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steve, 4 february 2024

"One May Never Find"

You don't have to tell me, what you think I want to hear...
And you don't have to get that close, if I'm something that you fear,
I'm not trying to burden you, to be someone your not...
And I won't ask of you, to do something you cannot,
But I'm not going to hide, the way I feel for you...
Or pretend that I don't hurt, when you know damn well I do,
I thought I found a friend in you, and maybe something more...
Someone whom for many years, I've been searching for,
I'm sorry for the love I feel, in my heart for you...
But I can't pretend it isn't real, if I wanted too,
I never ment for you to run, or feel the need to hide...
I'm sorry I came on so strong, because all the years I cried,
Love is so elusive, that one may never find...
As we hold on to the pain, it can render your heart blind.


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steve, 16 january 2024

"Not Another You"

I think I missed the train.. I should be riding on...
I'm standing at the station.. but I think its long since gone,
I used to have a ticket.. that afforded any ride...
But the only thing I have, is lonelyness and pride,
I can hear the whistle blowing.. as the echo moves away...
But there's nothing I can do.. that changes yesterday,
The past is just a memory.. of things I should of done...
And everything inside me.. tells me.. your the one,
I couldn't see you clearly.. through the fog across the tracks...
But if you were at the station.. I'd come running back,
And as the whistle fades away.. it whispers what I knew...
They'll always be another train.. but "not another you".


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steve, 9 january 2024

"Not The Perfect Answer"

It's been so long since I've seen you.. do you still remember my name?
The years come and go.. like people I know.. but my feelings for you haven't changed,
Did you think that I had forgotton.. did you think I'd never return?
How could I forget my biggest regret.. while the fire inside me still burns,
But Life is just an illusion.. as I awaken just to survive...
Going through all of the motions.. of living the 9:00 to 5:00,
The light begins to fade away.. as the day comes to an end...
And when I close my eye's to sleep.. is when my life begins,
For that's when were together.. and there you "love me too"...
And I make love to you all night.. when I dream of you,
It's "not the perfect answer".. it's less than what I want...
I want so much more of you.. than just the dreams you haunt,
It's "not the perfect answer"".. for tears you'll never see...
But as I lay my head to sleep.. it's what I need for me,


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steve, 2 december 2023

"Do You Think You Can Save Me"

How do you know, of the pain in my soul...
Were you there when I cried for you?
You've never been there to show me you care,
But you say you love me too,
"Do you think you can save me", from what I've become,
Do you despise what you see?
Is the truth hard to hear, do you live with the fear,
That you've become just like me,
And though I've been told, my heart can be cold,
I only know what I see,
That life can be cruel, and I'm just a fool,
for believing that you could love me.


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steve, 27 november 2023

"Can't Let Go"

I never ment to fall in love, the risk was way too high...
But it's too late now for turning back, I can't say goodbye,
I just wanted to have some fun, I tried to keep my head...
But I lost my focus on danger, and lost my heart instead,
Blinded by your beauty, and pulled into the dance...
Swept away by brown eyes, I never stood a chance,
I'm not sure what I was thinking, did I think I had control?
I thought that I was hanging on, now I "can't let go",
I know I'm going to feel the pain, when I finally hit the ground...
That's the price my heart must pay, for being left unbound,
I'd love a happy ending , but that's not the way it goes...
There's no such thing as fairy tales, ask anyone who knows.


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steve, 26 november 2023

"My Wildest Dreams"

I already had all the treasure, as rich as my wildest dreams...
But my heart wasn't paying attention, and now I've lost everything,
My world is crashing around me, just tell me it's a bad dream...
My life has started unwinding, and nothing is as it seems,
For the one who's holding my heart, is no longer by my side...
How could I take for granted, that her love would never die,
How could I have left her alone, all those lonely nights?
Making money and power my mistress, the only thing in my sights,
How could I not see before me, the rich"s I already had...
A loving wife who adored me, and kids who looked up to there dad,
The world I knew is now crumbling, I can't stop it from falling apart...
I was too blind to see when I had you, and that has torn me apart,
I hope that you can forgive me, nothing else matters to me...
What will I do if I loose you, because of what I couldn't see.


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steve, 19 november 2023

"I Can't Hold On"

You just don't understand, how much it hurts to be...
In the presence of my dream, that wants no part of me,
I can't take this anymore, I'm finally at my end...
You won't reach out to catch me, as I continue to descend,
I have to learn to say goodbye, and you must let me go...
You have no love inside for me, of this you've let me know,
If only things were different, if you cared enough for me...
You wouldn't let me say goodbye, and I wouldn't want to leave,
But "I can't hold on" to nothing, that's a place I've been...
I've hurt so long and cried so much, I can't go there again,
I'm sorry it has to be like this, and that I take this stand...
I never ment to fall in love, it's not what I had planned,
But I know that you don't love me, and probably never will...
And I don't want to hate you, for something you don't feel.


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steve, 13 november 2023

"What To Say"

I don't know "what to say" to you, I don't know what to do...
This broken heart will never heal, unless I'm far from you,
You feel nothing in your heart, you have no love for me...
While I struggle with feelings for you, that you refuse to see,
You don't need me in your life, you've got so many friends...
You don't need someone who cares, you need someone who bends,
I'm at my very end, and just want to run away...
The pain keeps getting stronger, and the skies are always grey,
I want not to walk away, for my heart belongs to you...
But if you don't want me in your life, I must face the truth,
My only option is to run away, as far as I can get..
Don't look back, don't say your name, don't try again just quit,
I don't know "what to say" to you, I don't know what to do...
Goodbye would be so easy, if I weren't in love with you.


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steve, 11 november 2023

"Cold Heart"

What hurts the most is finding out.. that you "never" cared for me...
I thought you were my friend for life.. but it would never be,
Everything you've ever said.. has all been just a lie...
You broke my heart beyond repair.. and left me asking why?
What kind of friend could hurt someone.. the way that you've hurt me...
After all the times you spoke of love.. that I should clearly see,
There is no love inside you.. except your love for you...
They all tried to warn me.. but I couldn't see the truth,
You used me like so many.. that's just what users do...
And when there's nothing left at all.. you try to blame them too,
It's an ice "cold heart".. to crush someone.. and leave them there to die...
You took the shirt right off my back.. and never said goodbye,
For all the pain that you've caused.. and all the lies you've told...
Will someday circle back to you.. and hit you hard ten fold,
I know that I should hate you.. but I look at you and cry...
As you made greed instead of love.. your partner till you die,
You've lived your whole life taking.. that which you've not earned...
You've stepped on lives without a thought.. and left them there to burn,
I pity the person you've become.. and what lies ahead for you...
Because we "all" must someday answer.. for "today" the things we do.


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steve, 5 november 2023

"Smoke Upon The Wind"

As I'm out here on my own, it gets harder everyday...
And I think about when you were here, the things I didn't say,
Every night is longer, than the one that came before...
And I feel as though I'm stranded, on some far and distant shore,
Our bed is cold and lonely,as I lay my head to sleep...
And I wish that I was stronger, as I close my eyes and weep,
The house just seems to echo, it's your voice that I can hear...
From times we were together, like reflections in the mirror,
I wonder if you have regrets, or feel the way I do...
For every single part of me, is still in love with you,
Tell me you don't care, that your not in love with me...
That all the years mean nothing, you just wanted to be free,
That you moved on without me, and you want it all to end...
And I'll disappear before your eyes, like "smoke upon the wind"...


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steve, 4 november 2023

Killing Me

All I ever wanted, was to share that part of you...
But you don't want to share with me, the way I wanted too,
You don't even care, that I cry myself to sleep...
I wish I'd never met you, for I've fallen in too deep,
Either you're as cold as ice, or you don't have a clue...
Just how much I care, or how much I need you...
It gets harder everyday, and something has to give...
You know this is "killing me", but I just want to live,
If I'm the only one that cares, I know how this will end...
As lonely takes another life, and I lose another friend,
I wish things could be different, I wish that you would stay...
But I've got to save myself, and goodbye's the only way,
Whatever you decide, I promise to see through...
Right now and always has, this heart belongs to you...


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steve, 3 november 2023

Every Moment

How do I touch your heart, the way that you touched mine?
You hold the keys to Heaven, but I can't cross the line,
You're everything I've dreamed of, the answer to a prayer...
And the only thing I need, that I need more than air,
You have the power to give me, what I've never known...
And my last chance at love, before God calls me home,
If only for a day, or an hour you were mine...
Your gift would be enough, of heaven to enshrine,
I will cherish "every moment", as it's now a part of me...
Whether life or in death, in my heart you'll always be.


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steve, 3 november 2023

Matter Of Time

I knew it was just a matter of time.. and then you would be gone..
And I would be here all alone.. to face the morning dawn,
I knew what I was in for.. I knew how this would end..
I knew I loved you from the start.. and I'd always call you friend,
I don't regret one minute.. of time I spent with you..
If asked if I would do it again.. you know what I would do,
You gave to me a gift, so precious and surreal...
What I haven't felt in 30 years, and the last I ever will,


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steve, 1 november 2023

Lonely Doesn't Even Come Close

I thought we had something special, a friendship made to last...
We've been through so much together, while both letting go of the past,
I thought that I could control it, no longer it controlled me...
But you walked in and our eyes met, how wrong could I possibly be,
What am I supposed to do, with feelings that tear me apart...
So much for thinking I'm stronger, I have no control of my heart,
Am I to walk away from you, am I supposed to say goodbye...
That's not something I can do, it'd be easier just to die,
There are no words left to describe, the feelings I harbor for you...
"Lonely doesn't come close", but it couldn't be more true.


