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steve, 31 march 2024
"If Or When"
Do you know how hard it is.. to lay down next to you...
To know that I can't touch you.. you don't want me too,
Do you know how much it breaks my heart.. to look into your eye's...
After all the years that we've been friends.. you still make me cry,
Do you know that I can hardly breath.. when I get too close to you...
And your the one who has control.. of what I say or do,
Do you know how much I need to feel, the heat beneath your skin...
Never knowing the time or place, or even "if or when",
For I have no control, and to need you more than air...
To risk my heart and soul, when I'm not sure you even care,
Should I say goodbye and walk away, or should I hang on still...
Knowing you may never care, and that I always will.
steve, 4 february 2024
"One May Never Find"
You don't have to tell me, what you think I want to hear...
And you don't have to get that close, if I'm something that you fear,
I'm not trying to burden you, to be someone your not...
And I won't ask of you, to do something you cannot,
But I'm not going to hide, the way I feel for you...
Or pretend that I don't hurt, when you know damn well I do,
I thought I found a friend in you, and maybe something more...
Someone whom for many years, I've been searching for,
I'm sorry for the love I feel, in my heart for you...
But I can't pretend it isn't real, if I wanted too,
I never ment for you to run, or feel the need to hide...
I'm sorry I came on so strong, because all the years I cried,
Love is so elusive, that one may never find...
As we hold on to the pain, it can render your heart blind.
steve, 16 january 2024
"Not Another You"
I think I missed the train.. I should be riding on...
I'm standing at the station.. but I think its long since gone,
I used to have a ticket.. that afforded any ride...
But the only thing I have, is lonelyness and pride,
I can hear the whistle blowing.. as the echo moves away...
But there's nothing I can do.. that changes yesterday,
The past is just a memory.. of things I should of done...
And everything inside me.. tells me.. your the one,
I couldn't see you clearly.. through the fog across the tracks...
But if you were at the station.. I'd come running back,
And as the whistle fades away.. it whispers what I knew...
They'll always be another train.. but "not another you".
steve, 9 january 2024
"Not The Perfect Answer"
It's been so long since I've seen you.. do you still remember my name?
The years come and go.. like people I know.. but my feelings for you haven't changed,
Did you think that I had forgotton.. did you think I'd never return?
How could I forget my biggest regret.. while the fire inside me still burns,
But Life is just an illusion.. as I awaken just to survive...
Going through all of the motions.. of living the 9:00 to 5:00,
The light begins to fade away.. as the day comes to an end...
And when I close my eye's to sleep.. is when my life begins,
For that's when were together.. and there you "love me too"...
And I make love to you all night.. when I dream of you,
It's "not the perfect answer".. it's less than what I want...
I want so much more of you.. than just the dreams you haunt,
It's "not the perfect answer"".. for tears you'll never see...
But as I lay my head to sleep.. it's what I need for me,
steve, 2 december 2023
"Do You Think You Can Save Me"
How do you know, of the pain in my soul...
Were you there when I cried for you?
You've never been there to show me you care,
But you say you love me too,
"Do you think you can save me", from what I've become,
Do you despise what you see?
Is the truth hard to hear, do you live with the fear,
That you've become just like me,
And though I've been told, my heart can be cold,
I only know what I see,
That life can be cruel, and I'm just a fool,
for believing that you could love me.
steve, 27 november 2023
"Can't Let Go"
I never ment to fall in love, the risk was way too high...
But it's too late now for turning back, I can't say goodbye,
I just wanted to have some fun, I tried to keep my head...
But I lost my focus on danger, and lost my heart instead,
Blinded by your beauty, and pulled into the dance...
Swept away by brown eyes, I never stood a chance,
I'm not sure what I was thinking, did I think I had control?
I thought that I was hanging on, now I "can't let go",
I know I'm going to feel the pain, when I finally hit the ground...
That's the price my heart must pay, for being left unbound,
I'd love a happy ending , but that's not the way it goes...
