not to imagine him.

Maybe I realize that if I keep going this way I will ruin my life
Maybe I realize that I must keep going with my life
But I can not not to suffer for him
I can not live without him.

But I don't understand how should I keep going with my life
I don't realize how could I not to love you
I am not ok with loosing you.

And you, are you ok with loosing me?