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steve, 24 october 2023

"I Failed"

There's nothing in this world, I want more than you...
Without you, there is nothing I have the will to do,
I can't face another day, wondering where you are...
Nor drown away the memories, sitting in some bar,
If I never reach you, how am I to live?
When the only thing that matters, is something you won't give,
I would give my life tonight, just to be with you...
For no one else in this world, makes me feel the way you do,
But alas my life has ended, for I can't reach your heart...
And I can see no reason, from this world, I shouldn't part.
For what is life without you, like a day without a night...
No end and no beginning, as I sit alone and write,
If only you cared about me, then you'd finally see...
That you are the only place in life, where I wish to be.
But I failed to make you understand and failed to make you care...
Let the execution of my soul, be the answer to my prayer.,


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steve, 24 october 2023

"No Regrets"

It's not easy when you're here, time hasn't eased the pain...
And I'm not yet strong enough, that I can break the chains,
I thought that I was stronger, till you came into view...
But when my eyes met yours, I already knew,
You still have my heart, as I'm hanging by a thread...
And I still carry regret, for words I never said,
It's my last chance to reach you if you'll only let me in...
I'll show you what you've never felt, and never will again,
You have nothing to lose, and everything to gain...
I don't want to say goodbye, but I'm weary of the pain,
I know that your uncertain, on a road you've never been...
So take my hand, let me lead, and this journey will begin,
I promise "no regrets", if you'll let me touch your heart...
And I will keep it close to mine until the day I part.


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steve, 22 october 2023

"Strength In Numbers""

I pray I go to heaven when my days come to an end...
But heaven came to me, the day that you walked in,,
I've never seen more beautiful when you come into view...
The world around me disappears, all I see is you,
I have no words to describe.. when I lay my hands on you...
For no one else in this world.. could I feel the things I do,
You don't even have a clue.. how much you mean to me...
And I will never burden you.. for someone you can't be,
You keep your feelings buried, so you won't come apart...
You try so hard to hide it, but I see into your heart,
I feel the pain inside you, but you won't let me in...
You keep pushing me away, you forget that I'm your friend,
Anything.. is what I'd do.. to see you smile again...
And anything I didn't do.. would have to be a sin,
I can't cure what ails you, but I can ease your pain...
I can't stop the storm, but I can shield you from the rain,
Remember "strength in numbers", as the willow learns to bend...
Your not facing life alone, as long as you have friends.


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steve, 19 october 2023

"All Eternity"

I'm standing at a crossroads.. as time just passes by...
They say time waits for no man.. and it does no good to cry,
I watch the years pass by me.. and watch friends come and go...
You lose some of the ones you love.. as time will take its toll,
I doubt that you will understand.. when I look at you I stare...
But I've loved you for a thousand years.. and a time when you did care,
Just this once. let down your walls.. and let my heart come in...
And I will take you to a place... I know you've never been,
I'm waiting for an invite.. that can only come from you...
Praying for a green light.. instead of midnight blue,
I don't know how to ask again... but I'll give it one more try...
As the flames you sparked so long ago.. still refuse to die,
It's like you have a spell on me.. and I have no control...
As I dream about you every night.. why can't I just let go,
Let me pretend.. there's something more.. and lay my hands on you...
Let me show you who I am... before our time is through,
You don't have to look at me.. just close your eyes and dream...
Life is rarely black and white.. and never as it seems,
You don't have to do a thing... you don't even have to care...
And when the morning sunlight comes... I'll be far away from there,
You don't have to say the words.. or even say my name...
But I promise if you give me time.. you'll never feel the same,
I have no expectations... I have only love for you...
I hope you find it in your heart.. to see beyond whats true,
I'll ask once more... hear my words and give this gift to me...
And I will place it in my heart.. for "all eternity".


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steve, 19 october 2023

"No More"

No one really gives a dam.. what I feel inside...
They don't know what lonely is.. or just how much I've cried,
I don't care what people say.. when my back is turned...
My whole life I've had to fight.. and every scar I've earned,
I'm never going to have the love.. that other people share...
Love is pain and hard to find... while life is seldom fair,
I need to have someone... I can run to now and then...
And spend a little time with.. who's a little more than friend,
Someone who gets lonely too... someone who is free...
Someone who is not afraid.. to give themselves to me,
If only for an hour.. to chase away the rain...
Where lonely isn't welcome.. as you leave behind the pain,
There's nothing that you have to say.. nothing you must do..
All I ask is to come in.. and I'll take care of you,
And when the sky turns grey again.. and lonely's at the door...
Together we can face the storm, til lonely is "no more"


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steve, 19 october 2023

"My Wife"

There's so much that I want to say.. but the words I cannot find...
Though day or night it's all the same. your always on my mind,
I knew the road I'd chosen.. wouldn't always be so clear...
With twists and turns and one-way signs.. that finally led me here,
But I never for a moment.. since the day you said "I Do"...
Thought I'd see a sunrise.. or wake up without you,
I am at a loss for words.. as I stumble through the days...
What I used to see so clearly.. has now become a haze,
I try to reckon in my heart.. just where that I went wrong...
And how I let.. slip through my hands.. the love that you had shown,
You made your vows of love to me.. "till death do we part"...
For thirty years.. is just one chance.. too much to ask your heart?
When I made vows of love to you..and you became my wife...
I thought we'd grow.. to be as one.. until the end of life,
Don't let the love we had so long.. just wither on the vine...
Don't break this heart beyond repair.. and say that you'r not mine,
Don't disappear beneath me.. or let us fade away...
To let go after thirty years.. is just too much to pay,
I would climb a mountain.. or swim in the ocean blue...
And if I'm taking my last breath.. my thoughts will be of you,
Don't give up on what we had.. or what we'll have again...
Our love was like a fairy tale.. and can be that way again,
I'm sorry if I let you down.. if you thought I didn't care...
Your my world.. Your my wife.. there's nothing that compares.


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steve, 18 october 2023

"In My Head"

The wind blows gently through the trees, as I stare up at the moon...
While the leaves are all dancing in the moon light, that looks like a big white ballon,
I sit here with thoughts of you in my head, stuck in the same lucid dream...
Hoping and praying someday I'll get through, in a life that is not what it seems,
It's a heart breaking tragedy, the one that I love, is stuck in a preconceived hell...
Effectively closing any doors that I've opened, ensuring my chances to fail,
How do I reach you before it's too late, as the hour glass sand runs out...
How do I show you what we stand to lose, if I can't make you let go of doubt,
Please give me a chance I'll give all that I have, to save us from dying alone...
Let go of the doubt to what lies ahead, we could find what we've never known.


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steve, 16 october 2023

Scarlet Blue

I wish things could be different, as my world is "scarlet blue"...
If only it were black & white, as is my love for you,
I wouldn't sit here crying, over things I cannot change...
As cupid hits me yet again, when he knows your out of range,
I'll never lay beside you, on a moonlight summer night...
Never feel your lips on mine, never hold you tight,
I'll never feel your touch, caress any part of me...
And I can't even fathom, what love from you could be,
My whole world is "scarlet blue", when you're not around...
A grain of sand on an endless beach, hoping to be found,
A dream without an ending, no answer to a prayer...
Live this life pretending, that I don't really care.


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steve, 16 october 2023

Finally Realize

You'll give away to anyone, what I need from you....
I'll beg, I'll cry, I'll plead, but I just can't get through,
My pain and tears of anguish, fall upon deaf ears...
You could end in minutes, what I have felt for years,
Why do you let me suffer, your supposed to be my friend?
You know from where my torment comes, why don't you make it end?
And how is it "not selfish", to leave me here to die...
I've always been there for you, but you won't even try,
Do you have "no love" for me at all, do I need to walk away?
Friendship is a two-way street, but your only going one way,
I'll love you till the day I die, do I have to wait that long?
Before you "finally realize", you couldn't be more wrong.


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steve, 16 october 2023

"Take A Chance"

I don't want to say the things, I always say to you...
And I don't want to cry the tears, that I always do,
I don't want to ask again, for something you won't give...
When your here it hurts too much, and that's no way to live,
Goodbye's the only answer, to rid me of the pain...
"Out of sight, out of mind", might just keep me sane,
It's not a choice I choose to make, it's what I have to do...
This broken heart can take no more, of living life askew,
If we'd done this, or I'd done that, if you'd given me a chance...
If you'd learn to let your heart decide, it might of said "just dance",
I'd like to think I'm more, to you than just a friend,
But you won't let me get that close, and I cannot pretend,
If you never "take a chance", on understanding something new...
How much have you missed, when it's right in front of you?
Life is taking chances, and learning as we grow...
If you never try another path, how will you ever know?
And though this is goodbye, I leave with you my heart...
It's something that belongs to you, and has from the start.


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steve, 16 october 2023

You Don't Want Me

It hurts...that you can walk away... without a second thought...
When all I do.. is think of you.. wanting to or not,
The days are long without you.. as the smile I wear's pretend...
And the black abyss.. that we call night.. seems to have no end,
I can't make you care for me.. but I can't just walk away..
Until I hear it.. from your lips.. what you have to say,
This hearts already broken.. from that old familiar pain...
But I'd wait for you forever.. even in the pouring rain,
So look into this heart once more.. beyond what you might see...
Feel the love that's there for you.. and say "you don't want me",
Tell me whats inside your heart, it's what I need to know...
Tell me that you'll never care, so at last I can let go.


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steve, 16 october 2023

"Fairy Tales"

Is it ignorance.. or denial.. that just won't let you see...
The reason pain and anger.. still dwells inside of me,
All the nights you left me.. to sit there by the phone...
All the nights I cried aloud.. and waited all alone,
All the pain you put me through..and all the lies you told...
And all I ever wanted.. was to have you there to hold,
Its as though you don't remember.. like.. you don't have a clue...
Of the sacrifaces that were made.. out love I had for you,
You've never done a single thing.. to prove your love to me...
And everything I've done for you.. you pretend you didn't see,
And yet somehow.. I'm to blame.. according to your lies...
Why place blame on anyone.. when its time to cut the ties,
I just wish I hadn't wasted, all those years on you....
But it's my fault for believing, that "fairy tales" come true.


