Schizophrenic with child

Help to search with wisdom, before I decide
Not selfishly lost thought committing, Filicide?

Vindictive, delusional, raging madness, insane
Distorted demon voices be our shared shame

Save me from decaying, imminent gloom
Mercifully relieve me, from mine known doom

 Abort me from your embryonic fluid tomb
Mommy please don't delay, Please do it soon

Help me to search with wisdom, before I decide
Not selfishly lost thought committing, Filicide?

A degree of greatness, gift heaven sent
Happy well adjusted, very merrily content

I Could be your princess, you always wanted one
Would cherish and love all rolled into fun

My eyes as yours blue, light bright as the sun
Mommy please don't end this, before we've begun.