Holiday spirit

As i sit here and look around the room i feel no holiday spirit.
No Christmas tree, candycanes, or presents.
Nothing but darknes, lonelyness and anger.
Yelling, fighting, and crying.
Things being thrown across the room.
Hearin glass breaking, big booms, and crying.

But as i look out the window next door i see smiling face, a big christmas tree in the window, colorfull lights hanging from the roof. Kids runing around an laughing and playing. 

I sit here and think why cant our family be like that again...