There's no such thing as fairy tales, ask anyone who knows.
steve, 26 november 2023
"My Wildest Dreams"
I already had all the treasure, as rich as my wildest dreams...
But my heart wasn't paying attention, and now I've lost everything,
My world is crashing around me, just tell me it's a bad dream...
My life has started unwinding, and nothing is as it seems,
For the one who's holding my heart, is no longer by my side...
How could I take for granted, that her love would never die,
How could I have left her alone, all those lonely nights?
Making money and power my mistress, the only thing in my sights,
How could I not see before me, the rich"s I already had...
A loving wife who adored me, and kids who looked up to there dad,
The world I knew is now crumbling, I can't stop it from falling apart...
I was too blind to see when I had you, and that has torn me apart,
I hope that you can forgive me, nothing else matters to me...
What will I do if I loose you, because of what I couldn't see.
steve, 19 november 2023
"I Can't Hold On"
You just don't understand, how much it hurts to be...
In the presence of my dream, that wants no part of me,
I can't take this anymore, I'm finally at my end...
You won't reach out to catch me, as I continue to descend,
I have to learn to say goodbye, and you must let me go...
You have no love inside for me, of this you've let me know,
If only things were different, if you cared enough for me...
You wouldn't let me say goodbye, and I wouldn't want to leave,
But "I can't hold on" to nothing, that's a place I've been...
I've hurt so long and cried so much, I can't go there again,
I'm sorry it has to be like this, and that I take this stand...
I never ment to fall in love, it's not what I had planned,
But I know that you don't love me, and probably never will...
And I don't want to hate you, for something you don't feel.
steve, 13 november 2023
"What To Say"
I don't know "what to say" to you, I don't know what to do...
This broken heart will never heal, unless I'm far from you,
You feel nothing in your heart, you have no love for me...
While I struggle with feelings for you, that you refuse to see,
You don't need me in your life, you've got so many friends...
You don't need someone who cares, you need someone who bends,
I'm at my very end, and just want to run away...
The pain keeps getting stronger, and the skies are always grey,
I want not to walk away, for my heart belongs to you...
But if you don't want me in your life, I must face the truth,
My only option is to run away, as far as I can get..
Don't look back, don't say your name, don't try again just quit,
I don't know "what to say" to you, I don't know what to do...
Goodbye would be so easy, if I weren't in love with you.
steve, 11 november 2023
"Cold Heart"
What hurts the most is finding out.. that you "never" cared for me...
I thought you were my friend for life.. but it would never be,
Everything you've ever said.. has all been just a lie...
You broke my heart beyond repair.. and left me asking why?
What kind of friend could hurt someone.. the way that you've hurt me...
After all the times you spoke of love.. that I should clearly see,
There is no love inside you.. except your love for you...
They all tried to warn me.. but I couldn't see the truth,
You used me like so many.. that's just what users do...
And when there's nothing left at all.. you try to blame them too,
It's an ice "cold heart".. to crush someone.. and leave them there to die...
You took the shirt right off my back.. and never said goodbye,
For all the pain that you've caused.. and all the lies you've told...
Will someday circle back to you.. and hit you hard ten fold,
I know that I should hate you.. but I look at you and cry...
As you made greed instead of love.. your partner till you die,
You've lived your whole life taking.. that which you've not earned...
You've stepped on lives without a thought.. and left them there to burn,
I pity the person you've become.. and what lies ahead for you...
Because we "all" must someday answer.. for "today" the things we do.
steve, 5 november 2023
"Smoke Upon The Wind"
As I'm out here on my own, it gets harder everyday...
And I think about when you were here, the things I didn't say,
Every night is longer, than the one that came before...
And I feel as though I'm stranded, on some far and distant shore,
Our bed is cold and lonely,as I lay my head to sleep...
And I wish that I was stronger, as I close my eyes and weep,
The house just seems to echo, it's your voice that I can hear...
