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Sarah Bell, 8 july 2013
18 april 2002, thursday ( Broken Chains )
I want to be open
I want to be free
I want these chains broken
I want to be me.
Soul tells me to sing
My heart says to soar
Afraid to do either
So I close the door.
And lock myself away
Eyes blinded seeing no light
Mind says don’t speak up
I cannot fight.
Shadowpain, 13 june 2013
13 june 2013, thursday ( Fatigued )
The end of school is in sight. I only have 20 exams. And i can learn it in 2 hours.
Most of the time i'm bored to death.
I love to sleep and i can sleep all day but i'm so tired.
I can't sleep at night.
I'm always up listening to music or watching a series.
I don't (... więcej)
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 1 june 2013
1 june 2013, saturday ( Starting Over.... )
My life was empty when you went away...like loosing your best friend
I always put trust and believed in you.......where did I go wrong?
These days have been great ones as I filled your head
And your ego...you are not my friend, just a passing in the dark
I can either let myself be hurt or pick up (... więcej)
Shadowpain, 15 may 2013
15 may 2013, wednesday ( Light at the end of the tunnel )
Things are on the bright side most of the time.
I finally found someone special in my life, we are together 4 months now. I wouldn't know how i would get throught the day without her.
I finally found the energy to pick my life up again and do what i love to do.
I'm sporting again like (... więcej)
moriana, 3 may 2013
3 may 2013, friday ( Myśląc o Vistulandii... )
Jestem zdegustowana obchodami święta polskiej flagi w Warszawie i zachwycona tymiż w Chicago. Do tego zachwycona tym filmem także jestem: http://www.youtube.com/user/meheh?feature=watch
"Poland has been again overrun by two of the great powers which held her in bondage for 150 years but (... więcej)
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 25 april 2013
25 april 2013, thursday ( SO, Done with it )
I was very frustrated for a few days. Now I am just puzzled. A good friend of mine went out of town and I have heard from them ONCE???? I understand that they could be extremely busy but a 5 minute phone call? HELLO...........I am very hurt by their lack of concern for someone who was there (... więcej)
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 6 april 2013
7 december 2013, saturday ( Enough already )
I have sat back and took a back seat to what is going on.
I think sometimes people forget others. Have you?
It seems as though ever since you have been away, I hear nothing.....
I care about what happens to you; no emails, no notes, nothing.
Are you OK? I hope so. This is a bit awkward to (... więcej)
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 5 april 2013
7 april 2013, sunday ( What's Up? )
I am having a good day...that is all that I can ask God for. I miss my friend who has gone to do some business. I miss the letters, the emails and the poetry. I am sure they are busy. I just want a note telling me that they are OK.
I am saying a prayer for those still out there and lost. I (... więcej)
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 1 april 2013
2 april 2013, tuesday ( Summertime... )
My friend is still gone for a few weeks; finishing some things. I miss him. I hope everyone gets up like I did this morning and is seeing summertime. The grass is finally turning green and it is not as cold outside (compared to 23 degrees). Yesterday it was 70 degrees. I am doing excellent, (... więcej)
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 30 march 2013
30 march 2013, saturday ( Only Today )
I feel better today, this morning......my freind and I are OK.
Sometimes you assume something and it really is not what you thought it was
I wish I did not have abandonment issues, but after everything that has happened with my family...it is something of a work in progress. I miss my daily chats (... więcej)
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 27 march 2013
26 march 2013, tuesday ( Now What )
I have been writing to a person on this board. I feel as though when he is on here, he opens up. He gave me his phone number and I called him. He was distant, too busy to talk, could not talk???? What am I supposed to think? Well, I am not thinking anyone as I have to figure this out peacefully (... więcej)
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 24 march 2013
24 march 2013, sunday ( YEAHHHHHH )
I just got a note from Goldie-she is so sweet and thoughtful. I am writing a poem but it is not done yet. I hope that it reaches some people out there. I miss talking to Louis...I may call him today. I am feeling soooo much better. My meds are working and I just feel good. It has been ann (... więcej)
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 23 march 2013
23 march 2013, saturday ( Untitled )
I woke up this morning, feeling wonderful. I have so much to be thankful for......People who love me comes to mind first...To Louis, I miss your notes and poetry but I also miss talking to you. I have posted one poem in the last 3 days. I think I have writer's block. Has happened before. (... więcej)
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 22 march 2013
22 march 2013, friday ( It is ME again.... )
I feel so blessed, this morning I woke up and finally felt "normal". It was an experience about being detoxed off meds. I really believe that you are so in tune with yourself after you get off that stuff. Mine was Visteral and Topomax. Topomax for seizures and Visteral for anxiety. (... więcej)
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 22 march 2013
22 march 2013, friday ( Live and Learn...... )
My new motto of the day is "live and learn". It seems as though I have been through quite a bit yesterday......and the days before that. It has made me humble and also very aware of other people's feelings. I feel like I have hurt someone without his consent. I have to get back (... więcej)
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 21 march 2013
20 march 2013, wednesday ( Hanging in there )
I have begun a personal challange and nobody won. I just got what I needed. My Steven is no longer upset about my emails to certain people on the site. WE had a VERY long talk last night about control. I cannot be controlled. I am only human and I may have made a few mistakes in my life but (... więcej)
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 18 march 2013
18 march 2013, monday ( What goes AROUND.... )
Louis and Goldie, I hope this finds you both well. I have decided to rebel. I am no longer angry, just a little frustrated. I will do the right thing no matter what. It is unjust to tell someone that they cannot write to other people. Jealousy is a monster but I really at this point, do not (... więcej)
louis gander, 18 march 2013
18 march 2013, monday ( Good morning! )
Let me say,
"Good morning to the sunshine
that warms my somber face.
