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Karen Degnan Foiles, 6 november 2011
A Prayer for America
I said prayer for you today
I hope you didn't mind
I asked God to comfort you
And put you tears behind
I prayed for peace and mercy too
To help you through these days
And for his loving guidance.
As he leads you on your way
You need not walk this path alone
Just turn around you’ll see
You have families and friends
To help make your pain ease
I prayed for miracles
And hope and happiness
And also asked to bless you...
When you are so stressed
I said prayer for you today
I hope you didn't mind
I just wanted to make sure
As I knelt down to pray
Please god, bless us America
@ Karen Foiles
Karen Degnan Foiles, 7 november 2011
A Storm is Brewing
A storm is brewing
I can feel it in the air
A storm is brewing
And it’s filled with despair
A storm is brewing
I can feel it in my bones
A storm is brewing,
And I’m all alone
Something is coming
I hear the big drops
Something is coming
And I can’t stop it
The storm is near
This is clear
The storm is near
I’m filled with fear
The wind screams a cry
Chills run down my spine
The wind howls like pain
I try to escape the rain
2 days after I wrote this, my husband told me he did not love me anymore and wanted a divorce.
@ Karen Foiles
Karen Degnan Foiles, 7 november 2011
Better Off
I’ve been doing some thinking
About this new life path I’ll be taking
It’ll be really scary not to have you by my side
When I’ve counted on you for so many things
I’m strong in spirit and will not give up and quit
I believe in my heart, that is just what you did you quit
I grew up in a house of love and hope
You grew up with common sense and dope
I am the dreamer, my eyes wide shut
You’re the controller, eyes on the buck
Our love was more than a whim
Yet we threw caution to the wind
We found the fantasy mirage
And thought we could beat the odds
Oh how we struggled just to be together
I guess you were tired of trying to love another
I never gave up on love, but I gave on you
I guess that why I did, what I did to you
You’ve done me a favor
My future I’ll savor
Because “Better off” I’ll be
To finally live my life
For “I” and not “We”
@ Karen Foiles
Karen Degnan Foiles, 20 november 2011
Please Do Leave Me So...
Please don't leave me without
I'm in this lost condition
I can't bear to be without
I give you total submission
Let me feel your fire
Igniting my every desire
Let me feel you hand
Up against my breasts
I want your soft kisses
Down my neck and back
Oh, how I'm missing that
Your wet mouth is what I lack
How I hunger for you back
Let me have your manliness
And let me give you all of me
We can be one feeling free
With our body's friction
I feel weak to ponder
The heat you squander
A tremble that is growing
My mind unknowing
If you leave as I slumber
My body can only lumber
And wait till you return
So please don't go, I beg and plead so
What ends do I have to go?
To make you want me so…
@Karen Foiles
Karen Degnan Foiles, 7 november 2011
A Second Chance
Your love for me has spared me
You gave me a second chance
My love for you was always strong
But I'm ashamed of how I yearned
A second chance to cherish you
When you were so ignored
A second chance to make things right
A bright new day, a new life
We fight for our love
We fight for our souls
We fight for a second chance
@Karen Foiles
Karen Degnan Foiles, 19 february 2013
Runaway
Runaway into the night
Runaway without a fight
Have you slept at all tonight?
Have you thought about your future?
This is not something you can suture
This is such a hard way to mature
Do you have shoes on your feet?
Do you have enough to eat?
Are your plans set in concrete?
You think that this will solve
The problems you can't resolve
Are now problems that will compound?
It's not too late, but the clock ticks
Come back and face the music
Come back and share your feeling
Things aren't always what they seem
Come back, and let out a scream
Share your pain, and let your healing begin
Let the hope of love get under your skin
And bring you back home again
Karen Degnan Foiles, 3 april 2013
That Moment
I knew I just met you
But I’ve known you all my life
That moment I first hugged you
I had felt a spark
That moment I first kissed you
I had no doubts
That moment we held hands
I understood God’s plan
Karen Degnan Foiles, 19 february 2013
Hidden Talents
Many times you've heard them say
"You never know until you try it"
Who cares if it's less that perfect
Your reason to try, can be many things
Boredom, a dare, a bad dream
A time in your life for growing
So you sit down and write
And to much to your delight
Who knew you'd have a new talent
They've been inside your head
You can wait to see
Just what all these words mean
They have a life of their own
A story evolves, the words unknown
You can't wait to get to the end
When it's time close and the story is done
You take the time to sit and ponder
My goodness was this me
I can't believe that
I made this masterpiece!