From times we were together, like reflections in the mirror,
I wonder if you have regrets, or feel the way I do...
For every single part of me, is still in love with you,
Tell me you don't care, that your not in love with me...
That all the years mean nothing, you just wanted to be free,
That you moved on without me, and you want it all to end...
And I'll disappear before your eyes, like "smoke upon the wind"...
steve, 4 november 2023
Killing Me
All I ever wanted, was to share that part of you...
But you don't want to share with me, the way I wanted too,
You don't even care, that I cry myself to sleep...
I wish I'd never met you, for I've fallen in too deep,
Either you're as cold as ice, or you don't have a clue...
Just how much I care, or how much I need you...
It gets harder everyday, and something has to give...
You know this is "killing me", but I just want to live,
If I'm the only one that cares, I know how this will end...
As lonely takes another life, and I lose another friend,
I wish things could be different, I wish that you would stay...
But I've got to save myself, and goodbye's the only way,
Whatever you decide, I promise to see through...
Right now and always has, this heart belongs to you...
steve, 3 november 2023
Every Moment
How do I touch your heart, the way that you touched mine?
You hold the keys to Heaven, but I can't cross the line,
You're everything I've dreamed of, the answer to a prayer...
And the only thing I need, that I need more than air,
You have the power to give me, what I've never known...
And my last chance at love, before God calls me home,
If only for a day, or an hour you were mine...
Your gift would be enough, of heaven to enshrine,
I will cherish "every moment", as it's now a part of me...
Whether life or in death, in my heart you'll always be.
steve, 3 november 2023
Matter Of Time
I knew it was just a matter of time.. and then you would be gone..
And I would be here all alone.. to face the morning dawn,
I knew what I was in for.. I knew how this would end..
I knew I loved you from the start.. and I'd always call you friend,
I don't regret one minute.. of time I spent with you..
If asked if I would do it again.. you know what I would do,
You gave to me a gift, so precious and surreal...
What I haven't felt in 30 years, and the last I ever will,
steve, 1 november 2023
Lonely Doesn't Even Come Close
I thought we had something special, a friendship made to last...
We've been through so much together, while both letting go of the past,
I thought that I could control it, no longer it controlled me...
But you walked in and our eyes met, how wrong could I possibly be,
What am I supposed to do, with feelings that tear me apart...
So much for thinking I'm stronger, I have no control of my heart,
Am I to walk away from you, am I supposed to say goodbye...
That's not something I can do, it'd be easier just to die,
There are no words left to describe, the feelings I harbor for you...
"Lonely doesn't come close", but it couldn't be more true.
steve, 24 october 2023
"I Failed"
There's nothing in this world, I want more than you...
Without you, there is nothing I have the will to do,
I can't face another day, wondering where you are...
Nor drown away the memories, sitting in some bar,
If I never reach you, how am I to live?
When the only thing that matters, is something you won't give,
I would give my life tonight, just to be with you...
For no one else in this world, makes me feel the way you do,
But alas my life has ended, for I can't reach your heart...
And I can see no reason, from this world, I shouldn't part.
For what is life without you, like a day without a night...
No end and no beginning, as I sit alone and write,
If only you cared about me, then you'd finally see...
That you are the only place in life, where I wish to be.
But I failed to make you understand and failed to make you care...
Let the execution of my soul, be the answer to my prayer.,
steve, 24 october 2023
"No Regrets"
It's not easy when you're here, time hasn't eased the pain...
And I'm not yet strong enough, that I can break the chains,
I thought that I was stronger, till you came into view...
But when my eyes met yours, I already knew,
You still have my heart, as I'm hanging by a thread...
And I still carry regret, for words I never said,
It's my last chance to reach you if you'll only let me in...
I'll show you what you've never felt, and never will again,
You have nothing to lose, and everything to gain...
I don't want to say goodbye, but I'm weary of the pain,
I know that your uncertain, on a road you've never been...
