Prose

Sometimes i think that maybe i can shield myself from everything that
maybe with a big enough shield, i can hide behind it from all the GARBAGE and REFUSE that the world threw at me. I never learned anything else. But one day i realized that this shield, this shield that had protected me for about ten years was only the size of a quarter. And i was a little GIRL. So i thought maybe if i threw the quarter away and i started all over again and took a shower and got clean again, it wouldnt be so bad. It didnt work. I was still dirty, and i still smelled like the world's garbage again, so i went back and again, i got clean. And the garbage kept coming. And coming. And coming. And i thought " Am I the only one that this happens to?" At that moment i looked over and i saw another little girl, cowering in a corner like I was and she had a NICKEL held out in front of her.
Her shield was even smaller than mine and still she stood behind it. So i thought " I'm already dirty, and well maybe i can help." So i stood in front of her and sat down and i took all the garbage thrown at her and even though i couldnt shield everything, i thought that by standing in front of her garbage, maybe it wouldnt hit her. And all this time i never once looked behind me and i never once ASKED her if this was what she wanted. So i finally looked back and she stared back at me and she burst into tears and her HEART cried " i'm a MESS" so i thought, I know! We'll get clean!! So i dragged her along and we got clean, and she looked at her nickel then looked at me and said "thanks." and walked away. But wait! I'm helping you!! Come back!! She looked back and smiled then said " your garbage is piling" then walked away. So i chased after her and i pleaded with her " Help me. I helped you!"
"Fine"
And we went back to my pile, my garbage. and there was no one throwing garbage at me anymore so i started cleaning up and i looked over at the girl and she was just sitting there. Watching. Staring at her building pile. But really i didnt care. I just didnt want to be alone with all that garbage. So i worked and she watched and not soon a piece of garbage hit me in the face. And i looked at the girl and she looked at me and she moved and i thought she was going to THROW herself in front of me as i did with her, but she doubled over and started LAUGHING and then she picked up a piece of garbage and THREW it at me and then another and another and then handfulls. And i picked up my quarter and hid in my corner and my HEART wailed " WHY?! i THREW myself in front if your garbage!" and her LIPS said " i never asked you to"
but her HEART said " because it HURTS less"