Karen Degnan Foiles, 22 january 2013
Guilt
Guilt is not your friend,
But is it…it depends
Guilt, the stink of sludge
And the color of mud
Guilt, the reminder of the past
Of harm and pain surpassed
Guilt, is the devil in disguise
Waiting for your soul to die
Guilt, is slime with all beauty aside
Covering your beaten hide
Guilt, keeps you in check
When you want to say what the heck…
Guilt, when you feel you should
But it is something understood
Guilt, partners with regret
Consequence’s with debt
Guilt, is like a death
It reminds you of the your dread
It hisses from the lips of those who are pure
It turns their gentle heart insecure
Guilt, it makes the stomach turn
When things are about to turn
Guilt is not your friend,
But is it…it depends
Karen Degnan Foiles, 20 november 2011
To My Music, My True Love
I miss the pleasure you gave me
I miss the goose bumps
I miss how intoxicating you can be
I miss how my heart jumps
I miss the rush of your fire
I miss how you took me away
I miss how the people would admire
I miss the power play
Did I lose you, where did you go?
You were my one true love
That one thing I could always do right
But you went away my love
Please find me again, I so long for you
No one see's what you mean to me
I say you mean the world to me
But their world seems is all they see
You're in the pit of my heart
And in the depths of my soul
When I close my eyes and let out one note
My feet lift up and away I float
I'm scared to find you
All alone like before
I have a good love at home
So I don't want to explore
Please try and find me
Help me find a way to sing
But not just in the car
Help me to be free again
@ Karen Foiles
Karen Degnan Foiles, 22 january 2013
Martin Luther King Jr.
When I was little, I wanted to be
A speaker against prejudice and hating
My dad told me of a man of ground breaking
He spoke of equality for you and me
This man would bring people together
Of every creed and color
He tried to teach us live with each other
Side by side with toleration as brothers
He did not expect us to live in bliss
But with respect and without malice
He had a dream so strong and true
He had a dream for me and you
His life was short and not so perfect
He was simple man, a born sinner
A master of words, a deal spinner
But he was a model, a man to respect
His life was cut too short one day
By a man filled with fear and hate
If they were both alive here today
He would wipe the slate clean and pray
The good in his heart
Has lived on today
It shows when we show
Respect for each other
We hear of Equality, Peace, and Love
These can be all be linked
To that man who had a dream
To let freedom ring
His dream lives on today
Karen Degnan Foiles, 22 january 2013
Last Night I Dreamed Of You
I dreamed of your eyes
you looking at me
I dreamed of your smile
You said I was pretty
You cupping my cheek
Touching me gently
Tilting your head
Leaning in to kiss me
I was smiling in my sleep
My heart was warmed
I was helpless and weak
And then I awoke
Feeling empty and depleted
So sad I was with sleep in my eyes
Tears that followed
I pounded my fists with despise
It was bittersweet, my love
Cause you were “my” true love
But I am not yours
Karen Degnan Foiles, 23 february 2013
A Birthday With No Presents
I don’t care how much is spent
When it’s my birthday
I like to open presents
It could have been anything
A silly little poem
wrapped with a bow
I bought my own present
I said it was from you
But you didn’t pick it out
Now did you
The card was beautiful
I gotta give you that
You then took a 10 hour nap
Here I am feeling guilty
Cause I’m being a brat
Karen Degnan Foiles, 31 march 2013
Frazzled
What a week
What a streak
Please don't say a peep
Let me enjoy my cup of tea
Freaky, frazzled
Weakly, Hassled
What I wouldn't give
For Mondays to be cancelled
Harried, Wary
Hurried, Buried
Time is blustering by
I'm always saying "Bye"
Heckle, Jekyll
Lies, Spy's
What the heck happened
Oh well at least the week
is unravelled
Karen Degnan Foiles, 24 april 2013
Under My Skin
Why do I let you get under my skin?