So take my hand, let me lead, and this journey will begin,
I promise "no regrets", if you'll let me touch your heart...
And I will keep it close to mine until the day I part.
steve, 22 october 2023
"Strength In Numbers""
I pray I go to heaven when my days come to an end...
But heaven came to me, the day that you walked in,,
I've never seen more beautiful when you come into view...
The world around me disappears, all I see is you,
I have no words to describe.. when I lay my hands on you...
For no one else in this world.. could I feel the things I do,
You don't even have a clue.. how much you mean to me...
And I will never burden you.. for someone you can't be,
You keep your feelings buried, so you won't come apart...
You try so hard to hide it, but I see into your heart,
I feel the pain inside you, but you won't let me in...
You keep pushing me away, you forget that I'm your friend,
Anything.. is what I'd do.. to see you smile again...
And anything I didn't do.. would have to be a sin,
I can't cure what ails you, but I can ease your pain...
I can't stop the storm, but I can shield you from the rain,
Remember "strength in numbers", as the willow learns to bend...
Your not facing life alone, as long as you have friends.
steve, 19 october 2023
"All Eternity"
I'm standing at a crossroads.. as time just passes by...
They say time waits for no man.. and it does no good to cry,
I watch the years pass by me.. and watch friends come and go...
You lose some of the ones you love.. as time will take its toll,
I doubt that you will understand.. when I look at you I stare...
But I've loved you for a thousand years.. and a time when you did care,
Just this once. let down your walls.. and let my heart come in...
And I will take you to a place... I know you've never been,
I'm waiting for an invite.. that can only come from you...
Praying for a green light.. instead of midnight blue,
I don't know how to ask again... but I'll give it one more try...
As the flames you sparked so long ago.. still refuse to die,
It's like you have a spell on me.. and I have no control...
As I dream about you every night.. why can't I just let go,
Let me pretend.. there's something more.. and lay my hands on you...
Let me show you who I am... before our time is through,
You don't have to look at me.. just close your eyes and dream...
Life is rarely black and white.. and never as it seems,
You don't have to do a thing... you don't even have to care...
And when the morning sunlight comes... I'll be far away from there,
You don't have to say the words.. or even say my name...
But I promise if you give me time.. you'll never feel the same,
I have no expectations... I have only love for you...
I hope you find it in your heart.. to see beyond whats true,
I'll ask once more... hear my words and give this gift to me...
And I will place it in my heart.. for "all eternity".
steve, 19 october 2023
"No More"
No one really gives a dam.. what I feel inside...
They don't know what lonely is.. or just how much I've cried,
I don't care what people say.. when my back is turned...
My whole life I've had to fight.. and every scar I've earned,
I'm never going to have the love.. that other people share...
Love is pain and hard to find... while life is seldom fair,
I need to have someone... I can run to now and then...
And spend a little time with.. who's a little more than friend,
Someone who gets lonely too... someone who is free...
Someone who is not afraid.. to give themselves to me,
If only for an hour.. to chase away the rain...
Where lonely isn't welcome.. as you leave behind the pain,
There's nothing that you have to say.. nothing you must do..
All I ask is to come in.. and I'll take care of you,
And when the sky turns grey again.. and lonely's at the door...
Together we can face the storm, til lonely is "no more"
steve, 19 october 2023
"My Wife"
There's so much that I want to say.. but the words I cannot find...
Though day or night it's all the same. your always on my mind,
I knew the road I'd chosen.. wouldn't always be so clear...
With twists and turns and one-way signs.. that finally led me here,
But I never for a moment.. since the day you said "I Do"...
Thought I'd see a sunrise.. or wake up without you,
I am at a loss for words.. as I stumble through the days...
What I used to see so clearly.. has now become a haze,
I try to reckon in my heart.. just where that I went wrong...
And how I let.. slip through my hands.. the love that you had shown,
You made your vows of love to me.. "till death do we part"...