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steve, 25 july 2023

"The Only Way"

I can't make you look at me, the way I look at you...
And I can't show you what I feel unless you want me to,
I didn't want to love you, but my heart got in the way...
Wanting to believe there's a chance that you might stay,
You think it's only physical, but I've so much more inside...
It breaks my heart to know, there's no crossing that divide,
I believed in happy endings, fairy tales, and dreams...
But life is hard, love is pain, and nothing as it seems,
I don't know what to say, that I haven't said before...
I've cried a river of tears, to be washed up on the shore,
I need you in my life, but I have to say goodbye...
My heart needs time to heal, but won't if I don't try,
Sometimes goodbye"s the only way, when there's nothing left to do...
Goodbye would be so easy if I weren't in love with you.


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steve, 9 july 2023

I Wouldn't

I just want to touch you, as your heart beats next to mine...
And breathe in your aroma, which smells like Forrest pine,
I don't want to care about, all the pain I feel...
And though I fell in love with you, I know you never will,
I don't want to know the love, that I will live without...
For heavy is the burden, when you have a heart devout,
I wish I'd never met you, then love would pass me by...
I'd have no broken heart, nor these tears that I cry,
I wouldn't cry myself to sleep, I wouldn't say your name...
Through tears I wouldn't to ask myself, why you don't feel the same,
I wouldn't need to see you or care that you don't care...
You wouldn't haunt my dreams at night, with desires I can't bare,
If only letting go of you, was an easy thing to do...
Goodbye would be so easy if I weren't in love with you.


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steve, 5 may 2023

Do It All Again

I've made every mistake, that one possibly could...
Every bad decision, instead of what I should,
My life is about regrets, and things I didn't say...
If I could "do it all again", it wouldn't be this way,
Many years have passed, since you left this town...
And countless beers I've put away, to keep you're memory down,
But I still drive by you're old house, to see if you are there...
I haven't met a person yet, with you I could compare,
I should have told you how I felt, so many years ago...
And never let you walk away, from things you didn't know,
But you will never know of, the love I feel for you...
And I could never forget, you're eyes of sapphire blue,
I don't know why I held back, or let you walk away...
I only know it's one regret, that I feel everyday,
If only I could turn back time, there's one thing I won't do...
For I would change everything, except my love for you.


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steve, 9 february 2023

Time Won't Stop

You say that I don't give, the kind of love you need...
I say to have a forest, you first must plant a seed,
It isn't that there isn't love, it's not like I don't care...
It's just the things that matter most, are things that we don't share,
I don't need to tell you, again the way I feel...
For if you cannot hear me, these wounds will never heal,
There's not a day that passes, that your not in my heart...
And not a day that passes, that we don't tear apart,
I've heard it's just a fine line, between what's love and hate...
But the clock for us is ticking, and "time won't stop" to wait,
I wonder if things were different how happy we could be...
If we break the chains of anger, and set our spirits free,
As long as we hold to pain, these chains will hold us down...
And we'll look back at what was lost and love we never found,
I don't know if you hear me, or if were too far gone...
But I'm out here on this ledge alone, for us I'm holding on.


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steve, 18 january 2023

"Lonely For Too Long"

I'm sorry for what I said.. that turned your heart to stone...
But the love that drew me close to you.. is what I've never known,
I never meant to push you.. or turn your heart away...
I thought the strength I felt in you.. might help me find my way,
I don't know what I've done.. but the rain keeps pouring down...
As this broken heart cries out for love.. that's nowhere to be found,
I'm sorry for the friendship.. that I never got to hold...
Or the truth that's in my heart... I should have never told,
For the shoulder, I can't cry on.. for whatever I did wrong...
Forgive a broken man.. who's been lonely for too long.


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steve, 18 january 2023

Never There

If you can't feel my love, above anything you've known...
After everything I've done and everything I've shown,
If you can't hear the words, that I speak to only you...
And know there from my heart, and every word is true,
If you can't see a time, that has peeled away the years...
Knowing time is running out, as are all my tears,
If you can't give to me, the only chance I need...
As you cut me with your words, and I just stand and bleed,
If you'd rather have the fantasies, that live inside your head...
Instead of flesh and blood, that can take your heart to bed,
If you let me walk away because you say that you don't care...
Then you're doing me a favor, because you were "never there".


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steve, 18 january 2023

Out Of Words

I've run "out of words" to say to you... but don't want to say goodbye...
Or let go of the dreams I've held... believing we could fly,
But one believing is not enough.. for love must be two...
No matter how hard the truth is to face... I'll never wake up with you,
I've carried this torch for so long.. my world beginning to burn...
As flames blow up all around me.. my life I cannot discern,
It's as though I'm under a spell.. and can focus no farther than you...
And try as I might to break down your walls... I've yet to ever get threw,
I don't know how long I can hold on... I don't know if you'll ever see...
I think I should throw my dreams to the wind.. and hope it sets my heart free.


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steve, 18 january 2023

Something That You Gave

When at last we are accustomed.. to shoulder what we load...
Life will put a curve.. on a straight and narrow road...
No matter what the obstacle.. that's placed in front of you...
You rise to the challenge.. and what you have to do,
It's a trait that I admire.. it shows how strong you are...
It makes me proud to know you.. and how you've come so far,
The strength you have within you.. that others clearly see...
Was "something that you gave".. and made a better man of me,
It's a reason I was drawn to you... like the moth is to a flame...
It wasn't just your beauty.. this heart had longed to tame,
Your spirit is so complex ... with sides that you've kept stowed...
Or a stallion that runs free.. no man has ever rode,
I look up when I see you... what you gave to me is real...
Strength, love, and hope.. are the things you make me feel.


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steve, 18 january 2023

Anytime Anywhere

I know we've had our share, of arguments and fights...
But I just want to lay with you, and turn out all the lights,
I want to put the past, behind where it belongs...
And make up for the things, we have both done wrong,
I want to put you first, and be here every night...
And when you've had a hard day, I want to make it right,
To show you that I love you, and just how much I care...
For you will never be alone, I am always there,
There's no one that I need, I need only you...
And I'm hoping that you feel the same way that I do,
I'll do anything for you, anytime, anywhere...
You don't have to ask, you just have to care,


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steve, 9 june 2022

"Love Equals Pain"

I wish I'd never met you, then my heart would still be mine...
And I wouldn't cry myself to sleep, pretending everything is fine,
I wish I'd never talked to you, or even heard your name...
It hurts so much when your not here, I'll never be the same,
I wish that I could turn back time, to the day before we met...
So I could turn and run as far away as I could get,
I wish that you could feel, the pain that I must bear...
Only then could you understand, just how much I care,
But it really doesn't matter, that I'm in love with you...
One plus love equals pain, for love, there must be two,
Nothing that I've ever done, has made you care for me...
So please have mercy on my heart, and just set me free.


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steve, 28 april 2022

Wish Upon A Falling Star

I sit here on a stary night.. but my thoughts belong to you...
I wish upon a falling star.. in hopes it will come true,
The nights keep getting longer.. and days just come and go...
And I can't help but wonder.. about the love I used to know,
I had hopes and dreams, and plans.. to build my life with you...
And I used to think you felt the same.. but I don't think you do,
I thought our love was strong enough.. to weather any storm...
I used to feel your passion burn.. now its barely warm,
I used to feel the love.. when you told me that you care...
But now I can't remember.. the last good time we shared,
I miss your hands upon me... I long to feel your touch...
I don't think they'll ever be.. someone I love as much,
There goes yet another star.. as it streaks across the sky...
And here goes yet another wish.. that we don't say goodbye,
So I wish upon this falling star.. that the love we had is true...
And may it bring you home to me, with love that we once knew.


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steve, 28 april 2022

What's To Lose

Do you know how hard it is for me.. to know that you are there?
Do you know how many tears I've cried.. to hide how much I care,
I sit here thinking about you.. as the tears roll down my face...
All alone again tonight.. I just wanna get out of this place,
I want to run into your arms.. and hold you all night long...
I want to kiss .. and say "I Love You" .. I don't care whats right or wrong,
I need you to feel whats in my heart.. things I'm afraid to say...
I want you to care when were apart.. and tell me your gonna stay,
It may not last.. people change.. and life's not carved in stone...
But any chance.. beats no chance.. when lonely's all you've known,
What's to loose.. but your heart.. for mines already gone...
It belong's to you.. and always has.. from dusk to breaking dawn.


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steve, 28 april 2022

Wanted You To Know

I can't live without you.. I don't even want to try...
All I do is sit around.. asking myself why,
Why did you stop loving me..and why it hurts so bad...
If I'd done the things I didn't do.. would you be here if I had,
My mind just keeps on racing... and my heart just pounds away ...
And time is running out.. for the things I need to say,
I feel as though I'm spinning.. and there's nothing I can do...
But I need to tell you.. just how much.. that I'm in love with you,
I'm sorry for all the things.. I've done to let you down...
I should have been a better man.. than the one you found,
I'm sorry if I hurt you.. and if I wasn't there...
But there was not a moment past.. for you I didn't care,
No matter what the future holds.. and if it didn't show...
There's nothing I loved more than you... "I wanted you to know."


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steve, 28 april 2022

What Keeps Me Holding On

What is it about you.. that draws me close to you...
That keeps you in my thoughts.. no matter what I do,
That won't let me forget.. what it was we shared...
That won't let me forget.. you never really cared,
Why is it that my heart breaks.. each time I hear your name...
And nothing in my life.. without you is the same,
The seasons of my life.. have brought the autumn leaves...
Still, every time you touch me.. I can barely breath,
"What keeps me holding on".. to dreams just out of reach...
Or won't let me stop pounding.. on walls I'll never breach,
Why can't I just let go.. and watch you walk away...
For nothing in my world.. could ever make you stay,
Why is "love" the one thing.. that no one can control...
And still the only thing.. that makes a person whole,
Why can't my heart accept.. "the truth, of reasons why"...
And learn to say hello again.. each time I say goodbye.