Like “tick” that buries in and stays there
Last night I laid in bed and stared into the dark
Wondering “was it love?”, then I chuckled No, not by far
Why do I feel like the biggest loser
When you revel in my ineptness
When “you” were the abuser
Your hand never rose yet I felt your slap
Leaving scars on my heart
Your words…Oh how they struck
Maybe it’s because you made me feel
Inadequate as a wife and mom
Sometimes you had a heart of steel
Maybe it’s his way of re-assuring his decision
So he can say that divorcing me
Has made him a better person
Or is it his way of making sure
That I continue to pay for the hurt
He feels everyday with regret
** About an Ex-Husband
Karen Degnan Foiles, 24 january 2013
Endless Valentine
My love for you is endless
I say this with all my heart
Please be my valentine
For we will never part
Karen Degnan Foiles, 24 april 2013
What's Done is Done
What's done is done
You can't go back and change it
It's time to move on
You can't rearrange it
You've paid your price
And it's time to proceed
No matter what your vice
Unsteady as it seems
You'll rise above anything
You rebuild your self-esteem
You feel like you're grasping
At a big ball of string
One string at a time
One day at a time
You're growing into
A better person in time
Karen Degnan Foiles, 24 april 2013
You Bring Out The Best In Me
I can say things I never thought
You bring out the best in me
I can feel things I’ve never felt
You bring out the best in me
I can see things more clearly now
No more stress, only calmness
I can laugh out loud and be a little goofy
And it’s nice to know you really “get” me
The comfort I feel is unmatched and surreal
I can be myself and not worry to conceal
I have someone I love and need
You’re in my thoughts and heart indeed
Even as we sleep I feel I must reach
To make sure you’re not a blissful dream
The love we make, the passion we feel
Is like no other I have felt that was real
Karen Degnan Foiles, 31 march 2013
TORN
My feelings are so torn apart
I want to do what's in my heart
I want to support him in his troubled times
To help him while he's in his prime
To help point him in the right direction
And yet give him a mother's affection
He's so child-like in so many ways
Knows not of the worldly ways
He lives for the day in a careless way
He'll let his pride get in the way
The decisions he has made
Has filled him with self-conviction
They put him in a dark place
Where he feels alone and misplaced
His heart is truly beautiful
He has a smile from ear to ear
His actions are so innocent
He means no harm or fear
He knows what he wants to be
Someone who deserves much greatness
Someone he can be proud to be
But he has some things to address
So I'll stand by, watch him sink or swim
It'll hurt him more if he learns nothing
I'll let him know that I am here
And comfort him when
Things are not what they appear
** A poem I wrote for my son, when he was 18 he went through some very hard times... **
Karen Degnan Foiles, 23 february 2013
911
I remember I woke to the sound of chaos
First I thought it was another bombing inIraq
Turned off the radio and turned on the news flash
I couldn’t believe this was an attack
All those people caught in panic and terror
When the first tower fell, I thought was an error
Then the second deflated like a bag of air
But with the utmost despair
All those people running for their lives
I couldn’t believe it to see such demise
Fear and disbelief running ram pet
An un-waking hideous nightmare of time
The news cut in and said, the pentagon was hit
Oh my gosh I thought, could this be it
I look up to the skies as I drive to work
I hear there was another plane, it hit the earth
They said it was headed for theSearsTower
Oh no, that’s where my husband works
I tried to call him, and I couldn’t get through
I don’t even remember my 2 hr commute
I felt guilty as hell because here I sit
He could be Bin Laden’s target
When I heard they changed their rout
I rush came over me, I let it all out
I finally spoke to him, he was scared as a boy