For thirty years.. is just one chance.. too much to ask your heart?
When I made vows of love to you..and you became my wife...
I thought we'd grow.. to be as one.. until the end of life,
Don't let the love we had so long.. just wither on the vine...
Don't break this heart beyond repair.. and say that you'r not mine,
Don't disappear beneath me.. or let us fade away...
To let go after thirty years.. is just too much to pay,
I would climb a mountain.. or swim in the ocean blue...
And if I'm taking my last breath.. my thoughts will be of you,
Don't give up on what we had.. or what we'll have again...
Our love was like a fairy tale.. and can be that way again,
I'm sorry if I let you down.. if you thought I didn't care...
Your my world.. Your my wife.. there's nothing that compares.
steve, 18 october 2023
"In My Head"
The wind blows gently through the trees, as I stare up at the moon...
While the leaves are all dancing in the moon light, that looks like a big white ballon,
I sit here with thoughts of you in my head, stuck in the same lucid dream...
Hoping and praying someday I'll get through, in a life that is not what it seems,
It's a heart breaking tragedy, the one that I love, is stuck in a preconceived hell...
Effectively closing any doors that I've opened, ensuring my chances to fail,
How do I reach you before it's too late, as the hour glass sand runs out...
How do I show you what we stand to lose, if I can't make you let go of doubt,
Please give me a chance I'll give all that I have, to save us from dying alone...
Let go of the doubt to what lies ahead, we could find what we've never known.
steve, 16 october 2023
Scarlet Blue
I wish things could be different, as my world is "scarlet blue"...
If only it were black & white, as is my love for you,
I wouldn't sit here crying, over things I cannot change...
As cupid hits me yet again, when he knows your out of range,
I'll never lay beside you, on a moonlight summer night...
Never feel your lips on mine, never hold you tight,
I'll never feel your touch, caress any part of me...
And I can't even fathom, what love from you could be,
My whole world is "scarlet blue", when you're not around...
A grain of sand on an endless beach, hoping to be found,
A dream without an ending, no answer to a prayer...
Live this life pretending, that I don't really care.
steve, 16 october 2023
Finally Realize
You'll give away to anyone, what I need from you....
I'll beg, I'll cry, I'll plead, but I just can't get through,
My pain and tears of anguish, fall upon deaf ears...
You could end in minutes, what I have felt for years,
Why do you let me suffer, your supposed to be my friend?
You know from where my torment comes, why don't you make it end?
And how is it "not selfish", to leave me here to die...
I've always been there for you, but you won't even try,
Do you have "no love" for me at all, do I need to walk away?
Friendship is a two-way street, but your only going one way,
I'll love you till the day I die, do I have to wait that long?
Before you "finally realize", you couldn't be more wrong.
steve, 16 october 2023
"Take A Chance"
I don't want to say the things, I always say to you...
And I don't want to cry the tears, that I always do,
I don't want to ask again, for something you won't give...
When your here it hurts too much, and that's no way to live,
Goodbye's the only answer, to rid me of the pain...
"Out of sight, out of mind", might just keep me sane,
It's not a choice I choose to make, it's what I have to do...
This broken heart can take no more, of living life askew,
If we'd done this, or I'd done that, if you'd given me a chance...
If you'd learn to let your heart decide, it might of said "just dance",
I'd like to think I'm more, to you than just a friend,
But you won't let me get that close, and I cannot pretend,
If you never "take a chance", on understanding something new...
How much have you missed, when it's right in front of you?
Life is taking chances, and learning as we grow...
If you never try another path, how will you ever know?
And though this is goodbye, I leave with you my heart...
It's something that belongs to you, and has from the start.
steve, 16 october 2023
You Don't Want Me
It hurts...that you can walk away... without a second thought...
When all I do.. is think of you.. wanting to or not,
The days are long without you.. as the smile I wear's pretend...
And the black abyss.. that we call night.. seems to have no end,
I can't make you care for me.. but I can't just walk away..