Good morning to the people
who labor in their place.
Life continues every day.
We do what people do.
Today the sunshine welcomes me -
but may it also you."
louis gander, 18 march 2013
17 march 2013, sunday ( Goodnight )
Let me say,
"Good night to venus,
good night to mars,
good night to the moon-
and good night stars.
good night to the clouds
and residual hue
left by the sunset.
Good night to you too...
louis gander, 17 march 2013
17 march 2013, sunday ( Mountain Peak )
I'm in a sad valley today, a very deep desert valley between two high mountain peaks of joy- near a pond only large enough for survival, I am like a toad, but survive, I will. I always have.
One mountain peak is behind me- in the past. I saw people happy and laughing there. I was one of (... więcej)
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 17 march 2013
17 march 2013, sunday ( Up all night )
I have been up all night, I am not even tired. My anger onverrides that. It is beyond my comprehension how a person can make your life so miserable, and continues to do so. You can LOVE many people for many reasons. Does that mean I cannot LOVE anyone. Even as a great, wondeful friend. I (... więcej)
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 17 march 2013
17 march 2013, sunday ( Crying...... )
I have had to make myself unavailable to certain people. I HATE it. I cannot stand control issues or manipulation. Why at my grown up age do I feel like a prisoner in my own mind. I will never stop caring for these people, no one can control me. It is just temporary in nature. There all kinds (... więcej)
louis gander, 14 march 2013
14 march 2013, thursday ( Happiest )
When someone shows you respect and kindness...
When someone puts a big smile on your face...
...you become the happiest guy in the whole world!
:)
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 14 march 2013
13 march 2013, wednesday ( Time to unwind!!! )
I have been a little hyperactive since I am home. I think a lot of it is medication withdrawal. Just my observation. I want everyone to go buy at Barnes and Noble....Goldie Lopez's book is published and is there for you to get. It is full of great poetry and Goldie is really Golden. I (... więcej)
Lody Heront, 12 march 2013
12 march 2013, tuesday ( what a ... )
These recent days I feels like "cell phone" with battery about to die.. lol
Dead in bed!
Oo gossshhh... it's more than exhausted!!
let me lay down, let me sleep.
I need to recharging my body and soul to face tomorrow.
My energy is just 0,5 percent left.
*yawn*.... Zzzhhh..... (... więcej)
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 10 march 2013
10 march 2013, sunday ( Sleepless in St. Louis )
I justv woke up and it is 3am.....I woke up shaking and trembling for some odd reason. I think my new med is working as I am already feeeling better. ANXETY? Why on Earth would I have that? I can think of about 10 reasons........
I have been weaned -reweaned off meds. I think they are all (... więcej)
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 9 march 2013
9 march 2013, saturday ( I am wonderful...... )
Not meaning I AM WONDERFUL....meaning I feel great. I took my new med and so far no problems with it. It is supposed to help my anxiety....I woke up shaking from a horrid nightmare.....2 days ago......I was living in my car. People all around were laughing and then someone pulled a gun out and (... więcej)
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 9 march 2013
9 march 2013, saturday ( Spring has sprung.... )
Tonight the clocks go ahead 1 hour -ah, the beginning of spring. By the calender not officily.....but I am in a spring mood. I feel great.....have changed my meds but again but that's OK. I am just doing what my Dr. says and he is always right. I have the world's best DR....by (... więcej)
Kahlia Mazacalletti, 8 march 2013
8 march 2012, thursday ( Free...... )
Today, I feel free, from critisicm, hate, lonliness and judgement. I will continue to do so. I feel as though 1000 pds. has been lifted off me. I am FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. Yes. I am writing my book still and and a new poem. Will post it when done. My health is better and I feel wonderful. (... więcej)
Bron Dayvid, 6 march 2013
7 march 2012, wednesday ( An Excerpt from "The Awakening" )
When I wrote it was as if I were possessed by the spirit of a poet who sought reincarnation through me to be heard. Words swarmed inside my head like fireflies; illuminating the blackness that was my mind, and enlightening the weary soldier that was my soul. Energy flowed through my veins as the pen (... więcej)
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