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steve, 22 october 2021

"Never To Love Again"

How do I tell my heart, never to love again...
To let go of my dreams, to never touch your skin,
To never breath you're fragrance, you're intoxicating scent...
That renders me a slave, to whatever you're intent,
How do I tell my mind, that you're no good for me...
Pain is not the answer, because we disagree,
How do I let go, of the reason my heartbeats...
As my every waking thoughts, are of you beneath my sheets,
Why should I even care, when you don't care at all...
As once again this broken heart, takes another fall.
To never see you again, to turn and walk away...
To know the words we speak, are the last we'll ever say,


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steve, 27 january 2021

Never

You will "never" feel the same...
It pierced my heart.. with deadly aim,
I guess there's nothing I can do...
That will ever get me close to you,
My heart screams out... in silent pain...
Alone again... in the rain,
Knowone hears me... no one cares...
And only "God", can hear my prayers,
Right or wrong... what I feel...
This broken heart... will never heal,
A hallow soul... now dwells in me...
Crying out... to be set free,
But I am shackled... to what I feel...
My heart is hostage... my fate is sealed,
Love will "never"... know my name...
For you will "never" feel the same.


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steve, 6 november 2020

Burning Flame

It cuts just like a knife, every time I hear your name...
And I feel the blood just drain away, as we start to play the game,
You're never going to give me, the part of you I need...
And I'm never going to let you know, just how much I bleed,
The tears rain down inside my head, and I am washed away...
As this heart is broken once again, by things I couldn't say,
I tried to hide this "burning flame", but I got too close to you...
Now my world is burning down, and there's nothing I can do,
Even tears can't douse the flames, as I begin to burn...
And the pain that only lonely brings, is far too strong to turn,
My heart's desire in front of me... and yet a world away...
But I'd give this life to feel your love, if only for a day.


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steve, 6 november 2020

She Lives

Trapped inside myself, there's no place I can hide,
No escape, no salvation, only years of tears I've cried,
You don't know what it does to me, when you come into view...
How it tears me up inside, because I'm in love with you,
Knowing you will never care, or ever touch my skin...
Or ever really get to know, the person that I am,
Trapped and all alone, bottled up for years...
She'll never have her freedom... but she can have her tears,
No one even knows... that she lives at all...
The chains that hold her down, keep her shackled to her walls,
She'll never see the light of day, she'll never be set free...
Though she loves, she'll not be loved, such is destiny.


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steve, 6 november 2020

What Am I Doing?

I can't hear your tortured thoughts, or see what you've been through...
But I can feel your pain from here, through miles of missing you,
I'm sorry if I made you think, somehow I didn't care...
I never meant to bring to you, feelings of despair,
I care so much from my heart, it swells the fear in me...
I'll ask myself "What am I doing?" I clearly cannot see,
I have no right to put on you, what I think I need...
No matter how much pain I feel, no matter what I bleed,
A world away what do I have, that could ever make you see...
All I have to offer you, is all I have of me,


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steve, 6 november 2020

Time

Time has kept me prisoner, with the dreams I have of you...
Keeping me awake each night, with things that I can't do,
Slowing down the hands of time, in the middle of the night...
Minutes turn to hours, as time holds back the light,
It's only in the darkest hour, that time is standing still...
When I miss you most of all, time only you could fill,
Dreams are all I have of you, as time keeps you at bey...
But even time must run it's course, as time just ticks away,
And when the time has finally passed, just maybe we'll both see...
How precious time really is, and what our time could be.


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steve, 20 august 2020

Passion

There's a passion that burns, between you and I,
Igniting a spark, that could light up the sky,
So hot is the fire, that burns through the night,
It blurs out the difference, of what's wrong or what's right,
All that I wanted, was for love to take hold...
I could feel the fire that burned,
With white-hot emotion, that was out of control...
and flames that wouldn't be turned,
But how is there love, and a passion so strong,
When two minds can't meet and every things wrong,
With no understanding, and nowhere to turn,
Like throwing gas on a fire, stand back let it burn,
When the backfires are lit, there's no turning back...
as another lesson is learned,
But I knew all along, the danger involved...
play with fire, you always get burned,
I did not want to lose us, but it seems I have...
as the flames have burned us down,
And as I walk through the rubble, of what's left of my life...
not a thing is left to be found.


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steve, 20 august 2020

Why Is It

"Why is it".. that you make me feel what I haven't felt in years...
And why every time I see you do my eyes just fill with tears,
Why do I have to touch myself every time you walk away...
As the flames inside consume me all I want is you to stay,
I've tried to reach inside you to somehow touch your heart...
But I'm no closer to you now than I was right from the start,
The fortress you have built is strong with walls too high to climb...
But I'd give my life to breach them all and claim your heart as mine,
"Why is it".. that you look away when I look into your eyes...
I can feel the pain inside of you that you desperately disguise,
What hell have you been living that keeps you far away...
That won't let anyone get near and keeps your heart at bey,
Like breachless walls of titanium, there's nothing you've left bare...
So "why is it" I can't let go, when I know you'll never care...


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steve, 15 june 2020

"No Guarantees"

It hurts too much to see you, I have to back away...
When you're here, I can't pretend, that everything's ok,
The clock hands just stop moving.. when lonely's how you feel...
Your moving in slow motion.. as though time was standing still...
The night is long and empty.. as you're waiting for a call...
But it soon becomes transparant.. like the shadows on the wall,
Minutes turned to hours.. and the hours drift away...
As darkness finally yields itself.. to the light it kept at bey,
You could play me like a fiddle.. you could break this heart in two...
You could look into these eyes.. and see my love for you,
For love is knowing some things.. are neither wrong nor right...
And what we see through different eyes.. won't be just black and white,
You could say the things you mean.. and mean the things you say...
You could give to me my heart's desire.. and then just walk away,
But love is not a fairy tale.. and it gives "no guarantees"...
And "happy ever after"... is something few will see,
So I'm taking back my heart, while I'm still in control...
It's not something that you earned, it's something that you stole.


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steve, 15 june 2020

Blue

If you ever wonder why my heart is always blue...
It's not hard to find the answer, because I'm in love with you,
I know that your afraid, to be where I now stand...
To tear down all the walls you've built, and give to me your hand,
To lay your heart out on the line, to bare your soul to me...
To trust me in that guarded space, that only love should be,
I'd never want to hurt you or cause you any pain...
I'd keep your heart right next to mine, and shield you from the rain,
I'll show you love you've never known, and hold your heart above...
And there will be no doubt at all, to weather I do love,
For all the joys that love would bring, together we would share...
To say goodbye to lonely night, and know I'll always care,
If these words were not my own, but words you said to me...
My heart would never cry again, and blue would never be.


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steve, 9 may 2020

"I Keep Holding On"

I keep holding on for love... that I know will never be...
Unless you look beyond ... to what's inside of me,
I'm not like anyone... that you've ever known before...
But you won't see what's inside me.. if you stand behind the door,
You always leave me breathless.. what's a man to do...
For I can barely breathe at all.. when you walk into the room,
I'll lie here in the darkness.. calling out your name...
But nothing in this world.. could make you feel the same,
Just one chance to touch you.. as the fire rages on...
Completely out of my control.. until the breaking dawn,
I know just where I stand... but my heart will not let go...
Tell me what am I to do.. with love that I can't show,
My heart won't set me free.. no matter what I do..
It's holding on for love.. because it belongs to you...


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steve, 8 may 2020

"Great Divide"

Do you know how hard it is for me.. to lay it on the line...
To look you in the eyes and know... the only feeling's "mine",
To tell you what I feel for you.. and what I dream about...
To risk it all.. for the truth.. and let there be no doubt,
Did you know that every time you pass... I can't look away...
As the world around me disappears... when you look at me that way,
Did you know that I would walk through fire.. just to stand with you...
Knowing you don't care at all... but in my heart .. I Do,
Your eyes are like blue diamonds... even stars can not compare...
And I'd walk a thousand miles more... if I knew that you'd be there,
All of this for just one chance... to feel you by my side...
To take your hand and look at you... to cross the great divide,
On my knees and through my tears... if it's what I had to do...
I'd give my life without regret... and I'd do it all for you.


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steve, 6 may 2020

"Out Of Time"

I heard a familiar voice today... I turned and it was you...
And all the strength I thought I had... was something I construed,
I almost fell down on my knees... as I silently cried your name...
But I had to keep my tears inside... because you don't feel the same,
We laughed and talked and all the while... the tears were pouring down...
And I cried a river of tears for you... but I wished that I had drowned,
Life is cold and hard... when you're living it alone...
When there's no one in your life to love... it can turn your heart to stone,
Everything I feel for you... I keep locked up inside...
Because I can't ask you once again... to cross that great divide,
I felt my knees begin to shake... if you only knew,
It takes my breath away every time... to get that close to you...
I just want to share with you... what only two can share...
And fill my heart with memories... instead of lost despair.
To lay down close beside you... to feel your skin touch mine...
To let my heart love again... before I'm "out of time,"


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steve, 28 april 2020

"Yesterday"

I don't like to think about... how the years have slipped away...
But everytime I think of us... it seems like yesterday,
I think about the times we shared... as two young lover's would...
If only I could turn back time... then you know I would,
But we were young and reckless... and the winds of change did blow...
And I never thought I'd ever be... someone you used to know,
The years have pulled us far apart... from what it used to be...
And I wonder what your life is now...  do you ever think of me,
I've not found a single one... that I'd compare to you...
I held perfection in my hands... and let it slip right threw,
Regrets for what I didn't do... keep me living in the past...
There's so much that I want to say... but your not here to ask,
The hollow darkness screams your name... as the echo fades away...
And I am left here all alone... with only yesterday.