Until I hear it.. from your lips.. what you have to say,
This hearts already broken.. from that old familiar pain...
But I'd wait for you forever.. even in the pouring rain,
So look into this heart once more.. beyond what you might see...
Feel the love that's there for you.. and say "you don't want me",
Tell me whats inside your heart, it's what I need to know...
Tell me that you'll never care, so at last I can let go.
steve, 16 october 2023
"Fairy Tales"
Is it ignorance.. or denial.. that just won't let you see...
The reason pain and anger.. still dwells inside of me,
All the nights you left me.. to sit there by the phone...
All the nights I cried aloud.. and waited all alone,
All the pain you put me through..and all the lies you told...
And all I ever wanted.. was to have you there to hold,
Its as though you don't remember.. like.. you don't have a clue...
Of the sacrifaces that were made.. out love I had for you,
You've never done a single thing.. to prove your love to me...
And everything I've done for you.. you pretend you didn't see,
And yet somehow.. I'm to blame.. according to your lies...
Why place blame on anyone.. when its time to cut the ties,
I just wish I hadn't wasted, all those years on you....
But it's my fault for believing, that "fairy tales" come true.
steve, 25 july 2023
"The Only Way"
I can't make you look at me, the way I look at you...
And I can't show you what I feel unless you want me to,
I didn't want to love you, but my heart got in the way...
Wanting to believe there's a chance that you might stay,
You think it's only physical, but I've so much more inside...
It breaks my heart to know, there's no crossing that divide,
I believed in happy endings, fairy tales, and dreams...
But life is hard, love is pain, and nothing as it seems,
I don't know what to say, that I haven't said before...
I've cried a river of tears, to be washed up on the shore,
I need you in my life, but I have to say goodbye...
My heart needs time to heal, but won't if I don't try,
Sometimes goodbye"s the only way, when there's nothing left to do...
Goodbye would be so easy if I weren't in love with you.
steve, 9 july 2023
I Wouldn't
I just want to touch you, as your heart beats next to mine...
And breathe in your aroma, which smells like Forrest pine,
I don't want to care about, all the pain I feel...
And though I fell in love with you, I know you never will,
I don't want to know the love, that I will live without...
For heavy is the burden, when you have a heart devout,
I wish I'd never met you, then love would pass me by...
I'd have no broken heart, nor these tears that I cry,
I wouldn't cry myself to sleep, I wouldn't say your name...
Through tears I wouldn't to ask myself, why you don't feel the same,
I wouldn't need to see you or care that you don't care...
You wouldn't haunt my dreams at night, with desires I can't bare,
If only letting go of you, was an easy thing to do...
Goodbye would be so easy if I weren't in love with you.
steve, 5 may 2023
Do It All Again
I've made every mistake, that one possibly could...
Every bad decision, instead of what I should,
My life is about regrets, and things I didn't say...
If I could "do it all again", it wouldn't be this way,
Many years have passed, since you left this town...
And countless beers I've put away, to keep you're memory down,
But I still drive by you're old house, to see if you are there...
I haven't met a person yet, with you I could compare,
I should have told you how I felt, so many years ago...
And never let you walk away, from things you didn't know,
But you will never know of, the love I feel for you...
And I could never forget, you're eyes of sapphire blue,
I don't know why I held back, or let you walk away...
I only know it's one regret, that I feel everyday,
If only I could turn back time, there's one thing I won't do...
For I would change everything, except my love for you.
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19 april 2024
Weronika
Ale żeby po otwarciu świetlistych powiek, nie
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kb
są też elementy urbanistyki i infrastruktury
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dzięki, pozdrawiam
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Ładne
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Jest dla mnie wszystkim:)
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Jaga
Przymrozki zapowiadają ;)) Kwitnąca czereśnia
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Rośniemy wiosenną naturą :)
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Dzięki : ).
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Jeden drink potrafi wiele zmienić ; ).
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