The building was roped off, they let everyone out
The train station was packed, people were jumping the tracks
All they were doing was looking to be safe
That was all that mattered
Panic and hysteria filled the air
But once on the train he said it was eerie
No one said a word, only the sound of a radio
Everyone hanging on every word
A sign of relief as they drove further away
No one on that train will forget that day
They could have been the next to die that day
And instead they go home and feel safe again
I never felt so happy about a plane crashing
But my husband, my life, my everything
Was not going to die at least not that day
I thank the passengers that gave their lives that day
They knew they would never see their families again
They knew they were traveling a human bomb
I feel for the families who lost their loved ones
I cannot imagine how they felt
The parents, the wives, sons and daughters
Sisters and brothers, friends and lovers
Karen Degnan Foiles, 31 march 2013
Kinds of Loss
There's kinds of loss that can bum you out
The loss of a game
You lost your way
Losing your favorite pin
This can make you pout
But without a doubt
It is not a real big thing
The kind of loss that can make you shout
The loss of your job
The loss your car
When you could not pay
It left you confused
Feeling slightly defused
But then you can re-group
Then there a loss, that cuts deep within
My maternal rights that I tried not to win
So stupid to give up such a gift
To watch my boys grow, live with the man
that I've tried so much to get away
No school papers to hang on my frig
No more practices to run to at night
Now I that I am a part-time Mom
And try and do it all on my weekends
This was written about a very tough time in my life. My boys are older now but the feelings are still there.
= 03/20/2006 =
Karen Degnan Foiles, 31 march 2013
Just Me My Friend
Just me popping in
Seeing how ya been
Popping by is my style
Just where do I begin…
I wanted you to know
That I have missed you so
I'm sorry I have neglected
My true friend I have respected
My life is a whirlwind
In this spectrum called life
And is anything but sublime
Some days are like a roller-coaster
There are highs and lows
Some are fun and some scary
I know why I'm scared to call
It'll stir up old memories
That I'm not ready to deal or feel
I miss you my friend
I miss your laughter and your tears
I miss our friendship over the years
Not a day goes by
That I don't think of you
And I promise I will call you
This was written for a very good friend I have lost touch with.
5/1/06
Karen Degnan Foiles, 22 january 2013
Letting Love Define Me
Love is good, love is kind
But love can be evil and blind
Love controlled my heart and mind
For so many years of my life
Made me ignore all the signs
Of the bad things that I did
And all the things I did not do
How many people I've left too
All the poems I've written
All the songs I've sung
Were a little bad birdie in my ear
Singing the wicked praises of love
My dependence of loves dread
Love led me astray to regrets
Of bad decisions and lies
Were just evidence of my demise
The neediness of acceptance
The craving of bonding
The wanting of touch
The patience of sex
Love injured my heart and
Shattered my trust
Made me question my very souls
Worthiness for happiness
Leaving me emotionally spent
And physically weak
Was I just trying to repair
The broken child within?
Karen Degnan Foiles, 20 november 2011
Sold Is My Heart
Sold is My Heart
I gathered the keepsakes
That used to be special
A box of mistakes
Lifeless, waiting to sell
Waiting for a new life to live
This love had worn out
Now a need to be without
Like an old pair of shoes
Cast aside soft and abused
This lifetime broken, shattered and destroyed
Broken dreams
Broken promises
Broken hearts
Broken house
Isn't it funny that's not how it all starts
@Karen Foiles
Karen Degnan Foiles, 3 april 2013
The line between Steps
Sometimes the line bewteen steps are crossed
Right now the line is dark and unapproachable
But to get past it you can only rise above...