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steve, 21 april 2020

"What is Right"

I guess I never thought about... all the reasons why...
Or the circumstance created.. that can make good people lie,
I couldn't see beyond my walls... I could only see my needs...
But the truth is that we all hurt and everybody bleeds,
Life is more than living... it's learning as you go...
It's taking someone by the hand... and teaching what you know,
It's about growing far beyond... what we think we understand...
And letting go finite thoughts... that have always held back man,
It's learning how to speak the truth... and learning to forgive...
Knowing that we're all the same... with just one life to live,
It's learning to be humble... to share with those in need...
To always stand for "what is right"... and never to concede,
To know that you are not alone... our needs are all the same...
Your my brother, she's my sister... we just have different names,     
There is always strength in numbers... so when despair comes into view...
Just know that when united... there's nothing we can't do...


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steve, 26 march 2020

"Wasn't Enough"

What can I say.. that hasn't been said...
Of dreams I had.. that now, are all dead,
Love wasn't enough to help you to see...
All that you had.. when you still had me,
And it wasn't enough.. that I've always been here...
As you make up excuses.. to just disappear,
And love wasn't enough.. as you still raised your hand...
While love trickled away... like hourglass sand,
Bruises and blood... heartache and pain...
What you called love... I call insane,
I know that it hurts... I've been hurting for years...
As I try to explain away all the tears,
Now it's too late... there's nothing to save...
There's only goodbye... as I walk away.


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steve, 26 march 2020

"Your Wish Is My Command"

I think about you all the time.. "much more" than I'd admit...
For you are the addiction...  I can't bring myself to quit,
I can't let go these dreams of you.. and I can't walk away...
And just a fragment of a chance.. is enough to make me stay,
You've but to say the words.. for "your wish is my command"...
There's nothing that I wouldn't do.. for you are my last stand,
I only want to love you.. and lay down by your side...
My heart is weary from the tears.. and the years that I have tried,
Is it wrong to want to feel the part.. of you that few will see?
To take you by the hand.. and show what lives inside of me,
I can't make you care at all.. if its something you don't feel...
And to spend the night... if I must fight.. then I don't think I will,
If you can't see what's in my heart... by now if you don't know...
Then break these chains that bind my heart... and I will turn and go.


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steve, 26 march 2020

"Here and Now"

When I ask to spend some time with you, and I get no reply...
I just want to turn and run, so you won't see me cry,
I know that I am not what you want, but I've got what you need...
So give me half a chance with you, don't make me beg and plead,
I'm not asking to be your boyfriend, I'm not asking for your hand...
I just want to spend some time, and try to understand,
To show you something you've not seen, to go where you've not been...
To pick you up when you fall down, so you can start again,
You know what my heart feels for you, is out of my control...
And everything that's good in me, is reaching for your soul,
Darkness is so lonely when you spend your nights alone...
And the echo's of your yesterdays, are the seeds you have sewn,
No one knows the future, where here and then we're gone...
So let me hold your heart to mine, until the morning dawn,
For I have more to offer than I'm given credit for...
And if you'd just surrender, I could show you so much more,
The future hasn't happened yet, and the past is yesterday...
It's "here and now" that matters most, just tell me that you'll stay.


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steve, 25 march 2020

"Long Ago"

I used to dream about you, now those are days gone by...
I learned too well the hard way, how you could make me cry,
I can't explain why I'm drawn to you, because I don't even know...
Maybe in another life, I loved you long ago,
When I'd look into your eyes, it'd take my breath away...
And words did not come easy, for things I wished to say,
I'd gaze upon your beauty, and the world would disappear...
While life goes on around me, it's only you, I'd hear,
I wanted just to love you, the only way I know...
Like a dream the haunts me every night, from a life of long ago,
I thought I knew what love is, but I've never felt such pain...
Tear my heart out of my chest, then do it all again,
I know that you will never care, I know that I'm alone...
I know that you will break my heart because your's is made of stone,
And though the storm is coming, I still want to try...
Because it's easier to say "I love you"... then it is to say "goodbye".


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steve, 7 january 2020

"I Am Not"

Please forgive me Father.. for the man "I am not"...
As the sin in me is stronger.. then the love I never got,
I thought I'd follow my heart.. but it just led me astray...
So far away from you... I've forgotten how to pray,
Forgive me for believing... I could make it on my own...
I never meant to leave you.. or lose my way back home,
Forgive me for my weakness.. that keeps me lost in sin...
Thank you for the love you give.. that brings me back again,
Without you there is nothing.. and hope could never live...
Life would have no meaning.. without the love you give,
Forgive me for the love I feel.. that keeps my heart in chains...
Help me, Father, do your will... there's so much more to gain,
Give me your strength when I am weak.. your love when I have none..
Bring me home to be with you.. the Father and the Son.


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steve, 9 november 2019

"Morning Light"

If you wake up all alone .. and need someone who cares..
If the weight upon you're shoulders .. becomes too much to bear,
If lonely starts to haunt you.. in the middle of the night..
Or you need someone to hold on to.. who'll hold you just as tight,
If you need someone to talk to.. who would never lie to you..
And won't candy-coat the story.. who stands up for the truth,
If you're tired of the rat race.. and need to get away..
Or need to be taken care of .. if only for a day,
You have but to call me.. and you know that I'll be there..
There's nothing that I wouldn't do.. my soul to you I'd bare,
You're the light in the distance.. that overcomes the dark..
You're the fire that's ignited .. whenever there's a spark,
You're my dream when I'm sleeping.. the answer to a prayer...
I'm the one you can call.. when you think that no one cares,
Just remember that I'm out here.. a lifeline in the night..
Wanting to be with you .. until the "morning light".


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steve, 6 november 2019

"Too Late"

I tried to protect my heart.. to keep it away from you...
To never let you get too close... no matter what you do,
I tried to build a wall.. too high for you to climb.
Something that's so ominous.. you wouldn't waste the time,
I thought I'd make no sound.. so you wouldn't know my voice...
We'd never have to look away.. and say we had no choice,
And I tried to leave no trail.. that you might follow me...
I thought if I'm invisible.. there'd be nothing there to see,
But you did touch my heart.. and you didn't even try...
I thought it was safely hidden.. I didn't know you could fly,
You scaled the walls with precision.. walls that no one could climb..
I thought my heart was well hidden.. but was only a matter of time, 
I didn't have to say a word.. you knew me all along...
You broke through every defense I had.. when I thought that I was strong,
You took my heart a prisoneer.. and didn't even know...
And left me in a place... I couldn't dream to go,
I never told you how I felt.. before you went away...
I never told you that I cared.. and I care every day,
Now you're gone and it's too late.. to cross that great divide...
Regrets and tears are all I have.. for never having tried.


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steve, 2 november 2019

"Just Some Friend"

It's hard to even come around .. and pretend I'm "just some friend"...
When I look into those deep blue eyes... I'm drifting on the wind,
Your beauty leaves me breathless.. when you come into view...
I lose all sense of any thoughts.. as all thoughts turn to you...
I try to be like other friends.. but your other friends aren't gay...
And awkward moments when I'm with you.. reveal what I can't say,
I can barely breathe at all.. when I get too close to you...
So forgive me if I can't stay long.. for I can't hide the truth,
The tears rain down inside of me..and the river's overflow...
It's not a truth I want to share... but I've no place else to go,
I feel I'm hanging by a thread.. and no one has a clue...
As I try to hide what I feel, but all I want is you,
I can hear the echoes of laughter... when my back is turned...
I know whats it's like to be sacrificed... when your set on fire and burned,
But such is the cost when your different... for some people love to hate...
I just wanted the chance to feel love again... as the hourglass sand slips away.


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steve, 25 october 2019

"Fly Away"

I guess I should let go... as you want no part of me...
And never get to know the part.. that I will never see,
The part of you I've longed for.. the part I've never known...
The part that's kept behind closed doors... a fortress made of stone,
I know just where I stand .. you can't help the way you feel...
We can't control what's in our heart.. or expect it to be still,
And though my true desire.. runs deeper than the sea...
Sometimes we have to bury pain.. before we can be free,
And I will not forget you... I wouldn't even try...
Does the moon forget the stars.. as they share the evening sky?                                     
I must take my love and "fly away".. while the winds beneath my wings...
But you will always have my heart.. and I'll always have my dreams.


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steve, 24 october 2019

"No Words"

Though all you have for me is hate... I'll always care for you...
Because nothing that you said.. made me feel the way you do,
Am I supposed to walk away.. and never say your name...
Never dream of you again.. and pretend there is no pain,
Tell myself to just let go .. you never cared for me...
And put my broken heart away.. that I wore on my sleeve,
Because my whole world got darker.. when you said goodbye...
And though you wouldn't know it .. I'd think of you and cry,
I don't know what I did.. that would turn your heart to stone...
But when you said goodbye to me .. it hurt right to the bone,
Any thoughts of touching you.. have all dissolved away...  
And any dreams I had of us.. will never see the day,
So I try hard to not think about.. the last time I saw you...
I don't want to feel your hate.. much less believe it's true,
You took me by complete surprise .. I had "no words" to say...
And I can't fight the one I love ..  I had to walk away,
I thought that we were stronger than any play on words...
I thought that we were friends.. but I guess that's been deferred,
It's not easy letting go .. but you know I can't hold on...
If that's the way you really feel.. you're already gone,
I'll just have to face the dark.. the way I always do...
Shed some tears before I sleep.. and wake up without you.


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steve, 3 september 2019

"Holding On"

I've been "holding on" for life, for love, for us, for me...
I thought the storm would pass by now, so that we both may see,
But the skies are even darker, than they were the day before...
And the distant sound of thunder, says that soon the rain will pour,
The cold wind stings, and takes its toll, each time that we lash out...
And it's one step back, from where we were, when you live in love and doubt,
The rain pours down upon me, I've been holding on so long...
I thought by now you'd know me, but I've never been so wrong,
The stars once shined above our heads, now it seems like its been years...
And I haven't seen a clear night yet, but it's hard to see through tears,
And I wonder if the chance we had, is all we threw away...
Or just how much, that we have lost, for things we didn't say.


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steve, 27 august 2019

"Man On Fire"

I feel a fire raging.. deep down in my soul...
White hot flames are burning.. and know ones in control,
You can't know just how I feel.. and know one has a clue...
Of the fire raging inside me... when all I want is you,
I wish that I could tell you.. exactly how I feel...
Instead of stepping lightly.. while trying to conceal,
Life is more exciting.. when I look into your eyes...
I can feel every heart beat.. as my blood begins to rise, 
Everything inside of me... I'm trying to control...
Like a moth to a flame-... I can feel it in my soul,
I wish that you could look at me... the way you look at her...
So I could feel the passion.. the way we never were,
To know the love inside your heart..or the heat beneath your skin..
There's nothing that I wouldn't do..  that I wouldn't do again,
I know the dreams I have of you.. live only in my head..
And any tears that have to fall.. are tears that I have shed,
I know that you don't understand.. why would you even care...
For you don't know the depth of love.. for you my heart must bear,
And though I cannot say out loud.. my true hearts desire..
You can see me from a hundred miles.. for I'm the "man on fire".


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steve, 27 august 2019

"Monsoon"

There's a "monsoon" pouring down... in my heart and in my head...
And I can't stop the rain... from things that have been said,
The torrent that is rushing by... is washing me away...
And the years keep coming faster... leaving only yesterday,
Dreams I used to carry... have turned to nothing more...
Then vessels on the water... never reaching any shore,
The winds of time are blowing strong... but have yet to lift my sails...
And nothing that I've done in life... have ever tipped the scales,
It's like I'm here, but I'm not... and nothing that I do...
Will change a single thing... or make me visible to you,
Sometimes when I think I'm right... everything is wrong...
The years are passing way too fast... but nights are still too long,
If I've learned anything... it's that life's not what you think...
And when it's good... hold on tight... for it passes in a blink,
So let the rains fall down upon me... let it wash all over me...
Let my tears fill the rivers ... that are heading out to sea,
Let the tides rise and wash away.. the pain we hold onto.....
And maybe give us one more chance, at love we once knew.


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steve, 29 june 2019

"Don't Look Back"

I never want to hear your name.. it reminds me of what we had...
And I don't want to feel that pain.. for nothing hurts so bad,
I have to pick up the pieces.. and just keep on moving on...
And "don't look back".. no matter what.. for what we had is gone,
I cannot hear the words you say.. it's just a convient lie...
A way to break my heart again.. as you promise to "really try",
I cannot see your beauty.. real beautys from within...
I've seen what lives inside you.. and I can't go there again,
I don't know how I loved you.. or why I love you still...
Or where the strength to leave you comes... I only know I will,
So save your words.. speak not of love.. and I'll be on my way...
As the dawns begun to light the sky.. and begin a brand new day.
                                                    sg


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steve, 29 june 2019

"One True Love"

 
As I lie here and watch you sleeping.. I can't help but crack a smile...
I feel the peace upon your face.. knowing all the while,
This is where I want to be.. with you always by my side...
Because your the reason I carry on.. my purpose and my pride,
They say that life's a circle.. but mines an uphill shot...
With winding roads.. and pain untold.. and battles yet un-fought,
If your love is my reward.. for the scars that I have earned...
Then I can walk through any fire.. and I cannot be burned,
You are my light.. you are my strength.. your a gift from "God" above...
And if ever there was a "ment to be".. you are my "one true love".
                                                sg


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steve, 28 june 2019

"Burn The Bridiges"

The sun is getting lower, as it streaks across the sky...
And the nights keep getting longer, without you by my side,
I don't know just what to do, that would turn it all around...
For everything I thought I knew, has now become unwound,
Your act is so indifferent, I'm not sure just who you are...
I used to think that we were close, but now you seem so far,
Just how is it ok, to hurt the one you love...
To not stand up for what is right, when you should rise above,
To never say you're sorry, or admit that you were wrong...
To let the ones who love you most, suffer all alone,
And what's the price we'll have to pay when the walls come tumbling down...
As you burn the bridges that we build and any love we found,
Is it pride or is it anger, that has a hold on you... 
And keeps you bound to fear and hate, in everything you do,
I've been waiting for the light within you, to awaken in your heart...
To bring to life, and back to me, what's been torn apart,
I pray our love is strong enough, and that you'll finally see...
True love can heal anything, and bring back what used to be.


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steve, 28 june 2019

"How Do I"

 
How do I bring you back.. to where we used to be...
To show whats in my heart.. and what you mean to me,
How do I heal the damage.. from angered words we say..
When the only thing that matters.. is wanting you to stay,
How do I give to you.. the love you need so bad...
When I'm not sure just how to give..what I've never had,
How do I say goodbye.. when my heart will not let go...
And the words I speak all fail me.. when my heart I try to show,
How do I live without you.. when without you I can't live...
And to hold you in my arms once more.. this life I'd gladly give.


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steve, 28 june 2019

"One Wish"

 
If I was given just one wish.. to turn my life around...
My wish would be, for you and me.. to keep what we have found,
I've many regrets and sorrows.. and paid too high a cost...
I've laughed.. I've cried.. I've run to hide.. for mistakes, and loved ones lost,
But then you walked into my life..and now the skies are blue...
It seems at last.. the rain has past.. and everything is new,
I feel that "God" has smiled at me.. for enduring all the rain...
And given me someone to love.. someone who'll ease the pain,
If I was given just "one wish"..... to turn my life around...
I'd give it back.. for what I lack.. in you these things I've found.


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steve, 25 june 2019

"Perfect Is A Fairytale"

Its when your not around.. that makes me realize...
All the things I tell myself.. are nothing more than lies,
I'll say that I don't need you.. pretending that's it's true...
But when you're gone.. and it's just me.. all I want is you,
I'll tell myself.. don't fall in love.. for love will never last...
But I know too well.. to save my heart.. the time has long since past,
I thought at last.. when I found love.. how perfect it would be...
Everything would fall in place.. and we'd never disagree,
But "perfect is a fairytale".. life is what is real...
Happy.. sad .. content..or mad.. this is what we feel,
I guess I should surrender.. I could never walk away...
For if never there was darkness.. there could never be a day,
I will always love you... and we'll always disagree...
So I will learn to look beyond.. to just the love I see.


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steve, 25 june 2019

"Turn And Walk Away"

The sun came up again today.. and though you're still not here...
I can't see a reason why... that I should shed a tear,
But I wipe my eyes.. and I go on.. to face another day...
While the shadows of your memory.. in my head begin to play,
After all the years.. after all the times.. after all that, we've been through...
How could you "turn and walk away"... while I'm still in love with you,
What more to life.. is there than love... though some shall never know...
But I can barely breathe at all.. for my heart will not let go,
What words to say to touch your heart.. and bring you back to me...
To show you all the love we had... and what it still can be,
If just once... I could turn back time.. to the day when we first met...
For one more chance to get it right.. and live without regret.


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steve, 25 june 2019

"Two Steps Back"

I've tried so hard to get along.. but all we do is fight...
And the tears I cry may fall like rain... but I'm alone again tonight,
Goodbye would be so easy.. if I wern't in love with you,
One step forward, and two steps back.. have never been so true...
It breaks my heart.. that we found love.. but were going down in flames...
For even love can't save us now.. as we play our little games,
I thought that we could make it.. that love could conquer all...
As I'm hanging on for life.. from this long and lonely fall,
And though my heart is bleeding.. I just can't say goodbye...
My love for you won't let me go.. I think I'd rather die,
Together we could have it all.. why can't I make you see...
That all that you've been searching for.. is here inside of me.


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steve, 25 june 2019

"Heaven's On Earth"

My mind wanders.. with thoughts of you.. I'm so grateful for your love...

And just why on earth.. of all the hearts.. its mine you hold above,

I can't think of anything.. to deserve someone like you...

For anything, is what I'd give.. to have you love me too,

I shouldn't tell you.. how I feel.. when I look into your eyes...

Or just how high it takes me.. you chose me of all the guys,

And I won't say, how warm it feels.. to hear you say my name...

Or though we've kissed a thousand times.. its never quite the same,

Or even that my blood still boils.. long after your lingering touch...

While pretending "I don't give a dam".. when your love I need so much,

Should I hide the fact.. that just your kiss.. sets my soul on fire?

And never mention.. the ragging battle.. of my uncontrolled desire,

If I told you how I really felt.. would it change the way you feel?

Would you look at me the way you do.. and say you love me still,

Or do I let the fires burn.. and the chips fall where they may...

For "heaven's on earth".. right here.. with you.. and its where I want to stay.


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steve, 25 june 2019

"More Than Just Hello"

The first thing that I noticed.. when I laid eyes on you..
Was your beauty and how it emanates.. in everything you do,  
Something "more than just hello".. drew me when we met.. 
I looked into your chocolate eyes.. and broke into a sweat,
With cinnamon skin so beautiful..  my senses began to spark..
Setting off a fire inside.. that raged well into dark,
I couldn't stop thinking about you.. or get you out of my head..
So I rewound every moment.. and replayed what was said,
I wanted to be with you.. to know just who you are..
To hear the story that you live.. and how you came this far,
Everything about you.. from your head down to your toes..
Was everything I needed.. but I couldn't let you know,
I know that I can't keep you.. and I know that it won't last..
But I'll always have the memories.. to relive a time that's passed.