About being a Step-Parent
Karen Degnan Foiles, 7 april 2013
Stronger Everyday
Everyday we get up
And feel stronger everyday
Everyday we get up
Glad to see another day
Some battles we have fought
Just to stay alive
Some battles we have fought
Just to see another day
Some battles we win
Some battles we lose
For reasons unknown
For reasons we choose
We all have our battles
That we must fight
Some harder than others
Some you take in stride
When your heart is full of love
You have the courage to fight
When your heart is full of love
You have everything to fight
Karen Degnan Foiles, 25 april 2013
Forgotten Mom
All I talked about was you
The months before you were home
Not a call or a text, but on facebook
I find out your home like everyone else
She got the surprise
A hug she could not even give
I’d given you hugs and kisses
And said I’m so proud and cry
I know you never meant to hurt me
But that night I cried like a baby
A mother needs to know she’s loved
Just like a son needs to be proud of
I wanted to know when you’d be home
So I could arrange some time to spend
You could not give me that
Yet it was the night before you left
You still haven’t changed
Still avoiding situations
Like not knowing how to tell people
You just want to hang with friends
But I’m YOUR MOM dammit
I think I have the right
To see you more than once
The 2 weeks you’re home from Kuwait
Maybe I wasn’t a good mom
Is this really what you think
But you won’t tell me
Cause you’ll avoid that just the same
She texted me to let me know you’d be home
So I called and texted,
I’m home on facebook you said
Yet no reply I got
Your actions speak louder
Than the few words you say
I see where I stand
In your small world you stay
** I wrote this after my son in the Army come home the first time on leave...
Karen Degnan Foiles, 25 february 2013
So Many Questions
When I look in the mirror
I think back and see a girl
I realize now, I lost a part of her
Was I a normal girl?
Were you a girl like me?
Why did this happen to me?
How did this happen to me?
Didn't anyone hear or see me?
Didn’t anyone believe me?
I pleaded, cried and begged
And I said "no"
I'm confused, was this love?
Why was she this disgraced?
She did not ask for this
Now she is so displaced…
My feelings crippled and hurt
But I pretend everything’s ok
I go on living in day to day hurt
If I let you in, you would see my sin
You might see the real “Me”
That little girl yelling “Please No”
Sometimes when I look in the mirror
I can almost see that little girl
Before her past had changed her
She used to be happy, and carefree
All she wanted, was to dream
Can I be that happy girl again?
It's hard to let somebody in
When your heart has been exploited
It's hard to let someone go
When your pride has been destroyed
How can I do this all on my own?
How can I let you see my heart?
All I can do is try and do my part
Please, do try not to hurt me
Will "you" take care of me?
Or would you even care to see?
Why can't I make things clear?
The noise in my ears is deafening
Yet no one else can hear me
Sometimes I get so confused
Is this why I do what I do
When I hurt my loved ones so
I can't explain it
But I can understand it
At least it's best to know
Karen Degnan Foiles, 25 february 2013
Ready To Be On My Own
Let me grow into my own
You’re holding me back
But don’t leave me alone
I want my life on track
So don’t hold me back
I want to walk on my own
Cut my puppet strings
The ones that you reined
Your reaction is overblown
Let me spread my wings
And let me find out on my own
How life is going to play along
I am much bolder than you at my age
I have a mind but with less rage
I have a dream that needs to succeed
You’ve brainwashed me too long
I’ve walked your straight narrow
But now it’s time for me to fly
Don’t tell me I can drive
And then take away the keys
Don’t tell me this is my home
And then treat me like a disease
Don’t tell me we’re gonna do something
And then not follow through
You‘ll tell me it’s for the best
As long as it’s convenient for you
Let me grow up, let me be me
Let me do it on my own
It’s time for me to break away
A poem for my son when he was living with his dad when he was 18 and is ready to be on his own.
Karen Degnan Foiles, 19 february 2013
Shipping My Anniversary
Never thought I'd be sending you clothes today
Today of all days
A day to celebrate but instead
I picked out your favorite threads
And shipped our hopes a dreams away
To made sure you'd warm while away
I'm a little numb and going thru the motions
Throughout these complications
Still can’t believe our marriage is but a memory
On our anniversary
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16 may 2024
violetta
Może w lipcu będę miała takie wakacje:)
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słońce w płynie..
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Za jeszcze jeden rejs!
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Mam takie oko :)
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Jaga
Zwierzęta upodobniły się do koloru otoczenia
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To naturalny suchy i pustynny klimat. I tam są
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Klimat taki, że nie był i raczej nie będzie,
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Kajzerki są przereklamowane ;)
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wielki wypas - był albo może będzie. kto wie...
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sama prawda z tym myśleniem i psoceniem ale
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