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steve, 30 may 2019

"Times"

Though you'll soon be leaving... I won't let it break my heart...
For there were things between us... that kept us far apart,
I'll cherish what we shared.. when we put those things aside...
And the chasm that's between us... didn't seem so wide,
There were times when I loved you.. and times you made me mad...
But most times I was grateful..  for all the times we had,
And when you fly away... like a bird upon the wind...
I'll keep the memories close to heart.. and always call you friend.
                             SG


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steve, 30 may 2019

"Never Will"

 
When you walked out last night.. my heart hit the floor..
I've never felt so empty.. as I watched you close the door,
If you could see my heart.. or the river that I've cried..
Then you might understand the pain.. from you that I must hide,
I can't burden your broken heart.. because my hearts broken too..
And I can't look into your eyes.. and say that "I love you",
I know that you don't feel the same.. I know you never will..
But as long as you still have knowone.. use me at your will,
For I'd take any part of you.. I know you'll soon be gone..
But you don't have to be alone.. in the darkness before dawn,
Together is less "lonely".. and together we are strong..
I just want to kill the pain.. thats been hurting for so long,
You don't have to promise me.. a thing before you go..
You don't even have to speak.. for I already know,
You only have to let me show.. I can take the pain away..
If only for a little while..  keep lonelyness at bey,
                                       sg


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steve, 30 may 2019

"Just A Fool"

Do you know how much it hurts inside.. when you turn and walk away..
My heart screams out.. "Please Don't Go".. but the words I just can't say,
I cried a river of tears for you.. a river that overflows..
And I'm washed away in sorrow..  for I don't want you to go,
Life is a lonely illusion.. if there's no one who stands by your side..
And its easy to come to conclusions.. about all the tears that you've cried,
I've got no reason to be here.. if there's no one who cares but me..
And I'm just a fool for putting you.. somewhere you don't want to be,
This heart is so tired and lonely.. I just wanted to be close to you..
To share something special together.. I could take, that would carry me through,
I'm sorry my friend.. I've failed you.. I couldn't convince you to see..
Everything I've tried to show .. comes from love that's inside of me,
I see you as someone so special.. its the reason I feel like I do?
But my heart never stood a chance.. when it came to just loving you.
                                            sg


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steve, 30 may 2019

"Through A Vail"

I used to sit around all day.. and dream of what could be..
Then I'd cry myself to sleep.. when I faced reality,
I used to think, that things would change.. just like a "fairy tale"..
I'd walked around with blinders on.. saw the world through a vail,
I believed that someone, somewhere.. was made "just for me"..
But I know now, how wrong I was.. what a fool I came to be,
"True love" isn't something real.. and there is no "ment to be"..
Faity tales are "stories".. that they want us to believe,
Nothing that I know today.. is truly as it seems..
And I can't prove "reality" .. is more real than my "dreams",
So I take each day that comes to me.. expecting nothing more..
For I've let go of any dreams.. that you'd walk through that door.
                                       sg


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steve, 30 may 2019

"Just Loves Me"

I waited for you all nite long.. for you to come back to me..
But my heart knew all along..  it wasn't ment to be,
Its funny how we've no control.. of what we feel inside..
And though I knew how it would end.. I went just for the ride,
I'd walk a thousand miles for you.. I'd give everything I own..
I'd lay my life down at your feet.. I'd bow before your throne,
To have you say you love me.. to have you care at all..
I'd use every ounce of strength I have.. as I break through your walls,
But some things we can never own.. and you have to just let go..
It doesn't matter how much you love.. it matters what you know,
And I know that I can't have you.. I know you'll never be..
The one I wake up next to.. someone who just loves me,
                                        sg


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steve, 16 january 2019

"Only In My Dreams"

I thought I'd gotten over.. anything I felt for you..
I cried those tears out years ago.. I guess you never knew,
It broke my heart in pieces.. when told that "you were gone"..
And I would "never" see your face.. in the early light of dawn,
I cried just like a baby.. wanting only you..
Only time would ease the pain.. in a world that broke in two,
I couldn't help my feelings.. for from the very start..
The first time that I met you.. is when you stole my heart,
I couldn't let you know .. I couldn't say a word..
Until that night you shared with me.. and the embers that were stirred,
The embers turned to flames.. that raged out of control..
 And the bare white hot emotions.. burned right threw my soul,
And though you wouldn't know it.. its not always as it seems..
I still see you when I can.. but only in my dreams.
                                          sg


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steve, 18 december 2018

"One Last Chance"

 
 
 
It's my last chance to convince you.. that "rainbows aren't just rain"..
And sometimes when we sacrifice.. there's so much more to gain,
Knock down all the walls you built.. and let my heart come in..
Feed to me my hearts desire.. for what its always been,
You still take my breath away.. as you did the day we met..
And the fire still burns beneath my skin.. as does my hearts regret,
I've waited for so long for you.. with hopes you'd someday see..
A friend who's always cared for you.. and what you mean to me,
I just want to look at you.. and tell you what I feel..
Before so much time has passed away.. that I never will,
One last chance to touch you.. before my heart lets go..
One less dream to fly away.. with love I'll never show,
To have you feel what I can't say.. to lay my hands on you..
To show my heart without one word.. is what I need to do,
To look into those deep blue eyes.. that take me far away..
Or dream of what could never be.. as you ask me to stay,
One last chance to cool the flames.. that have raged inside for years..
One last chance to turn the page.. and put an end to tears.
                                       sg
 


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steve, 18 december 2018

"From Me / To You"

I remember when we met.. and right out of the gate...
Before you even said a word, my heart was thinking fate,
I've loved you from that moment, with my heart I love you still...
But I can't make you care for me,  I know you never will,
Dreams are all that I have left, to make it through the night...
I sometimes wish we'd never met, so my heart would be alright,
I'd like to put a happy spin, on what I'm trying to say...
But the tears running down my face, keep getting in the way,
Goodbye would be so easy if I weren't in love with you...
To walk away and not look back.. is something I can't do,
Though my love for you is real.. I must hide it far away...
Never to be heard again... nor see the light of day,
If this is what you wish "from me".. your wish is my command...
And everything I'm saying now.. "to you" is my last stand,
I look into your steel blue eyes.. for any change of heart...
But I know exactly where I stand.. and I've known it from the start,
You know how much I love you.. you know I'll always care...
So if you need me... turn around.. for I'm already there. 
                                            sg


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steve, 18 december 2018

"Never Was"

 
 
I wanted only to love you.. as this heart already does..
While I cry myself to sleep.. for things that "never was",
He "never was" in love with you.. he "never was" too blame..
You can't make someone love.. if they don't feel the same,
It "never was" the right time.. as time plays tricks on you..
Yesterday I was twenty one.. today I'm fifty two,
Life was never fair.. and the road was long and hard..
I've had to fight for everything.. and its left me bruised and scarred,
There "never was" a reason.. as to why you shied away..
And there "never was" a time.. that I wished you wouldn't stay,
There "never was" someone.. that I loved more than you..
But you never felt the same.. and that "never was" more true,
Now the years have flown away.. as love eluded me..
Though I searched for many years.. it "never was" to be.
                                          sg
 


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steve, 18 december 2018

"I Could Say"

There's nothing "I could say".. that would change a single thing...
I can't make you fall in love.. and I'm not one to cling,
I could tell you what you mean to me... when I look into your eyes...
Or push it even farther down... behind a masked disguise,
I could tell you how my blood boils.. when your laying by my side...
But never mention the lonely nights.. without you that I've cried,
I could say your skin's like velvet.. and I long to feel your touch...
And I doubt there's anyone alive.. who could make me feel as much,
I could tell you how it feels.. to be burning from within...
As the fires rage out of control.. just beneath my skin,
Or I could say "I don't care".. I could say that "I was high"...
But every single word I spoke.. would be another lie,
Maybe I should walk away.. and never say a thing...
I don't want the broken heart... goodbye always brings.


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steve, 26 may 2018

Just Beneath My Skin

You walked into the room last night.. and I could barely breathe..
I couldn't take my eye's off you.. and my mind could not concieve,
That anything more beautiful.. in this world might exist..
As my eye's caressed all of you.. there was nothing that was missed,
I don't remember what was said.. as my world, dissolved away..
You were all that I could see.. beyond you, only gray,
I couldn't bring my words to mouth.. and I couldn't let it show..
The inferno that consumed me.. was not in my control,
I had to walk away from you.. my thoughts were not my own..
My heart was in complete control.. and you were not alone,
With bated breath and heavy heart.. I tore myself away..
Wanting nothing more than you.. I kept my tears at bey,
There's no good reason.. to let you know, what I feel for you..
It wouldn't change a single thing.. and I wouldn't want it to,
I'll always see you with my heart.. the way I saw you then..
And always will the fires burn.. "just beneath my skin".
                               sg


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steve, 19 april 2017

"Pretend The Pain Away"

The sun won't shine without you... the nights are twice as long...
And I'm just lying in the dark... wondering what went wrong,
The sky's no longer blue... the way it used to be...
And even when the stars come out... it's just too dark to see,
The truth is.. life without you... hasn't been the same...
I still break down every time... someone says your name,
I can't pretend the pain away... it's just too hard to do...
And I can't forget the way it was... I've never wanted to,
Our friends won't come here anymore.. they don't know what to say...
As I keep the curtains drawn uptight.. and stay in bed all day,
I pick up all the pieces.. and say that.. "it's all good"...
But it's just a lie to cover up.. how I've never understood,
The sun may rise tomorrow.. but it's just another day...
For nothing in this world makes sense.. since you went away.
                                        


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steve, 28 november 2016

"Build A Bridge"

We'd been ten years together.. but I'm not going to lie...
As the hardest year's I've ever faced... I wish had passed me by,
There were trials we faced together.. and trials I faced alone...
Times that I needed you.. but you left me on my own,
There are things that I've forgiven.. and things I can't forget...
But the love I had.. forever changed.. the first time I was hit,
If it all had played out different.. if you had more self-control...
The love we had.. may have survived.. despite the heavy toll,
Our actions cause reactions.. and the foundation that was laid...
Was a price that cost us everything.. and should never have been paid,
We can't turn back the hands of time..  we can't change who we are...
What we had went up in flames.. just like a burning car,
It was all downhill their after.. and I should have walked away...
I could have saved us both the pain.. of the higher price we'd pay,
If you're always in the fast lane..someday your going to crash...
But I'd like to think that something.. could be carried from the ash..
What's done is done.. we must move on.. let the past remain the past...
And together, turn what we destroyed.. into friendship that will last,
If anger and resentment.. are allowed to have control...
Friendship's not an option.. as we'll have to just let go,
After all these years together.. if we let go what was lost...
I think that we can build a bridge.. that both of us could cross.


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steve, 27 november 2016

"Two Hearts"

Two hearts beating.. side by side...
Torn apart.. is love denied,
But even miles.. cannot erase...
The love that know one.. could replace,
Now this heartbeats.. just for you...
Through lonely nights.. and tears of blue,
And dreams someday.. the love that flows...
From my heart.. to yours will know,
No walls.. nor fence.. nor miles between...
Two hearts.. could ever change a thing,
As the world, we knew... was torn apart...
My love still soars.. into your heart,
Like golden wings.. into the sun...
Two hearts filled.. become as one.


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steve, 27 june 2015

"If Only"

If only things were different.. you might still be here...
And I could set the world on fire.. instead of shedding tears,
If only I'd of listened.. to things you had to say...
Instead of rushing out the door.. to the same thing everyday,
If only I could see you.. and look into your eye's...
I'd never let you get away.. there'd be no more goodbye's,
If only I could have one chance.. to do it all again...
I didn't know the hour glass.. was running out of sand,
If only I'd of shown... the love I have for you...
Instead of somehow thinking.. that you already knew,
If only it was not too late.. and I never had to say...
Those two words I've come to hate...  that haunt me everyday.
                                          sg


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steve, 19 june 2015

"Just Pretend"

Its safe to say.. you'll never know, just what I feel inside...
You'll never know the lonely nights.. or see the tears I've cried,
And you'll never have to wonder.. why you feel this way...
Or hide the shame of who you are.. for fear they'll know your gay,
You'll never have to live a lie.. or pretend your what, your not...
But you'll always hear the reasons why.. they deserved just what they got,
You'll never have to just pretend.. how happy that you are...
While the only place you feel at ease... is some seedy down town bar,
You'll never have hear the words.. " a choice, that you have made"...
While making death a cheaper price.. than what we have to pay,
Things you take for granted.. are things I'll never know...
With so much hate for those like me.... were not allowed to go,
I'll never have "that special day" .. to proclaim my love out loud...
And no one will ever call me "Dad".. or want to make me proud,
I'm not afforded all the rights... that you enjoy each day...
And there are places.. you don't dare.. to let them know your gay,
If hate and fear are nurtured... just how can we progress?
As children take there lives each day.. for what they can't confess,
And how many lives must be lost.. before the world will see...
Your born with the heart you carry.. its not what you chose to be,
Open your eyes, I'm your brother.. your sister.. a  friend that you knew...
Let go of the hate and the anger.. and what you'll see looking back is you.
                                                    sg


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steve, 6 june 2015

"Whispers In The Wind"

If somehow there was more for us.. more than just a friend...
And I didn't have to hide it all.. from "whispers in the wind"
If somehow all the tears I've cried.. could wash away the pain...
And I could hold your hand in mine.. I wouldn't mind the rain,
If somehow I could change it all.. I'd make you love me too...
And it wouldn't be just in my dreams... I'm spending time with you,
If somehow you could see inside.. the person that I am...
It might be more than just a glance.. you might just "give a dam",
If somehow I could stop the pain.. this broken heart will feel...
Knowing you will never care.. and that I alway's will,
If somehow I could end it all.. I might just say goodbye...
I'm so damed tired of lonely.. and asking myself.. why.             
                                              sg


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steve, 17 march 2015

"Cried Without A Sound"

2:00 oclock in the morning.. as she "cried without a sound"...
Three days after Christmas.. in a sleepy southern town,
The year was 1956.. and Chevy's ruled the road...
When I was born.. Momma's tears was the only pain she showed,
The second born of seven.. while five stood in the wings...
Waiting for a chance at life.. and all the pain it brings,
I've watched her do our laundry.. on a washboard in the cold...
And even though her hands were blue.. her heart was made of gold,
Raising seven children.. alone and somewhere new..
I wonder where she got the strength.. to do the thing's she'd do,
She taught us to be strong and just.. and pray to "God" above...
And I knew if I lost everything.. I'd never loose her love,
We never had much money.. and there was no "silver spoon"...
We were blessed with so much more.. my Mom hung the moon.
                                            sg


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steve, 1 march 2014

"Dreamer"

They say that I'm a dreamer.. and I'd have to say its true...
Its just that when I sleep.. all I dream about is you,
I've tried to back away from you.. I've tried to clear my head...
But life without you.. feels as though I'm hanging by a thread,
I don't know.. just what it is.. that I'm supposed to do...
I can't stop the sunrise.. or "what I feel for you",
I can't make you understand.. " I have no control"...
Or look beyond what you see.. into the window of my soul,
And I can't show, my love for you.. that swell's inside my heart...
Is the very love, I can't control.. thats tearing me apart,
If I had.. just one wish.. I would have you close your eyes...
So that you could see and feel .. the truth beyond the lies,
To lay my hands upon you.. as your heartbeats next to mine...
To stare into those deep blue eyes.. that always seem to shine,
To bring a dream to life.. to make a wish come true...
To hold my heart.. in your hands.. because you wanted too,
Just one chance to show you.. the dreams that haunt my sleep...
Just one chance to know you.. and love that I can't keep.
                                          sg


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steve, 23 december 2013

"The Beast of Agua Fria"

It lies in wait.. a dormant beast...
                               residing where there's none...
In the hills.. and caves of dark...
                               where rocks are weighed in tons,
Waiting for the blood-red moon...
                               when slumber is no more...
It rises from the darkest depths...
                         and steps out of ancient lore,
You strain your eyes to see it...
                               through the shadows of the trees...
But you know that something lies in wait...
                               you can smell it in the breeze,
The crackling of a breaking branch...
                               the rustling in the brush...
Your heart pounds like thunder...
                               and your blood begins to rush,
You turn to see those big red eyes...
                               as they are set on you...
And the distant echo's of your screams...
                               too late for legends true,
It roams the hills on moonless nights...
                               in search of scattered souls...
A thousand years.. it hasn't changed...
                               and no one knows the toll,
Legends warn.. of thee beware...
                               what lies beyond the road...
The Beast of Agua Fria lives...
                               where blood-red river's flow.


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steve, 15 december 2013

"Say The Words"

It's way past time to say goodbye...
                           for decisions you have made...
You treat love... like its a game...
                           and think people should be played,
So let me tell you how I feel...
                           and say goodbye to you...
I never thought I'd say the words...
                           much less believe its true,
You don't love me anymore...
                           the way a lover should...
And I can't stand... three rows back...
                           and play like its all good,
This heart will always love you...
                           and I wish you the best...
And pray that "God" watch over you...
                           and hope your life is blessed,
I hope you find.. what I call truth...
                           before the truth finds you ...
The things I've learned about you lately...
                           I wish I never knew,
You've changed so fast.. and so much...
                           I don't know who you are...
And the distance now between us...
                           has never been so far, 
If this is who you really are...
                          you hid it well from me...

But now the truth has come to light...
                          and the truth has set me free.

 
              


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steve, 15 december 2013

"Moments"

There's not much you can say..
                 when your heart is on the line...
Everything you say or do..
                 can hurt you everytime,
Knowone really seems to know..
                  just what you feel inside...
And knowone really cares about..
                  just how much you've cried,
So I try to grab a moment..
                  when a moment comes along...
Because I believe whats from the heart..
                   could never be that wrong,
A moment passes quickly..
                   but the memory's there to stay...
Its all I have to hold onto..
                   that gets me through the day,
So please don't think.. I'd ever want..
                    something you can't give...
I'm just grabing at a "moment" ..
                    from this lonely life I live,
                                  sg


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Other poems: "One May Never Find", "Not Another You", "Not The Perfect Answer", "Do You Think You Can Save Me", "Can't Let Go", "My Wildest Dreams", "I Can't Hold On", "What To Say", "Cold Heart", "Smoke Upon The Wind", Killing Me, Every Moment, Matter Of Time, Lonely Doesn't Even Come Close, "I Failed", "No Regrets", "Strength In Numbers"", "All Eternity", "No More", "My Wife", "In My Head", Scarlet Blue, Finally Realize, "Take A Chance", You Don't Want Me, "Fairy Tales", "The Only Way", I Wouldn't, Do It All Again, Time Won't Stop, "Lonely For Too Long", Never There, Out Of Words, Something That You Gave, Anytime Anywhere, "Love Equals Pain", Wish Upon A Falling Star, What's To Lose, Wanted You To Know, What Keeps Me Holding On, "Never To Love Again", Never, Burning Flame, She Lives, What Am I Doing?, Time, Passion, Why Is It, "No Guarantees", Blue, "I Keep Holding On", "Great Divide", "Out Of Time", "Yesterday", "What is Right", "Wasn't Enough", "Your Wish Is My Command", "Here and Now", "Long Ago", "I Am Not", "Morning Light", "Too Late", "Just Some Friend", "Fly Away", "No Words", "Holding On", "Man On Fire", "Monsoon", "Don't Look Back", "One True Love", "Burn The Bridiges", "How Do I", "One Wish", "Perfect Is A Fairytale", "Turn And Walk Away", "Two Steps Back", "Heaven's On Earth", "More Than Just Hello", "Times", "Never Will", "Just A Fool", "Through A Vail", "Just Loves Me", "Only In My Dreams", "One Last Chance", "From Me / To You", "Never Was", "I Could Say", Just Beneath My Skin, "Pretend The Pain Away", "Build A Bridge", "Two Hearts", "If Only", "Just Pretend", "Whispers In The Wind", "Cried Without A Sound", "Dreamer", "The Beast of Agua Fria", "Say The Words", "Moments", "Dream", "Beyond The Moonlight Beams", "Should I", "Help Me Find My Way", "We Laugh, We Cry, We Live & Die", "Reflection In The Mirror", "Deep Blue", "Think Of You", "Watch Me Fly Away", "RUN", "Love I Never Had", "Hardest Thing", "Everything I Can",

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